Holiday Kink & 2013

Merry Christmas!
At 26 years old this is the first year I've spent the Holidays alone. Being that I just moved to Arizona in early September I didn't want to fly home for the Holidays. I cooked some pork chops for myself on Thanksgiving and I'm still here for Christmas and New Years. There are about 5-6 others that moved to Arizona for the job offer and didn't go home for the Holidays so we all hung out yesterday and tonight are having Christmas dinner together. Should be fun tonight.

I have filmed a few times recently. I shot my first real trample shoot in November in Northern Arizona with Mistress Octavia aka Tangent. Personally, trampling isn't my thing but I thought I would try it out and I will admit that it's a lot tougher than it looks. I was feminized with my hair done (which is the longest it's ever been), make up, and then lingerie. Another woman joined Miss Octavia and I felt like my head was going to pop off my shoulders. It was pretty intense.

I then filmed again with Miss Octavia but this was for her clips4sale store. Did some foot fetish scenarios and then some feminization and bondage. About 2 weeks ago Miss Octavia and I also did a personal webcam scene for a lucky slave boy. I hadn't done anal in many months and I still managed to take my big pink dildo. "I'm an anal professional". The scene was pretty hot with some really hard pounding. When we began we did some strap-on deep throat as well and somehow I cut something in the back of my throat and all this blood just kept coming out of my throat. It was a bit nerve racking but it didn't hurt. It was strange.
If you can't tell, I've been working with Miss Octavia a lot lately. It's nice to have met another really kinky - kinkster in the area that also has experience in front of the camera and is intelligent. Believe it or not, that can be hard to come by.

My new "career" job is going well. Looking forward to 2013 where I plan to do some traveling. LA, Vegas, and some others. I don't like to stay anywhere too long without traveling. I've been in Arizona 4 months now and on top of that I'm not the biggest fan of Phoenix. I do have some friends visiting in the Spring though so that will be nice.

I need to upload videos to my Clips4sale as I'm sitting on some videos right now. The past 2 weeks I haven't been online much because my new cat - Nibbles ate my Macbook charger and I haven't bought a new charger yet. I've been putting my new place together. New couch, artwork, TV, bedroom etc. It's taken longer than I expected to just get everything together and for home to start feeling like home. Because of all this my Clips4sale and kink on some level has taken a bit of a backseat.
2013 will have things coming together for me.

I did get some new lingerie and hot little black dress though. Here's a pictures of the black dress and my new cat who now is about 8 1/2 months old.

The Now & Things To Come

This summary is not available. Please click here to view the post.

Arizona: Here I come

I’ve been gone from here for a little while now but for good reason. I’ve graduated from Ohio University and I’ve been in Chicago for 2 months now. I’ve been working 40 plus hours for free as I’ve been doing an internship downtown. It’s been one of the best experiences of my life. I’ve got 2 more weeks with the internship and one more week after that in Chicago. Then I’m officially on my way to Arizona near the end of August.

I’ve got an apartment in Scottsdale, Arizona and I’m more excited now than I’ve ever been for the move. It’s a fresh slate, something different, something new. I’ve never been to Arizona, let alone out west. I’m excited to take my skills and knowledge and put it forth into my first career position. I love Chicago and with it being my home town I’ll always be in the city at least on some level. Whether it be visiting family and friends or occasionally in town for certain holidays or with me relocating back to the area in the future… who knows. With all that said, I’m ready to leave Chicago on my own terms.

My move to Ohio was never really on my own terms. I was there my senior year of high school and I didn’t want to be there. I went back for 2 ½ years of college but that was more or less because I was backed into a corner and it was the smartest choice at the time. This is the first time I’m making a big move because I want to. Of course there are a few nerves with such a large move but for the most part its excitement.

I’m ready to let my career take off. I’m excited for a drastically different environment than I’ve ever been exposed to (the desert). There seems to be lots of opportunities for being outdoors which I love. I’ll be driving distances from other cities on the west coast; Vegas, L.A., San Diego, San Francisco, Dallas, Houston and more. I’ll also be close to Mexico and I look forward to visiting some northern Mexican cities. Plus I’ll be exposed to a new kink scene in Arizona and the west coast as a whole. I look forward to attending DomCon L.A. for the first time come 2013.

It’s simply refreshing to be taking that next step in my life. I’m looking forward to all the new people and experiences to be had as well as catching up with some old acquaintances out west. I’ve learned that I can’t be in one place for that long of a time (a couple months). I just need to get out and travel every once in a while and this move allows me to explore a part of the country & continent I haven’t seen yet.

Once I’m settled in Arizona I will be blogging more. More about me in the world of kink to come.

I'm Done & Ready For Summer Kink

For some kink news:
I heard on the news the other day that the book, "50 Shades of Grey" is being banned in hundreds if not thousands of public libraries across the U.S. I found this to be rather funny as they only did it to hopefully silence the critics, i.e. the feminists. The book has received great reviews and has sold quite a lot of copies. If you're not sure what the book about here is a short bio.
     - A business woman falls for a wealthy, respectable business man. After awhile they begin to address their feelings toward one another but the man - Mr. Grey says that he will only begin the relationship on his conditions. His conditions are that of kink and D/s. He is a controlling man who trains her to be his submissive and she starts to explore her own dark desires as well.
------------
I have my last Final of my Bachelors degree in 1 1/2 hours. I could get a 0 on the exam and still pass the class with a 70% so I feel good. But if I can get a "B" in the class that would be awesome meaning that my last quarter grades of by Bachelors degree would be (A, A, B, B, B)

Tomorrow some of my family will be in town. We're going out for dinner to celebrate. Saturday I walk in graduation and Sunday I'll be in Chicago.

Graduation for me is a great accomplishment. I took a year off of school out of college and then did 3 years a Columbia College Chicago. I loved the school but I lost my co-signer and could no longer afford the college. I almost didn't even get into college to start with because I couldn't find a co-signer. After taking the year off, working 2 full time jobs and doing fetish modeling I transferred to Ohio University. Putting in 15-21 credit hours per quarter regularly for 2 years while also traveling and doing fetish modeling for work I've finally reached the end of this chapter of my life.

I'm soon to be a graduate and starting my career.

But don't worry, I'll still be plenty involved in kink and sharing it all with you.

More and more it's looking like I'll have a great kink filled summer. A good friend of mine referenced me to play with someone. We've been talking and hopefully we can share a good kink filled summer. She has expressed an interest in trying out taking the mother role in an ABDL relationship. I guess I'm a have to buy some more diapers real soon then. I've always been a "DL" but the "AB" side of things is a learning curve so to do that with someone else who has an interest in it could be a lot of fun.

We've also briefly discussed some other kink dynamics. As we talk more and get things rolling I'll be sure to share.

Chicago! Here I come!

Coming & Going

I'll be leaving Ohio in 9 days, this time I hope it's forever. After I spent my senior year of high school in Ohio I moved out on my own at 18 and back to Chicago. I never thought I'd end up back in Ohio but obviously that didn't exactly go as planned. I've spent the past 2 1/2 years in Ohio and I have no plans on ever living here again. It feels great to have earned my Bachelors degree and now I'm ready to move on to the next phase of life.

Stop 1: Chicago. I would've liked to of been staying in Chicago this summer because it would make my life easier with an internship and truthfully most of my time spent will be in Chicago (Internship, kink, bars, friends etc). With that said, I'm staying at an apartment in Des Plaines because my best friend just got a new apartment and I'm staying with him. We are really tight and if I am going to be living in Arizona for the next few years I want us to have a good summer together before I go again. Everyone that knows me knows how close me and my friend Jamal are. I know it's important to him that I'm around and it's important to me that we can at worst have one last go at a fun summer.

I've been talking with a lot of models and dommes to shoot with this summer. It's looking like it will be a good summer for filming. I personally haven't filmed in about 3 months and have maybe only filmed 10 times over the past 9 months. Being that it was my senior year and I was taking more than a full load of credits, I had my hands full. I've got a lot of new women that I have plans with for filming purposes. I've also got some people that I've shot with in the past as well. I even got a sexy femme sissy that I have plans to shoot with.

I plan on shooting a lot of diverse material. Putting myself into a lot of crazy kinky, humiliating, degrading, mind blowing circumstances and best of all I'm looking forward to it. I'm always pushing/expanding my own limitations and finding new things that get me off. I'm also focusing on doing a lot of trade for content work meaning all of my shoots will become available at my video store for you to cum and enjoy - AEB Femdom

I'm also looking forward to just attending some kink events this summer. It's been awhile since I've done so. Last year I had a great time at the LRA 4th of July kink celebration so I hope to attend that again this year. I believe it's actually on the 3rd of July. The Chicago legend and my friend Mortis has been teaching kink classes in town again so I hope to catch one of his classes and hopefully I'll make it to Carnel for my first time among some other kinky ongoings.

I'm ready to kick off a hard-working and hard-playing extravagant kink filled summer in Chicago.

Additionally, I wanted to note that I've added a few features to my blog over the past few months. To the right you can see my Clips4sale store. Most recently added are the "Who do you think you are" videos. Which has some really hot strap-on/ass fucking scenes, forced orgasms, blackmail, and humiliation. To the right you can see my Amazon wish list for those that ask for it and wish to get me some gifts. Near the top and again to the right is a new "Share it" feature allowing you to easily share my blog with others on Facebook and Twitter. I've also added a feature that counts the hits this blog gets. It's up to almost 30,000 which is awesome!

The Male Submissive

I've had active kinky profiles online since the age of 17. Yes, I was underage just like many of you were the first time you looked at porn and or flipped through a Playboy magazine. I've known I was kinky long before that but none-the-less, I've been active on kink based social networking sites for over 9 years now as I'll be 26 in early September. The social networking sites themselves have drastically improved over the years however there is one thing that always seems to remain constant.

The way male submissive's act online.

These male submissive's discuss their problems in finding a play partner and or a dominant to serve. They will complain about everything under the sun.

• Too many Pro-Dommes
• Nobody seems to be real
• Everyone wants something in exchange
• No one responds to me

The real problem is in that of the male submissive.

To start, when a male sub contacts someone they hope to serve they should write more than one line.

"Hey, you're beautiful. I'd love to worship your feet, that really turns me on" Just doesn't cut it.

Follow this Top 10 List:

1. Make sure you have correct spelling. 

2. Don't contact someone and tell them what you expect. 

3. Perhaps you should leave your name. 

4. It helps if you've filled out your own profile. 

5. Properly introduce yourself. 

6. Be polite 

7. Don't send a 2nd, 3rd, 4th and so on email within hours or days of not receiving a response. 

8. Don't contact a Pro Domme and then get mad when money is asked of you.

9. READ the profile of the person you're contacting.

10. Don't jerk off while contacting the person you're interested in

You would think that this would be common sense. Unfortunately for many, common sense goes out the door in the world of sex.

There are lots and lots of dominants and switches out there that are interested and seeking submissive males. However, sitting on your internet and not following proper writing etiquette nor showing a common courtesy to someone isn't going to get you very far.

There is a very large abundance of male subs who feel that they will never get an opportunity to serve a dominant. That the stories they read and the pictures they view will be the closest that they will ever get. 

I get a lot of emails on my Fetlife account from male submissive's of all ages in regards to these topics. Asking about how to get more involved. Telling me that I'm lucky and they wish that they could be me. I've been asked on how to send emails to dominants as well. I always respond as I try to assist those truly seeking out advice. I can be a fun-loving narcissist sometimes but for the large part I'm a humble person. I created my luck in kink. I wasn't born into the world of sexual exploration. I sought it out and with time I learned to accept myself but also study sexual alternatives.

Probably the most common question I get is: How did I get to be so involved?

Male submissives realize that it's not easy to be a male submissive and yet they assume that the world was given to me. To shorten up a long story here is my Timeline into BDSM.

- Age 17, I skipped a basketball game and saw a Pro Domme in Chicago. I paid $200 for the hour. I was extremely nervous but it was the best experience of my life.

- Age 18, In Ohio and saw a Pro Domme in the Cleveland area. Paid $300 for the hour.

- Age 18, moved back to Chicago after graduation & saw a Pro Domme I had been talking with online for 2 years now. She wouldn't see me till I turned 18. I paid $200 for the hour.

- Age 18, almost 19 I saw that same Pro Domme. This time I paid $100 cash & $100 in a giftcard that I had to Extreme Restraints.

- Age 19, Saw the same Pro Domme but we had worked out a 6 month slave training contract between us. I cleaned her dungeon twice a week in exchange for play. I only got play if I had done a good job.

- Age 19, Came out to my friends as being "Kinky" as they started to notice that I was hiding things from them.

- Age 19, Attended Fetishcon in Tampa Bay, Florida with 3 "vanilla" friends. Definitely didn't go as planned with my friends but in the long run was a good experience.

- Age 20, I was no longer serving the same Domme. I was upset that we broke it off but I was starting college. A few months later, although nervous I began attending Nawa Shibari Chicago by myself. A Rope bondage/Kink group.

- Age 20, Decided to put up pictures online about wanting to be a fetish model. I did this to get into the 21+ kinky clubs in Chicago. I also did it to meet more people and hopefully find someone to serve. Dvnt of Chicago who also ran Nawa Shibari Chicago contacted me about being in a live performance at a kinky club.

- Age 20, months later I began serving Miss Jaded who also helped run Nawa Shibari Chicago. Soon after I was attending 2-6 kinky functions in Chicago every month. 6 months later I began a personal relationship on top of a D/s relationship with Miss Jaded.

- Age 20-23, Attended Fetishcon, Atlanta Bound, Shibaricon twice. Assisted in presenting at classes at national conventions and local conventions. Started meeting a lot of big named Dommes, models, and photographers. Had my own members site and became part owners in a new Chicago dungeon - The Studio Chicago. Began filming as a male bottom in femdom based videos as well as doing fetish modeling for still photos. Also worth noting, I was a full time college student and worked some part-time jobs.

- Age 23, split with Miss Jaded and I moved to Ohio to stay with my mother for about 9 months. I lost my co-signer with college and was forced to take a year off from school. I took a much needed brake from kink as I was getting over a break up and needed time for myself. I got 1 full time job and then a 2nd full time job, working 80 plus hours per week.

- Age 23, Starting to get back into kink and to my normal self I knew that Madame Ingrid was a respected Domme and was in Pittsburgh. I contact her and had a 1 hour session with her. I paid $300 for the hour. I had a great experience and was back within the same week and had another 1 hour session for $300. She knew who I was through some friends and over the next few months we built a friendship.

- Age 23, Lexi Sindel contacted me as she knew I was in Ohio. She let me know of some filming going on in Columbus as Club Dom was in town. The next day I shot with them. Soon after I was in D.C. shooting with Lexi Sindel.

- Age 23 turning 24. I began to put myself out there as a fetish model. People had known of me from Chicago and the traveling I was doing. I started doing trade for content work as well as accepting paid gigs.

-----------------------

- I'm now 25 and graduating college this summer. I have my blog and I have my own clips4sale store that I'm continuing to build - AEB Femdom.

I'll be in Chicago this summer - 2012 with an internship and then moving to Phoenix, Arizona for a few years with a job offer. My life in kink as a submissive will continue to grow and evolve. My life is my life. Other male submissive's can do what pleases them, but don't limit yourself and think that you can't find someone to serve. Or that you can't be involved in the community.

I am proud of what I've accomplished in Kink. I'm proud that I've made a name that people recognize, respect and get off to. I'm proud of the people I've gotten to explore my kinks with and I look forward to all that comes. I mean shit, I am only 25.

Here's a list of all the people I can recall working with over the past 9 plus years.

- Lexi Sindel - Madame Ingrid- VonLivid - Maya Sinstress - Nyssa Nevers - Jade Indica - Lochai - Miss Jaded - Xena - Miss Cheyenne Nikki Domino - Miss Jaded - Miss Simone - Miss Whip - Alexandra Sadista - Natalya Sadici - Dvnt - Miss Mina Meow - Corral Korrupt - Ginger Stone - Gia - Maria Purple Goddess - Lady O - Victoria Sapphire - Noel Knight - Miss Jenni Fishnets - House of Bias Latex - Haven - Kelle Martina - Jessica Temptress - Manchester & I know there's more but I don't remember everyone.

Last Month of College

It's crazy how slowly things can seem to move when you're anticipating a date. Ever since I've landed a job and an internship for this summer the last quarter of school just seems to be dragging along. So many things to do in so little time yet that time doesn't seem to ever want to reach the end.

With all that said I walk in graduation in literally a month and theres only 3 weeks left of school plus finals week. I did sub-let my apartment and I move out Tuesday - 6 days from now. My mother is driving to my school this weekend to take all of my packed boxes back to her house for a month. All the while I'm moving in with a friend for the remaining month of school. I'm actually looking forward to that. The house is set off in the woods and I plan to just explore nature a bit. Relax, enjoy the company of my friend and enjoy the atmosphere. It may be just what I need to relax my mind a bit.

This weekend I'm doing what is called, A Shuffle here in Athens, Ohio. It's completing 1 drink from every single bar in town. Very few people claim to complete this feat and since I'm only here another month, a friend of mine and I decided that we are going to give it a try. There's about 20 or so something bars so it won't be easy but I'm pretty confident that I can do it.

The following weekend one of my good friends, Andrew is coming to visit from Chicago. He came with me to Pittsburgh last Spring but he's yet to make it to Athens. I'm sure we'll be par taking in some drinking that weekend too. June 8th, the day before I walk in graduation my mom and her husband from Ohio are coming down. Also my sister and uncle from the Chicago-land area are coming. I'm excited for everyone to make the trip and for it to be a fun, graduation-celebration with the family.

June 10th I'll be arriving in Chicago and then the hard working yet fun summer lies ahead.

KINK & Groupon vs. WOIP

The Anti porn group, War On Illegal Pornography (WOIP) recently targeted Groupon for presenting a coupon for the KINK.com Armory building tour. The Armory building in San Francisco has a lot of history to it. It has a castle-like appearance and was home to the United States National Guard. It also housed many sporting events during the 1920's. The building then sat empty for nearly 30 years starting in the 70's until it was taken over by KINK. For the most part KINK has left the building in its original state. San Francisco is the capitol for supporting GLBT rights and is a very friendly kinky community.

The coupon offereed by Groupon lets tourists view much of the building and get a history lesson. The tour also takes the tourists on some of KINK's sets and it may also allow them to catch a bit of a live filming. Below is the few minute article by the San Francisco Huffington Post. It also features a Youtube video following some people through the tour. Below that is a Youtube video by Dawn from "Porn Harms".

Groupon & Kink.com vs. WOIP

I am actually shocked that Groupon would offer this coupon in the first place. As someone with a media business background Groupon definitely took a risk by offering this coupon. Groupon probably does have more liberal customers as most of their business targets people in cities so I don't see their audience having a problem with this coupon. Where they could run into problems is on the Business end with advertisers. When Jersey Shore first aired on TV just a few years ago advertisers we're dropping their ad's immediately because of the use of language and aggressive sexual behavior.

WOIP wanted a statement from Groupon and they did get one, it just wasn't the statement they were hoping for. Groupon supported KINK 100% and even stated that exploring your sexuality is healthy.

Although I am surprised that Groupon (1) teamed up with KINK in the first place and (2) supported KINK after WOIP attacked Groupon and threatened a boycott I am also pleasantly surprised by Groupon.

I do agree with Dawn that KINK does have an agenda with doing the tour. KINK's goal is to drive in more revenue just like any other business that would team up with Groupon. KINK is hoping that by providing tours of the Armory they will reach a new audience of clients and get an increase in site memberships. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that and it's actually a slick idea by KINK to offer the tours.

Even though I am involved in the adult industry I will say that advertising with a non adult site like Groupon is walking the line of ethical decisions. Yes, their are adult magazines at 711 and escorts advertising on Craigslist. With that said, I do feel that KINK advertising with Groupon is a tight rope act. I am curious to see what the future holds with similar situations moving forward and if Groupon will regret their decision with WOIP breathing down their neck.

Raped & Abandoned

I definitely know how to keep myself busy. Before getting into the kinky goodness here's an update on me in general. I have sub-leased my apartment here in Athens and have to be out of my apartment by May 15th. I'm going to be staying with a friend in town for about three weeks up until graduation. Then, I'll be on my way to Chicago. I'm still peaking around looking for a place to stay over the summer, June 10th through August. I'll most likely end up renting a room in Chicago for a few months.

On to kink.

I am updating my clips4sale. Changing the name from AEB Kink to AEB Femdom.
Reason being because the site is focused around Female Domination. Of course many of the videos are largely in part with me however I am always taking the submissive role as that fits me. Here is a peak of 2 of the most recent uploaded clips.

AEB Femdom

There are going to be a few other small additional changes as well.

The most updated clips feature a 3 part series called, "Forced in the Trunk". It features Jessica Temptress kidnaping a misbehaving male (me) who has been disrespecting his girlfriend. He wakes up feminized with his hands bound behind him and a large ball gag stuffed in his mouth. Helplessly bound in the trunk he realizes theres make-up on his face, a wig on his head, a slutty women's outfit on his body and very high heels on his feet.

The Mistress pulls up to a stand alone house way out in the woods in the middle of the night, pops the trunk and the feminized male tries to make a break for it. Only to be tackled from behind, down a small hill in the woods. He learns why he is in this situation and is soon tied to a tree taking the single tail whip and hard, cold bare hand spankings. His begging for mercy doesn't get him very far as he's then trampled on by Her high heels.

Strung up to another tree with its ass high and wide in the air the Mistress puts on rubber gloves and shoves Her fingers up his ass. He screams and moans and then comes out the strap-on. Slowly, he starts to realize that his girlfriend he has mis-treated and the Mistress were damn serious about his new position as a sissy slave. Ass fucking in cold and wet woods then proceeds to the slave being on its back on the hood of the car. But there is no stopping this Mistress as She inserts her big cock into his ass again. His high heels were up in the air and his moans of anguish were loud but couldn't be heard by anyone.

Pushed off the hood of the car and onto the cold cement ground the Mistress demands that he now give head to the very cock that was just up his ass. Sad-faced and distraught but left with no choice his lipsticked lips suck every last inch of Her cock. She forces him to deep throat it and gag as he drools and looks like a real slut. Still panty-less She orders him to masturbate. Not to mention he is also told to lick the mud off of Her boots from the woods. Worshipping Her boots and stroking his cock he cums onto the pavement. 

Just as that happens She hops into the car and drives off in a hurry. The slave is left running after the car dressed like a slut with no panties and cum all over, only to be abandoned in the woods.

---------------------------------

Below is a short homemade video of myself doing a solo 3some. With some creativity I flipped over my desk chair and rigged a dildo to it. Then I rigged another dildo about 3 feet directly across to it that would be face height when I'm on all fours. I maneuvered my self in between the chair legs and that created a bit of bondage on me. I put a condom on the dildo, lubbed it up and then sat my juicy ass on the dildo. I was just far enough away that in order for me to give oral to the other dildo I had to lead forward, thus lifting my ass off the dildo. This way, I put myself in a rocking motion where when I deep throated the oral dildo my ass came to the tip on the ass dildo. As I slid my ass onto the dildo my mouth would come to the tip of the oral dildo. It was fun!

Here is a few minute FREE clip of my webcam placed where the anal dildo was fucking me.

I've created a Google Plus account with my Morgankeni4@gmail account. I'm going to try and start using that a bit so feel free to add me if you also use Google Plus.

I also just created a AEB Femdom Twitter account. I updated my info but haven't added a picture yet because Twitter was acting funny earlier. As soon as I have a direct link to it I'll make sure to update that. With that said, you can go add that account to yours to follow.

As for this very blog. I altered just a few tiny things. Added a new "Google Plus" Plus 1 on the right side panel. Now you can also enter your email at the top where it says"Email Address" and easily follow the blog this way.


My newest feature added says how many hits my blog has gotten. 

With this post, the blog is approaching 28,000 hits!!!!!

It's been active 18 months at the end of April 2012 and so I must say thank you in all seriousness for the involvement from fellow kinksters and the kink community as a whole.

Here is a picture of me that I took during a webcam session I had the other day with a submissive in Affhanistan serving our Military.

Accomplished

I've been waiting to blog as I've been waiting on hearing back from a company I was trying to get an internship with. I finally heard back last night and got the position! That means I'm going to be in Chicago all summer. 2 weeks ago I was offered a job in Phoenix, Arizona which I will most likely accept and end up there for a few years. If I accept I'll be moving in late August/early September. With that said I'm still applying to some other jobs so we'll see what happens.

This means I'm definitely leaving Ohio either way. I've still got lots of moving parts to the puzzle but things are starting to come together more and more.

June 9th - I walk in graduation (Although I don't get my degree till August).
June 12th - I start my internship at my #1 choice in Chicago
August - Officially will have graduated.
September - I will be starting a job.

That means I have to find a place to live in Chicago for at least the summer. I'm going to try and get an apartment with my best friend. So we have to get a move on that. I'm visiting my mother for Easter on Sunday and then I'm going to start packing all my things up. I'm trying to sublet my lease here in Athens Ohio for either June-August or July and August. At worst I'll buy out of my lease paying 75% of what I still owe upfront so that I can move out.

Here in the town of Athens, Ohio - the Film Festival is coming up quick, April 13-19.
The short documentary on me called, "Male Femdom" will be shown April 19th at 4:45pm, you can check them out online here - Athens Film Festival

Recently updated my clips4sale - AEB KINK with "Punished Slave" Part 1, 2, & 3 featuring Maya Sinstress. Involves OTK, humiliation, rope bondage, a steel anal hook, spanking, 2 big dildos and HEAVY strap-on fucking, ginger figging, cuming and forced cum consumption.

AEB KINK

AEB KINK

SB Kink & Relocation

Spring Break is almost over and it's back to school for Spring Quarter on Monday, March 26th. I've received lots of news over the past few weeks some great and some not so good. As for school, last quarter I earned over a 3.0 GPA again. I'm much better at college than I was at high school that's for sure. I've had the past week off for break and then it's back to school Monday for my final full quarter here at Ohio University. I have to take 12 credits over the summer for a few weeks but that's nothing.
I've been working out a lot over break and while working out I started talking with this guy. I've never met him and he mentioned someone being kinky. Before you knew it we were talking about kink, Fetlife, me and more.... what a strange conversation it was and what a small world it is.

The other night I was being true to my name - Autoeroticboy. I came up with a solo 3-some rigging to fuck myself and suck off another dildo at the same time to eventually masturbate as well. It was hot and worked out really well. Here are a few pictures of the rigging that involved flipping over my chair.

A few nights before that I decided to wear some diapers and be a feminine youngster as I went to bed. So here are a few pictures of that along with my new Ohio University PJ shorts. Thought I'd show some school spirit.

On to some of the news:

Monday I had to go back to the doctor to get my test results in regards to some things that I can be at a higher risk of having Klinefelter's. I came back 100% healthy in general and for my test results on Anemia and Thyroid disorder.
I also had my sperm tested or should I say my lack of sperm tested.... They didn't find any sperm At All! So that means I can't have kids or there is a 0.000001% chance that I could have a kid. I'm not shocked by that, it's actually what I expected. With that said, it's strange having that privilege taken away from you. I've come to terms with it and to be honest I've always said I don't want kids. If I ever change my mind I've always been supportive of adopting children. But, it's official that I can't produce my own.

On some really good news........ I got a job offer!
Not only did I get a job offer, I got a job offer 6 months before I graduate. That's a fucking accomplishment. I've been interviewing with the company since October. I've thought things over and I'm going to accept the position as it's a great opportunity for me. I'll be starting the position in September and relocating...... to where you ask?

- ARIZONA!
I'll be living and working in the Phoenix area. I've never been to Arizona, I don't know much about Phoenix other than some of the research I've done. I know 1 person there from childhood but haven't seen him since 5th grade, although we've spoken a bit lately. I'm not sure how the kink community is there, I don't know the neighborhoods.... nothing!
But I've got some time to learn. I don't have plans to live in Phoenix my whole life but I do expect to be there 2-3 years.

If anyone reads this blog and lives in Arizona and or knows Arizona, the Phoenix area at all, all help/assistance is appreciated. Over the next several months as I learn more and figure out when I'll be moving there etc. I will update it here.

XXY Klinefelters & Kink

It was February 7, 2012 - 3 weeks ago from today that I got a blood test to see if I was born with Klinefelter's Syndrom, XXY.

My entire life I've felt that my body was a bit different than most boys. I remember a specific instance playing basketball and a teammate ran by me on the court after I made a shot and he slapped my ass. Then he said, damn dude! You got a chick's ass. At that very moment it was kind of funny yet embarrassing because I knew that I did have a feminine butt. Then when I started getting more involved with kink at 18 and 19 and playing with different women they would always comment on how feminine my body was. Lots of people are in shock at how non-masculine my butt is. I've come to love my body, my butt etc. I've always liked my body but knew it was different. Last Thursday I shot with Jessica Temptress for the first time. As I was walking off the set in high heeled boots and a mini skirt showing off my ass she shouts, "You have the best ass I've ever seen on a guy!". My ass and body definitely comes in handy when I'm in woman mode, that's for sure!

So, I got tested on the 7th and they took 2 valves of blood. Although, the lady mentioned they only need 1. About a week later the doctor calls me and says, I got one of your blood valves back but there is no paperwork with it which is odd. He's like I'm not sure what this means except that you might not be XXY. He says, he'll get back to me. About 5 days later the doctor calls me again and says, never mind what I told you before, they didn't run that valve of blood. He then tells me he got the tested valve back with paperwork and that I WAS born with Klinefelter's - XXY.

So what does that all mean?

Some doctors argue if that technically means you were born intersexed but more doctors say it does mean that. I feel as if I am intersexed because I have more female physical traits than I do masculine. I am at risk for some female health risks that men aren't like osteoporosis and breast cancer and yet I have some male traits like a deeper voice, cock and balls, and I've lived my life as a male for 25 years now.

I actually responded differently that I thought I would when I got the results. I've thought I've been born XXY for about 4 years now but I wasn't 100% sure. Now that I know I am it's a bit strange to know that you weren't born 100% male or 100% female. The question that comes to mind at first is, what am I?
After coming back down to earth, and asking myself that question the answer is, I am me. I am happy with myself, always have been. I'm able to transcend gender boundaries when ever I want to. I'm able to fit into both gender roles when ever I want to. In a strange way I'm more well rounded. I tend to see things differently than many people and if I must say so myself, I'm one pretty good looking man and one fucking sexy girl! The best of both worlds as it stands.

I meet with some doctors March 7th to talk more about Klinefelter's and what I want to do from here. Some people choose to take testosterone to boost their energy, muscle growth, body hair, facial hair, and for some orgasmic purposes. Some, although many fewer choose to live as a woman and take estrogen, and get a sex change. Some choose neither option and don't take any medication and live the way they are. Right now, I'm the 3rd option. I know that I don't want to take testosterone but I've considered estrogen and a sex change. Right now, it's just remaining with who I am.
I'm not 100% about this but I've read a bit that there is a public fund for those born intersexed and wanting to get a sex change. I have to do more research....

I've gone to a group setting gender identity (Trans Group) here at Ohio University the past 2 weeks. It's been good. The first week I just listened to everyone else talk and here their stories. Last week I shared my new XXY news and we all discussed it. It is nice to just talk with others of all ages and backgrounds who can relate in some manner. I am the only one in the group who is XXY but there are MtF, FtM, Gender Queers and more in the group so it's been good to meet some others in the Athens, area.

I'll keep everyone updated on the XXY thing, especially after meeting with doctors March 7th. 1 out of every 500 males (approximate) are born with Klinefelter's. It's common yet still very un-common and unknown to most the public. This is what it has done to me physically:

1. Long arms and legs
2. Little to no body hair
3. Little to no facial hair
4. Soft (feminine) skin
5. No frontal balding
6. Small hands for height
7. Small feet for heights (For me I'm 6'3 tall & wear a size 9-10 in mens & 10-11 in women's)
8. Weight distribution of a woman (Hips, butt, thighs, stomach)
9. Wider hips
10. Small testicles
11. Low testosterone (I had it tested)

Other Things: (This is personal to me)
1. I took speech classes as a kid for about 5 years in pre-school through early Elementary. (This is a sign)
2. When I began to masturbate (age 7-ish) I began like a woman. Not using my cock but rubbing of pelvic bone area. I can still do this today.
3. At puberty testosterone kicked in a bit but I plateaued at about 15,16 and never matured into what a boy would be.

Health:
1. Very low chance I am fertile. (Probably can't have kids) I'm talking to doctors on this more
2. Higher chance for Osteoporosis (Like a woman)
3. Higher chance of Breast Cancer (Like a woman)
4. Earlier tooth decay

----------------------------------------------

In some other news:

The first 2 are custom videos I made for a client.
I shot with Jessica Temptress as I mentioned above. She's out of Columbus and was fun to work with. She brought a good array of things to the shoot and we got some great stuff. We shot a kidnapping scene starting with me in the trunk of a car. Then into the woods for some beating, trampling, and strap-on. Eventually I was fucked on the car as well and then left half naked and feminized in the woods.

Then in our next shoot I was a high paid, big-headed actor who was playing a female role in a movie. The director and I got into an argument over nudity and she takes advantage of me. Strap-on in several positions, barehand spankings, slapping and more. Plus, upside down cuming due to all the humiliation.

---

I was in Chicago for an interview and then shot with a long time friend that goes all the way back to my early Miss Jaded days. So it was fun to shoot with her - Alexandra Sadista as well as Natalya Sadici It was actually my first time meeting Natalya even though we've known of each other for awhile. Unfortunately, we didn't shoot quite as much as we wanted due to time restraints however, we were productive and it was fun.

I was feminized in lingerie and then forcefully had red lipstick applied to my lips. I was put into bondage and orally trained by a 9 inch - thick dildo. I was made to kiss it, lick it, and suck it. Then I was forced to deep throat it ALL THE WAY DOWN - Upside down. It was difficult but as we all know, I enjoy being a good slut!

All these videos will be on AEB KINK - My Clips4sale Store soon.

Then on Monday I drove back home to Athens, Ohio. But, to make things more fun and of course to save time :) when I first stopped for gas in northern Indiana I took one of my thick & crinkly ABUniverse diapers into the bathroom stall with me. I put it on nice and tight and wet it as I ordered Arby's. I had another 6 hours of driving to do and wet it 2 more times by the time I arrived home. It was nice - "warm" trip.

Dressed: Group & Video

This summary is not available. Please click here to view the post.

Transition?

FYI.... This is a very candid post


I've noted a few times through this blog that I considered transitioning, M2F in the past. I considered it so much that I saw a doctor, a counselor and took hormones for 6 or 8 weeks. I don't specifically recall the exact amount of weeks. I started hormones in mid December 2009 and then stopped after a few injections. So its been a little over 2 years since I had stopped taking injections.

A Little History:


Like many I've been cross-dressing since I was a child. At the same time I've been kinky since I was a child. All I knew was that both were not accepted by society. I have specific memories wanting to wear my sisters pink onesie instead of my blue one when I was about 5 and my sister was 12. When I could I would wear hers, even though it was big on me. At the same time when my grandfather was dieing I used to use some of his diapers, I was about 7. Then there was bondage and everything else that came with it.

As a child and as a teenager I always associated cross-dressing with kink/bdsm. Now these two things can be associated together but they can also be two completely different things. I learned how to masturbate "like a girl" by myself around the age or 7 or 8. I even tried to show one of my friends at the time and now look back embarrassed and always wondered if he recalled that night. As a teenager I always wore my sisters clothes. I would wear my girlfriends clothes, other girls clothes and when I got a job at 15 I began to buy my own girl clothes. At times it was sexual but many other times it wasn't. The older I've gotten the less sexual it has become.

More Recent:


I'm extremely kinky. There is no changing that, in fact I love that. With that said so many of my personal fantasies first involve me being in a "girl form" first and then the kink fantasy on top of that. I believe it was my sophomore year of college when I was at Columbia College Chicago and a teacher was talking about Klinefelter's Syndrome. I had no idea what it was, except that everything the teacher mentioned about it sounded just like my body. So I did some additional research and well I immediately thought that I could very well have it. Let me name some of the symptoms of being born XXY.

- Little to no body hair
- Little to no facial hair
- Small feet for your height
- Small hands for your height
- Often can be tall
- Can put on weight like a woman (Hips, thighs, butt)
- Small testicles (But has little effect on sex life)

- Also may have learning problems as a child
- Only 10% of guys have small natural breast growth.

Well, how do I fit in to all of this.
I am 6'2, 6'3 tall and wear a size 9 or 10 in mens shoes. I have rather small hands, I have little body hair, I have no facial hair, I put on weight like a woman and I have VERY small testicles. I also had learning problems as a child & took extra speech classes for about 5 years as a young kid. (I'm fine now).

When I went to a doctor to start hormones I had my testosterone tested. It came back low, at 192. Guys testosterone should range from a little over 200 up to I believe 900. I didn't get tested for Klinefelter's because I didn't have insurance and it's a 800 dollar test.

Now:


Two days ago, Tuesday I went to the school health center & I have insurance through the school. I found out that the Klinefelter's test is covered by my insurance after the health center did some research for 2 hours as it's a rare thing to be tested, at least at this place. I had my blood drawn and I'll find out the results in about 10 days. Whether I actually have it or not won't really have an affect on me, I just wanted to know.

Last week this guy was presenting in my class on about joining the multicultural program. I had heard this speech twice last quarter in other classes so I wasn't really paying much attention. Then suddenly he says that he is a F2M Transgender man. The whole class was surprised that's for sure. For that same class everyone has to write a 8-10 page paper for our final on a issue that is present in today's society.
I chose to title my paper, "Transgender Transitions In The Modern Day". I contacted this guy who had presented, his name is Corey and the other day I interviewed him as a source for my paper.

---

Lately, I've really been considering transitioning again. I'm meeting with a counselor here on campus who works with the GLBT community tomorrow (Friday). At worst, just to talk, just to talk through things. I've learned that this is a thought that won't every really leave me. I'm extremely happy with who I am. With being a boy. Anyone that knows me knows that I'm outgoing, fun, light hearted, easy to get along with and good with the women - :)
I'm not someone who gets depressed or has anxiety, in fact I'm just the opposite. But, because of this I feel that my decision to transition or not is more difficult. Would transitioning really be worth it? I'm happy, I just happen to actually feel that maybe I should transition. I'm actually confused and nervous just thinking about it.


My Fears:


1. Work - My profession. I've gone to college for 5 years now and I'm ready to begin my career, asap! If I transition I'm throwing a bit of a road block in my own path.
I think if I were to transition you would see me doing things for the GLBT community and be more involved in TG porn, kink etc.

2. A relationship. I've heard about the difficulties for TG's dating. With that said I would also have to adjust to being a "lesbian" because I'm attracted to women.

3. My height. Even though I know I pass pretty damn good already as a boy it's still an added fear.

4. My tattoos. I'm heavily tattooed and tattoos can limit women more than men.

5. Family and Friends. All my good friends know that I was on hormones previously. They all stood behind me. I told my grandma I was considering transitioning back then and she was ok with it. I didn't tell my mom but I did tell her I cross-dress and she said I don't want to think about my son doing that, but one I already knew and two I love you. My sister, doesn't know and I know she would not respond well at all! Plus she has 3 kids and I want to be a part of their lives.
All my family and friends know that I've been doing kinky porn and bdsm modeling and they are cool with it. In fact my mom gets a kick out of it. None the less it's still a natural concern.

6. Cost. To be honest I would want surgery rather soon in the process. Facial work and breasts within 1 year of transitioning and if possible be post-op within 2, 21/2 years. That's not cheap.

7. Voice. I know you can do voice training but it just seems like another hurdle to deal with.

Worth Noting:


If I were to transition I would want to fully transition. I would want to be a post-op and have a vagina. There is absolutely no question about that. In fact it's something I think about a lot more than any boy should.

Also, if I had more knowledge on transitioning as a teenager I know for a fact I would have began transitioning by the age of 18. I always associated cross-dressing and kink together and when I started to hear that people could change genders and about hormones I went to Walgreens to find these hormones. Only to learn that the herbal hormones don't do much. So I did want to transition even as a teenager but obviously I didn't because of lack of knowledge.

We'll see what happens. I don't want to be 30 and start transitioning. In fact, I won't be doing that. If I decide to transition it will be sooner than later. But, it's a big, big decision. I just want to be fair to myself and think it through thoroughly. Thinking about this does make me nervous, anxious and concerned. At the same time I'm excited and very unsure. So, hopefully I can talk with someone here at school and just work through my thoughts. See what the blood results come back as and figure out what's best for me.

Here's a new picture of me in natural make-up & my hair down.

Party Hard - Work Hard

I'm looking at trying to go to DC/Baltimore sometime in Feb. A friend of mine has let me use his car most of Jan. all the way to the first week of March. Long story short he has an extra car at the moment so he told me I could use his car. So, that means I should really make a trip to DC and get some Fetish work in. I feel like my crazy-hectic life has slowed down just a bit. I'm pretty much caught up in everything but still busy.
I might be doing some tutoring for  management class that I took last year. It's a tough class about organizational behavior with a tough teacher yet he's an awesome teacher. I have him again this quarter for another class and he told me I could get paid to help out some students.

I've also have 3 interviews for an internship that I really want including discussing things with the CEO yesterday. So, we'll see if I got it or not by mid Feb. If I don't get it I'm leaning towards going to either Peru, New Zealand, or Australia for the summer to study abroad/intern abroad.
On top that, I'm doing a freelance account executive position selling advertising to local businesses for the school yearbook.

I just found out that Big K.R.I.T. is performing here at O.U. Feb. 18th. I'm so excited for this and tickets are dirt cheap because it's on campus. If you like hip hop he is a very diverse artist that is bring back passion, talent, lyricism with amazing beats to hip hop. He's from Mississippi & I am going to be at the show. Here is a link to a youtube song of his called, "As small as a giant".
  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ak_NOJVQoY4

I've also been putting up some of my own poetry - spoken word pieces on youtube. I've posted a piece called "Chi Town Script King" that is a fun, joking piece about my friends tattoo shop and him. Then I have a piece up called "Concept of Profit" which is a great piece and I just uploaded a new one called, "Natural". Here is the link to Natural...
   Http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uiTV9Toy1ak

Check it out! So you can see some of my other talents and passions. I love to write in pretty much all forms, blogs, papers, lyrics, poetry & more.

As for kink.... It's still a bit absent in my life at the moment. I went to college to better myself and just about all my efforts of late have been directed to school, internships, and applying to jobs. As I said, I'm trying to get out to DC to shoot some femdom and maybe take a few sessions but we'll see. Hopefully, I'll get some personal play in soon as well.

I was in Chicago this past weekend for a funeral. My brother-in-laws father died so me and my mother drove to Chicago for the services. It just so happened that my best friend was throwing a surprise birthday party for his girlfriend on Friday night and all the services were over by then. So I went up to Chicago to help him set things up and party. About 25 people showed up to hotel Sofitel to say, SURPRISE and do some pre-game drinking. We have a few cases of beer, jungle juice, whiskey, rum, Malibu, wine, port - a lot more than we needed. At midnight we went to the bar/club called "Mothers" because a friend of our's DJ's and hooked everyone up with $25 wrist bands from midnight to close. More friends showed up to say happy B-day and the night was going great. I was dancing all night! I love to dance if you don't know.
Then..... it started, the craziness.

Some of our friends got into a fight and got kicked out. I have no idea how I got back to the hotel or when I left. Then next thing I remember is puking into a red plastic cup being held by others and then puking in the toilet. Only to then have security guards pull me out of the bed that I was sleeping in at 6am. I guess in between all those blackout moments the 10 of us who made it back to the hotel destroyed the hotel. But, let me say at least I was sleeping while this occurred. Shattered picture frames, art knocked off walls, wine on walls and carpet, puke on carpet, confetti & food everywhere, blood on the wall and carpet. My friend andrew accidently got his cheek cut and ended up in the hospital getting stitches and the rest of us got kicked out at 6am. Too much alcohol turned us into rock stars. We got the hotel damage bill a few days later................ $2,100!
Oh! And did I mention we originally got the room cheap because of Jamal's father and his business. Jamal's father is Muslim and assumes Jamal and his sister don't drink, well that didn't go over well especially when his sister is only 19.
It was like the movie, "The Hangover".

Anyways, here are some pictures from that crazy night. Unfortunately we don't have any pictures of what it looked like when we got kicked out, only massive hang overs.

Photo Frenzy & Chaos

Since I've gotten back to Ohio about 10 days ago my life has been totally hectic. I'm definitely a bit stressed out as I feel the pressure of deadlines approaching. I'm doing 20 credit hours again this quarter and will do the same next quarter which is a lot of classes if you don't know. Most students take 3 or 4 classes on a quarter system and I've been taking 5. On top of that... this quarter I have to do 8 hours of charity work for one of my classes. I'm studying for a huge 2nd interview for a job I'm interested in and I'm also seriously looking into doing either a study abroad or a international internship this summer. I have to take a few school credits this summer and then graduate in August. However, my mother wants to see me walk in graduation in June so I'm working out the details for that. I can't forget that I'm also sending out additional resumes/cover letters and oh... I still have to travel and do kink work because well, that's how I get paid.

So, as you can see I'm trying to juggle a lot and that's why I haven't been blogging quite as often over the past few months. I do have some interesting blog topics though, I just have to balance out my life. Because of all of this going on I haven't had much of a kink life as of late.

With all this said I am excited about the possibility of going abroad this summer. One of the places I'm looking at is London and I would love to be there for the Olympics, the professional opportunity and would love to be in one of the fetish capitals of the world!

For work, I am looking at going to the DC/Baltimore area in either late Jan or early Feb. I'm trying to work out Jan 27-29. If anyone is interested in working or playing together professional then email me at Morgankeni4@gmail.com (I may also make a pit-stop in Pittsburgh).

The Holidays in Chicago were good. Christmas was fun although I did get sick the day after Christmas and I'm just know starting to really get over it. I really started to feel sick on NYE but it was NYE and my best friends b-day so I ignored it and partied. I sure felt it the following 2 days though as I felt like I was dying. It was definitely the sickest I've been in a few years. My last full day in Chicago I got tattooed and as I talked about it in my last post I got a picture of myself crossdressed. It was by far the most painful tat I've gotten yet as I struggled to sit through it. A large portion is on my stomach and then my left hip bone but it was the stomach that hurt like hell! Here is a close up on the same day it was done and then a look at it with my other tats. We still have to add a background blending all the tats in the general area.

Here's a NYE 2012 Picture with me and some of my friends at the hotel before going out.

The other day I was going through some of my old emails and looking up pictures. I came across some old kinky pictures of me from when I was 19 and a freshman at Columbia College Chicago. I was trying to get involved in the Chicago fetish scene and that can be difficult when you're under 21 and a male. I never sought out the TNG group. Instead my roommate happened to be a photographer and was semi interested in kink. I thought that if I took some pics of myself and put them up on ModelMayhem then I could start to meet some people and get involved in the scene. Well it worked if you haven't noticed. My college roommate who I met that year was named Mike and he became a friend of mine until fall of 2010, my first year here at Ohio University. Halloween night, he was supposed to be here partying with me but things just didn't work out. He ended up committing suicide. I thought I would pull out some of these old pictures and share them with you. It was definitely some amateur work by all of us involved but it was fun and helped catapult me into the world of Fetish. Luckily we had a dungeon space to use as my good friend VonLivid let us use her space to shoot.

I also got 2 new pictures back from Femdom Frenzy which is a company I shoot with when I'm in the DC/Baltimore area. I finally got to work with my friend Nyssa Nevers and I also met and worked with Miss Allegra out of Baltimore for the first time. One picture is of me as a sissy maid serving the 2 ladies and the other is of me worshipping Nyssa's boots.

I actually came across some other old pictures while going through my email. They are an eclectic bunch of kinky pictures so enjoy.

Miss Holland toying around with Me

 Hooded & cleaning

 Just a pic of me w/ short hair & makeup

 Boxtie

 My best friend Jamal dressed as a girl passed out drunk in Chicago Blizzard - Hahaha

Oh... Almost forgot. I decided to start an additional blog well actually it's a Vlog - Video blog. This is a little different than this blog but I will be posting videos of some of my poetry and lyrics but it will also have videos of some self-androgyny, some fetish topics, sports, tattoos and more. 

As I'm writing this I only have 1 video uploaded but I will have more soon. Here is the link to the video & my channel is called - Not What You Expected Youtube channel. Subscribe to follow me and my videos.