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Thursday, June 30, 2011

A Touchy Topic: The Fetish Industry

It seems like everyone is a fetish model or a pro domme these days. Not that there is anything wrong with being either because technically I am both. But it is here in the fetish community where anyone can proclaim to be a "fetish model" or a "pro domme". In a way that is what keeps the industry fresh, allowing new faces to emerge on the scene. On the other hand, it is was what over saturates the industry and the concept that anyone can do it is a dangerous theory.
If every male out there believed he can play professional football then no one would watch the sport. People wouldn't idolize players or respect their talents. It is the same here and for every other industry. Chicago has over 100 - born female Pro Dommes. There's only 10-15 that I would pay for a session and even that is pushing it. I feel bad for both the talented Dommes and the clients because the talented Dommes get put into the class of "just another domme" and they loose out on money. The clients have a difficult time deciding who they should session with and in many cases get  a really poor session.

As for the "models", just go on Fetlife and I'm sure if you clicked on 100 random profiles at least 40-50% of them would claim to be some sort of fetish model. Just because someone else took a kinky picture of you doesn't mean your a fetish model. Just because you're involved in the kink community doesn't make you a fetish model.

So where do I land in all of this?

Well let me just say, there is nothing wrong with being an aspiring fetish model. It's just all about how you go about becoming one. Proclaiming that your a "fetish model" before you've ever established yourself in any manner is preposterous. I've been involved in the community since I was 18 and I'm turning 25 on September 6th. I've been at this for awhile and just in the past year did I really start pushing myself as my own product.

The last and most important key to me is being a fetish model or pro domme is actually being interested in the BDSM - Fetish world. Most people who make it on some level in this industry are actually kinky. Kinky isn't wanting to tie a woman to a bed and fuck her, that's rough sex. I see it all the time, people think they are kinky until they are around kinky people and they realize just how vanilla they are. There is nothing wrong with being vanilla but a pro domme should be kinky. It's their job to make the client feel at ease and there are just too many pro dommes that are only in it for the money that they think they can make.
Many models also aren't kinky and that is a shame to me as well. If your not kinky and want to model - don't do fetish modeling. America is the best country in the world at selling a lie so I guess it's naive of me to think that the fetish industry should be any different.

Personally, it's been a process for me but the past year has been a good one for me and I expect to continue to grow and push boundaries. I will be at FETISHCON in Tampa Bay July 28-31. I've already schedule lots of gigs with several different people. I also hope to work some old friends that I've never gotten to work with yet like Nyssa Nevers. I've also been asked to model for a tattoo book so I'm excited about that as well.

Monday, June 27, 2011

Videos - Foot Party - Pride

What a week. I've constantly been on the go and this week I don't really have all that much scheduled.
Last Tuesday I shot with Xena, Maria the Purple Goddess, and Lady O. I shot 4 different scenes starting off with tickle torture and I am very ticklish! I definitely have to be restrained if your going to tickle me because I'll knock you and myself out on accident with all the squirming I do. Then Lady O and I worshipped and cleaned Maria's and Xena's feet as they both had very dirty feet from walking around barefoot. 3rd was a Single tail whipping and caning on me from Xena & Maria. I still have some lovely marks. The last one we did was a double strap-on anal and oral. I was pounded pretty hard and I even puked at the end from being gagged so much. Here are a few pictures from the shoot.



NEW NEWS:
I will be attending the Libertines Chicago Foot Party this Friday night. July 1st and will be appearing as a TG Domme - Miss Morgan Keni. It's your chance to serve Me and worship my beautiful, soon to be fresh pedicured size 10 feet! You must RSVP and here is party info.


Nuit Des Libertines presents, "SMOTHERED BY FEET"
Hosted by : Mistress Clawdia, Lady Maria and Mistress Xena.
Calling all foot sluts, foot stools, & toe suckers!!!!
You are welcome to attend Our party.
Worship Gorgeous Soles & Be Entranced & Intoxicated by Feet all night long!
The Studio
When: July 1st (Our parties are on the 1st Fridays, of every month).
Time: 10pm-3am
Cost: $20.00 per person. $30 per couple
Boys - If you'd like a private session with any Lady who is at the party, the session fee : $20 for 10 mins.
Attire: Fetish or Casual
BYOB
Bring your toys
ALSO
I am now OFFICIALLY featured on The Studio Chicago's dungeon website for the summer as a TG Domme. http://www.thestudiochicago.com/morgan.html
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Last Friday I also shot with Maya Sinstress, Miss Lydia, & Lakeview Entertainment. The shoot I was in was a longer video that featured me and another male tied across from one another with only a metal pole between us. It was a predictiment bondage scene that was a competition between us to see who could take more pain and move and moan as little as possible. I WON! Then the loser was punished, but you'll have to watch the video to see just what happens. I will say this, it is the first I'VE EVER done what took place after I won.
The video at some point will be on www.sinstress.net as well as MY SOON TO COME CLIPS4SALE STORE in which I will keep everyone updated on. I plan to release it in late August - September.
Saturday I did some shopping and got some new sandals.
Yesterday - Sunday I went to the Pride parade with my friend Haven who is now living in L.A. We started drinking early because the Parade itself starts at noon. We actually didn't catch much of the parade because we couldn't get close enough to really see too much. But, I bumped into a girl I went to high school with and we hung out for awhile. Then I bumped into Xena and an old fetish scene friend, Manny. An hour later I bumped into Maria the Purple Goddess and we hung out for most of the day together. Of course I was dressed but most of the pictures I'm in, I'm wasted. Although, mostly everyone is. It was a great Pride filled with great people and lots of fun! FYI - My makeup definitely started to get messed up in this pictures, lots of crazy drinking and people and that happens.





Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Lots of Kink - 1st Week In Chicago

I've been in Chicago a few days and I've pretty much been on the go, not that I'm complaining. Thursday into Friday with taking the Amtrak from Cleveland to Chicago was a very drawn out process. Then I get into Chicago and went out to the Suburbs just for a few hours and then I was back in the city as I was the demo bottom model for MsC's basic bondage class.

Saturday I met up with Missy Rhodes as we had been meaning to do so for awhile now. Later that night the two of us plus my good friend Andrew went out to the Bondage Night Chicago Party hosted by Xena. There was a good turnout. I had no plans on playing just because I hadn't been out in awhile and just wanted to catch up with some people. Although, I did convince my friend Andrew to play a bit. He's not kinky but he's been to a bunch of kinky events with me and yet he never plays. So I got Missy Rhodes and a few others to flog him. Then I joined in briefly.

They had a cake since it was an Anniversary party I along with Maria the Purple Goddess convinced Andrew to eat cat off of Maria's feet. Sure enough he did!

Sunday I was out in the burbs for awhile not doing too much but me and 4 of my vanilla friends checked  out some bars in Logan Square around 11pm. I'm staying in Logan Square for awhile as a kinky friend was kind enough to let me stay in a spare room. I love the location and it's enabled me to get all my things into one place and settle a bit. We found a great bar called Revolution Brewery and I even got a free drink because when I sat down I sat in a wet spot and then proceeded to ask for a free beer and the bartender said, "most definitely"!

Yesterday (Monday) I had 2 sessions as a TG Domme. They were very different styles of play but both a lot of fun. I wore my new black patterned liquid leggings with buttons at the bottom of each leg. I looked sexy! I love dressing!

I got my hair cut and styled a bit more on Saturday as well by the famous SAL-E who is known for his make up skills. I got a short bob hairstyle so that I can wear my hair down sometimes when I'm dressed and so that as it continues to grow it will be more fashionable. I did keep it just long enough so that I can pull my hair back though because that's how I wear it most of the time.

Back to the sessions. The first one I dressed him up a bit and we did some bondage and sensory deprivation. He had never experienced a few things like hot wax and mummification so we touched on that as well. She was a very submissive "girl" and I enjoyed the session.
Then the second session was mostly focused on bondage along with tease/denial and some leg worship.

Today.... I'm shooting video with Xena and Maria the Purple Goddess. Not sure exactly what type of content were shooting but I will know soon enough.

I'm looking at opening up my own clips4sale store. It seems that everyone has one these days but with all the content I've shot it only seems right. Something that's a bit different with mine is that I also do self play and will be featuring clips of things I do to myself. Sometimes the things I do to myself are much more bizarre, raw and dirty as I push myself pretty far.

This Sunday is Pride Parade. I'm definitely going to dress up for that. Not I just have to decide what I'm going to wear. I need some new heels and sandels though! I'm going to it with my friend Haven in town from L.A. and probably a few others as well. I'll make a point to take some pictures.

Thursday, June 16, 2011

BDSM: Non Formal Relationships

I'm heading to the train station in a few hours and then I'll be in Chicago in the morning. I'm going to model - demo bottom for Ms C's Shibari bondage class To Restrain Or Knot tomorrow night (Friday) at 8pm. Then Saturday I'm going to the Bondage Night Chicago Party with some kinky friends. Should be fun. Over the weekend I'm a get my hair cut and styled a bit more than what it is at the moment. My schedule is filling up already and I'm shooting video early next week with Xena and Maria the Purple Goddess.

I thought I would share my final paper I wrote for my Junior English class. It was to be a formal paper no longer than 7 pages. Includes listing, headings and be no more than 7 pages long.
It's called........


BDSM: Non-Formal Relationships

Abstract

In examining the sub-culture of BDSM (bondage, discipline, sado-masochism) this article analysis the distinguishing roles of its participants and the relationships found. Individuals who partake in BDSM are either a dominant or a slave. Depending on the environment and relationship outline the slave submits to a dominant sexually while also adhering to rules and guidelines. It’s strongly noted that individuals of both roles consensually agree to the relationships framework. It’s also important to note that slaves aren’t legally slaves and that they will often exercise free will if the situation calls for it.


Introduction

The sexually driven sub-culture known as BDSM (bondage, discipline, sado-masochism) entwines itself into the lives of many. For some it is purely sexual satisfaction from time to time. For others it is a lifestyle that encompasses sexual and non-sexual ownership and slavery between willing individuals. Those involved in the BDSM community continue to battle negative connotations surrounding their lifestyle choices. Non-the less, many partake in this taboo lifestyle worldwide. The relationships built within BDSM vary from person to person. With that said there are three standard relationships regularly scene, 1) 24/7 BDSM Slavery, 2) Part time BDSM, 3) Professional BDSM.
The road to BDSM is un-definable in that many can recount childhood memories while others come across it from an old sexual partner or word of mouth. It’s a lifestyle full of sexual thrills and it can also be a power exchange based on rules and guidelines outside of the bedroom. One person enjoys being in a dominant role while the other enjoys the submissive role. BDSM stresses consensual relationships between two or more willing individuals. The reason behind the power role chosen varies for each person. Much of it is a sexual stimulation that is difficult for even that person to explain. BDSM explores the human body and it’s capabilities through pleasure and pain.
One pain that many face is the fear of others knowing about their lifestyle preference. Many are secretly involved within BDSM and fear being outed similar to how homosexuals fear others knowing about their lifestyle preference, “In one recent survey of adult SM group members, 70% of the respondents reported they were at least partially closeted” (NCSF, 1998, p. 2). Traditional culture is misinformed and ignorant about BDSM with beliefs that it’s based on abuse and unhealthy relations. Because of this many have decided to lead double lives.  This article will examine the different relationships within the BDSM community and look to shed a light on a misrepresented sub-culture.

Terminology
            Individuals in BDSM regularly use the following terms. It’s a way of differentiating between varied interests, roles, and relationships.
·      BDSM (Bondage, Discipline, Sado-Masochism)
·      M/S (Master/Submissive – slave)
·      D/S (Dominant/Submissive-slave) or (Dominance/Submission)
·      Pro Domme (Professional Dominatrix)
·      24/7 (Someone who has BDSM involved in their everyday lives)
·      Kinky (Someone who partakes in BDSM)

Technology
            The boom of technology has greatly assisted the interconnectivity within BDSM. Websites such as www.fetlife.com allow people to easily find others who are also interested in BDSM. It allows for advertisement of local gatherings, classes, demonstrations, parties as well as self-promotion. A lifestyle that appears very taboo in person doesn’t seem to be quite so much on the Internet. The Internet allows for those who are new to the culture to educate themselves and get their toes wet prior to jumping in.

24/7 BDSM Slavery
            A relationship of 24/7 BDSM slavery involves a set of rules and guidelines that the slave consensually agrees to live by 24 hours a day and 7 days per week. These sets of rules expand way beyond sexual servitude and serve as a structured outline on how the couple will interact with one another at all times. The slave is by no means legally a slave; the term adheres to a role within the relationship dynamic in which the individual chooses.  The framework of the relationship changes in different environments. When the couple is alone the slave may follow certain orders like: always asking for permission to eat, only addressing the partner as Sir or Ma’am, or asking for permission to use the bathroom.  Many slaves are responsible for the majority of household domestic duties as in cleaning the home, cleaning the dishes, and cooking dinner. The slave identity in BDSM relationships is not gender or age specified, “An online questionnaire was used to obtain responses from individuals who self-identified as slave. 146 people participated, 53% female and 47% male, ranging in age from 18-72” (Dancer, Peter L. 2006).
            When the couple is in a public environment the framework of the dominance and submission still exists. At the same time there are societal rules that must also be followed. Due to this, the submission is passively presented but still recognized between the couple. The slave may always wait for their dominant to eat first or they may only walk on one side of their dominant. These actions may come across as useless to an outsider but what this really does is exemplify a 24/7 BDSM relationship. More importantly it shows commitment and respect between the couple.
            The emphasis on sexual relations is the core of BDSM. A person who has sexually submissive tendencies will begin to explore their role as a slave to a sexually driven dominant prior to entering into the realm of 24/7 slavery. The sexual thrills of BDSM are relatively the same whether one is in a 24/7 BDSM relationship or an occasional BDSM relationship. The dominant will subject the slave to sexual humiliation, bondage, discipline, torment, chastity, body worship and more. The roles of dominant and slave remain during sexual relations in a 24/7 BDSM relationship. In fact, this is the greatest essence to the core of their existing relationship. The structure and guidance that BDSM provides was too great for those involved in the 24/7 lifestyle that they couldn’t only partake in it on a part time basis. Those who live a 24/7 lifestyle only represent a small portion of those involved in BDSM, however it provides an organized template that sexually and emotionally satisfies their relationship needs.

Part Time BDSM
            For some this is the gateway to 24/7 BDSM slavery and for many others it is the perfect combination of sexual desire and everyday life. It allows for a couple to engage in fantasy, role-play, and dominance/submission while they mostly still maintain their societal roles. They may engage in a school teacher/ student role-play for a couple hours. Or they may want a larger influence of BDSM in their lives but only on a part time basis. This could be long weekends of strict BDSM between the couple the way 24/7 slavery is outlined or they may agree to add a few BDSM based rules into their relationship.
            Part time BDSM allows for the greatest amount of fluctuation because it’s an on again - off again structure. These relationships tend to have a heavier focus on BDSM sexually. This structure allows for the couple to explore fetishes together. One partner is usually more dominant where the other is submissive but there is a greater emphasis on satisfying one another as opposed to pleasing the dominant first and foremost seen in 24/7 BDSM relationships.

Professional BDSM
            It is here that sexual pleasures of BDSM combine with a professional career. It is predominately male clientele that choose to see a professional dominatrix (pro domme). Professional BDSM is a business that is mostly controlled by women.  More than anything it is an outlet for submissive clientele to enact upon submissive fantasies in an accepting environment.
            Pro dommes only offer BDSM activities meaning that a client will not engage in any direct sexual relations with the person they’re serving. The client chooses the duration of time they wish to serve with an hour being the commonly known minimum. The rates of pro dommes tend to be between $200 and $300 per hour. Pro dommes charge these rates for a couple of reasons: 1) Pro dommes are paying a rental fee on the space being used. 2) The equipment and outfits used are expensive. 3) They are providing services in a niche market that clients are willing to pay for. 4) Clients are paying for the experience and knowledge of a pro domme.  
            Pro dommes are generally trained by someone with extensive knowledge and experience in BDSM. Professional domination provides a safe haven to clients who are unsure about their own fantasies. Even in a changing Westernized culture many men feel uncomfortable submitting to a woman in any capacity. Submissive’s who are closeted about their BDSM desires with family, friends, and or partners are often professional domination clients.  The relations between the pro domme and the submissive are strictly professional based. Pro dommes generally enjoy their work and in many cases consider themselves to provide a therapeutic environment. A field research study by Danielle Lindermann of Columbia University found that, “Respondents repeatedly characterized themselves as ‘therapists’, speaking about their work as a form of psychological treatment for their clients” (Lindermann, Danielle 2011). Professional BDSM is equally gratifying for the client and pro domme. It allows for occasional standard societal role deviation and that in itself provides a comfort that neither can find elsewhere.

Conclusion
            BDSM isn’t for everyone. Just as athletics or video games aren’t for everyone. BDSM is an outward expressionism of oneself sexually, physically, and mentally. Those in BDSM come to terms with their bodies desire for satisfaction. In some cases it’s a taboo fetish and other times it’s their best opportunity at personal freedom. It can be freedom from societal norms, freedom from family obligations, and or freedom from career expectations. BDSM can be captured in a moment or over the period of a lifetime. BDSM is a consensual agreement between individuals to explore the pleasures and pains of themselves together.
            There’s no questioning that it’s a different lifestyle than that of one that any person is born into. Differences are what make the world we live in. It is what keeps life interesting and what makes us curious about what is around the corner. BDSM is what separates many but also brings together many more. It is sub-culture and a community. It’s full of people you love, admire, dream about and it’s full of people who care and inspire. BDSM is a part of someone, it’s not who they are. If BDSM encourages self-expressionism, self-understanding and most importantly self-acceptance then we as a larger society must accept BDSM individuals based on the qualities that make a good person, just like everyone else.  

Monday, June 13, 2011

Scorched Nuts "Burn": Mixed Reactions

Thursday I finished school and did great on all my tests. As soon as I was done with classes Bobcat picked me up and we headed to Scorched Nuts Burn which is a small scale BURNING MAN. It's only about 15 miles outside of Athens and Bobcat helps organize the entire event.

Bobcat has a themed tent which he calls Bubbles and Music. Thursday night not a many people are there being that it's the first day and people are setting up. Either way, the night rolled around rather quickly and his theme was going well. Serving vodka and gin martinis and I was sipping on the whiskey I brought as well. Someone had made homemade vodka and skittles and it wasn't half bad. There were scattered storms all around us but the rain stayed away for about 2 hours. About 11:30 all hell broke loose. There were a few issues. Lots of electricity for the black lights and music. Also Bobcats tent was an E-Z UP and it became and E-Z down as well. Huge winds came through out of no where. I bent down to put more ice in my drink from the cooler and as I did so a huge wind lifted many of the poles out of ground and one popped me right in my mouth. i dropped my drink and it was kind of surreal. No one knew what to do at first.

The tent caved in and we decided to cover the electronics but also ourselves with the tarp that fell. Some ran to their own tents as it down poured and then hailed for a few minutes. People were so wet people started getting naked. I stood under a tarp covering electronics in a huge thunderstorm with 10 others - 4 naked for 30 minutes. An experience to say the least.

Once it finally passed we realized Bobcats tent was destroyed. It looked like a tornado came through and destroyed a house. We didn't let that ruin the night though, more fun continued for a few more hours. Problem was both of our tents got flooded so Bobcat and his girl slept in the back of a U-Haul and I slept in the back seat of his car. Actually I slept there for 3 nights.

Friday people were building structures and doing art work. I was asked to paint one of the big statues that was going to be burnt down. I was given spray paint cans and couldn't resist. Not wanting to stain my clothes I stripped down to my boxer briefs. We maned the gate for about 5 hours that day as well. I started drinking at 10am and lasted till 1:30am, constant drinking and eating. I had my shirt off all day and knew I was burnt but didn't care. At least I have even tan lines.

Saturday was more of the same but bigger structures were built and more people arrived. Some people brought a huge banner/tarp probably about 25 feet wide and 50-75 feet long and turned it into a giant slip n slide. We needed it too cause it was hot as hell out. To slide on it, you had to be naked though. So about 30 of us got naked and slid on it for about an hour. I had always wanted to do that and loved every second of it. I did get a small headache though when I was a bowling ball taking down the pins and got struck in my head.

The burns on Saturday night were really cool. Just being able to watch a fire that big, be that close... it was fun. Sunday I got up around 9am and just started packing up. Oh, can't forget. Saturday night I fell to sleep on a big trampoline in a sphere next to this girl I had met. We had kissed a bit and she was fucked up on drugs and I was wasted. Probably around 4am I wake up to a guy fucking her while she's sleeping and I'm right next to her. I didn't know what was going on at first. Then he says to me, "do you mind?" I was like really.....!?! So I just stumbled to the backseat of the car and went back to sleep.

Sunday, all packed up and Bobcat can't find his keys to his car. So as I'm writing this his car is still there and I'm at home. Someone gave us a ride home and he had to go back today to clean up more anywhere so he left his car there until he could get a spare key today. He's such a smart guy... lol.

My overall reactions.....

I would give in a "C" grade.

1. I drink but I don't do drugs and it was just too much drug use for me. I don't mind being around it on an occasion but being around people on all kinds of drugs for 3 1/2 days became annoying for me. On top of that some people busted my balls for not doing drugs and after awhile that made me want to bust up their face.

2. Too many hippy type of people for me. I have made friends who are all kinds of people but the over the top niceness, care free-dead beat attitude over the course of a few days was just like C'mon. With that also came a lack of relating and having common ground. Most my interests are not theres and vise versa. I also hated how 80% of everyone smoked cigarettes.

3. So there were some people there into kink and bondage. Most these people were regulars at Burns and knew each other. Whenever I tried to give an input on an idea or suggestion they would say shit like, I know what I'm doing, I doubt you do. I got a lot of that and it was just simple kink talk. To be honest I felt like beating their ass because 1 I know a lot more than you. 2 I'm a lot more active in kink than you and 3 I don't walk around boasting about myself so some dumbass amateur shouldn't be either.
 Yes, I may not be in a kilt, hippy clothes, gothic nor did I bring a bunch of toys with me but come into "my world" and I'd show you up any day. Next time I'm taking a single tail with me.

I did get recognized by one person though. Sukibound on fetlife. She was at a symposium we put on at The Studio Chicago 2 years ago. She was cool and I did meet some great people as well. The gay guys loved me... like usual lol. There were some other really cool people and that's why I did have a good time. I give the event a C because I had a few not so good encounters with a few people and there were too many drugs for me. Non-the less I had fun.

Here is a picture of my sunburnt skin. - I'm also heading to Chicago this weekend and plan on being at the Bondage Night Chicago party 11pm-4am.

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Hogspy

Hogspy Fetish News has featured me in their traveling news with me going to Chicago. If you don't know, Hogspy has all the current news on Mistresses including their travel dates and often times website updates. They've heard about me returning to Chicago for the summer and they decided to feature me.


For sessions, modeling and video work email me at morgankeni4@gmail.com


Chicago June 18 - September 1st.
L.A. - Probably late July early August for a few days
NYC September 2 - 4
Athens, Ohio September 5th

Saturday, June 4, 2011

CHICAGO

It's official... Chicago has me back for the summer. I'm kinky and single and going to enjoy myself!

It's looking like I'll be in town June 18th a Saturday. I might be back in time to even make the Bondage Night Chicago party that night, we'll see. Two friends of mine are driving to Athens to pick me up and take me back with them, it's like I'm willingly being kidnapped. My plans for June have changed a lot. Originally I was supposed to go to Sarasota, Florida from the 18-26 but a girl I was kicking it with on the side has a boyfriend now so that just defeats the purpose of me going. Then I was supposed to go east with Andriana Santos but she can't set her dates in stone so that's not happening. So, I'm just going to Chicago and that is perfectly fine for me.

I'm going to be booking Chicago and the surrounding areas for
- Modeling
- Video
- Sessions

To Book anything with me email me at morgankeni4@gmail.com

I'm excited to be able to enjoy the Chicago kink scene for a whole summer while being single and above 21. I mean I'll be 25 at the end of summer but I was in a relationship from 20-23 and then last summer I was in Ohio the entire time working 2 full time jobs (80-85 hours/week). This summer I'm working for myself and going to be in Chicago.
I'm excited to see lots of old kinky friends and partake in lots of play. It's also going to be nice to see the new faces around. I can't forget about my vanilla boys; Jamal, Andrew, Javi, Walter, Chris and Adrian.

Next week is Finals week for me. Tonight I'm studying for a final with an Chinese foreign student in my class and she invited me to a Chinese college party tonight... that should be interesting.

Next weekend Thursday - Sunday is the Scorched Nuts (Smaller version of Burning Man) out in this area that Bobcat helps put on. So I'm a be there and it's my first time attending an event like this. To be honest I'm sure I'm going to be really drunk almost all the time and sunburnt. Saturday night is the "dress up" night so I'm going as "Morgan Keni" the girl me. My goal is to end up in a new tent every night... if you catch my drift lol. Although, I'm sure my dick will be too wasted to partake in any action... I can eat pussy and be satisfied.

I did get some new femme clothes. Two pairs of skinny jeans from Victorias Secret. I like a lot of their clothes and they fit me cause they are made to fit tall model like girls and well I'm just that. I also got some new short shorts from Abercrombie and a new tank top and floral skirt from Holister.

Around late July early August I'm probably going to be in L.A. for a few days. It would be my first trip out there. An old Chicago friend, Haven who is now back living in L.A. wants me to come out. Also Lexi Sindel is now back out there so I'd probably shoot video with her as well as some other companies. Haven has also asked me if I wanted to blog on this new larger kinky blog that is in the process of being made. If all goes well it would be launched in a few months and I would be one of the regular kinky bloggers on the site.

Last. I will be in NYC September 2-4. My 25th Birthday is September 6 - when I start school. Sept 3rd NYC is the Rock The Bells concert. Old school and underground hip hop and I've been meaning to go to this concert for years. Great line up this year. (Lauren Hill, Nas, Raekwon, RZA, Ghostface - All from Wu Tang doing individual albums, Mos Def & Talib Qweli, Immortal Technique, Erykah Badu, Cypress Hill,  Mobb Deep, Souls of Mischief and more. I'm pumped for this!

Here are some pictures off my webcam. I mine as well share them somewhere. Also the last picture is from the documentary that was done on me. I got to watch some of it the other night and he sent me this picture. I'll have a copy of the video soon.




Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Bug Flew in My Ear: Emergency Room Experience

I was on my way to the library to meet with my group for a presentation that we have to give tomorrow. We were going to practice and finalize everything. I'm walking down the big hill I live on when I fly flew at my right ear and I swatted at it. Next thing I knew it was in my ear. Talking about it now still gives me the heebie geebies. This happened at about 9:15 tonight.

So then I started bugging out and I wasn't sure what was going on. I immediately got nervous and then scared. I ran up the hill and saw two girls. I asked if they could drive me to the hospital cause I saw them going by their car. But they said they were drunk and just grabbing something from the car. I think I scared them too cause I was scared. I tried calling Bobcat but I just kept getting his voice mail. The girls were like call 911, but I didn't want to pay for an ambulance. I got scared and called 911. Then called my mom cause I had to talk with someone cause I was scared.

Ambulance comes and we go to the hospital. The bug eventually stopped moving, well at least for a while. I was told this is one of the most scene things at hospitals. They put some thick mineral oil in it as that usually kills the bug as it will drowned. The doctor left the room for a few minutes and lets just say it didn't kill the bug. It started moving a lot and got very painful. Pain especially in my lower ear towards my neck right under the jaw bone. I yelled something like, "Oh shit fuck, oh my God, this really hurts" really loud and the doctor cam running in.

So then they shot a bunch of warm water in my year to flush it out. But, he still didn't come out. Then he was still moving around a bit and was semi painful. Another doctor with more experience came in and shot a lot more warm water in my ear at a quicker pace and the bug slower felt out. He was 99% dead. He still had a little fight in him trying to live. They asked if I wanted to take the bug home. I said yes, so that I could take a picture and document this.

The doctor said he got a moth out of a girls ear yesterday and when he lived in Miami he would pull cock roaches out of peoples ears all the time. I guess they love ear wax and can live out of it. Ehhh, nasty! My ear is definitely swollen and sore now but I'm happy it's out.

Then I had to walk home cause I couldn't reach anyone with a car. Crossed a road full of turtles, I was a little concerned. Then a rat ran right in front of me while I was on the phone and I freaked out. Then I was almost home and a cat hiding behind a bush jumped out and scared the crap out of me. The animals were out to get me tonight. I walked home covering my ears the whole time.... Paranoid.

I'm happy to be home. I'm tired and have to wake up early for class in the morning. I have to dress up too cause we have to look good for a presentation we have to give in my Persuasion class.