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Monday, January 31, 2011

Webcam

Last night was my 1st time doing webcam and it was a lot of fun. I do a lot of kinky crazy things to myself anyways and it's fun to give the power to someone else and know that they are getting off to me.
I created an account with www.livejasmin.com and it took about 10 days for everything to get approved with my ID pictures and so forth. If you want to chat and or watch some live shows of me there you can find me under AUTOEROTICBOY

Last night I was only planning on being on for about an hour but it turned into almost 2 hours as time just flew by. It took me a minute to get used to how things work and then it was fun. I started off with my favorite anal toy already in me to be a ready to stick some bigger toys up there. One guy wanted to see some dildo sucking and worship and then I fucked myself and I know he enjoyed that as did I. Some guys just loved looking at my tattoos and talking about worshiping my body.

Anything I'd do in private I'll do on cam so I'm sure this will be a new fun adventure for all involved. I actually have a scat scene tonight at 8 with this guy I met on there last night. I didn't have to "go" last night so I told him we could do tonight and what do you know, I really have to go. In fact I've had to go for hours so I can't wait for 8pm to get here, only an hour to go. He was also interested in using diapers and I just happen to have some so he will get a good show tonight.

I'm probably going to be setting up a schedule on the site but if your interested in doing some private play with me feel free to send me an email to
Autoeroticboy@yahoo.com
and we will set something up

Again here is my info to watching me on webcam...
Autoeroticboy
wwwlivejasmin.com

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Super Bowl to Flu

Sunday I was excited to watch the 2 conference championship NFL games. I was hoping it would be the Bears vs. Steelers because that is my dream match up. It's a win-win for me. I would still be rooting for the Steelers but would also be very happy if the Bears won. As we know that did not happen but the Steelers are back in the super bowl, the 3rd time since 2005.
Anyone that knows me knows I'm a HUGE Steelers fan. I have been since I was about 7. I'm also a die hard Cubs fan but this is football season.

So the Steelers play the Packers for the title and at least all my Chicago friends are Steeler fans for the time being. Just after the game I started to feel pretty bad. I thought I would take a shower to warm up as I had chills but I knew I was getting sick when I was taking a super hot shower and yet I was still freezing cold. Sunday night was hell and I have an 8:30am class on Monday and go to school until 6pm. I slept with clothes on and under 2 comforters and 2 blankets. I finally fall to sleep about 1:30 and at 2:30 my phone rings and it's a withheld number. It's someone pranking me, the person knew my name but I didn't recognize their voice and still have no idea who it was. I don't get phone pranks so that was a bit strange. The guy was like, "Why you fucking my wife? You think it's ok to be fucking my wife" and so forth. I hung up and they called me back and I was like dude I'm sick as hell and have to wake up in 4 hours for school so leave me the fuck alone and he did thankfully. None the less that was strange and then I couldn't fall back to sleep for another hour, I was pissed.

I went to class Monday morning and showed up 30 minutes early. Not on purpose, I was just so out of it that I thought that was when class started. I even called my teacher asking him if he cancelled class. I had to laugh when I realized how out of it I was. After class I went straight to the doctor and was told I have the flu. So the past few days I've locked myself in my room and have done lots of sleeping, very little eating and taking lots of medication. Finally, around mid day today I felt like my fever has finally left me. So, I do feel a bit better and I should be getting back to my normal schedule here over the next few days.

Friday, January 21, 2011

Video

After moving to Ohio in early 2010 and getting all settled in i decided to start seeking out the world of BDSM in the area. Now of course there is a BDSM scene in Ohio and the Pittsburgh area but perhaps I was a bit spoiled coming from Chicago. My solution was to start seeking out video work and why not get paid for enjoying myself at the same time. Beyond that though I wanted to get back into the scene after being absent from it for about 8-9 months.

Around mid July Lexi Sindel www.lexigoddess.com had texted as I was just getting out of work. I was a waiter and it was around midnight. We had previously spoken online about working together but I wasn't expecting to hear from her at the time. She knew that I was currently in Ohio and asked if I would like to work with www.clubdom.com as they were in the Columbus area for the weekend. The next day I shot with Victoria Sapphire, Noel Knight, and Kelle Martina (all from Columbus). Basically this was the start of my more active working life in BDSM as it is at the moment.

Lexi and I continued to talk and in late August I went out to DC to work with her. Jade Indica had come down from New York while I was in town as well and we shot for a few days. We ended up with many great videos and one of my favorites was with me and Jade in the shower titled, "Shower Fuck". It sky rocketed to #1 on www.clips4sale.com and remained in the top 10 for around a month I want to say. It stayed in the top 50 for much longer than that. In the strap-on section it has been in the top 50 for 5 months and was recently in the top 5 all last week. I also had 2 of the best strap-on scenes I've ever had in my life with Lexi, "Extreme Strap-on Humiliation and Having Her Way with His Ass".          

Of recent I've had many call me a masochist. I never considered myself to be one and still wouldn't put myself in that category. Maybe I'm a growing masochist. I don't get off on pain but I do enjoy pushing my body to the limit. I love to see how far I can go and the more you do it the better you become at it. But in general I do have a high pain tolerance. Again, I never really associated myself with having that until everyone started telling me that I do. When I was a kid I broke a lot of bones, tore muscles, dislocations, etc. Then I started getting tattoos at 18 and even the artists all said that my pain tolerance is incredible. Then in the BDSM world I got the same comments so to answer the question, I have a high pain tolerance but still wouldn't consider myself a masochist. Speaking of masochism the best whipping I had taken to date in August was the video shot with Lexi as she whipped me with a single tail and then rubbed salt into my cuts, that was called "True Sadist". I was so spacey during this but absolutely loved every bit of it. If I have to choose a pain implement it's definitely the single tail for me. What I hate are paddles!

Since August I've been out to DC working with Lexi 2 other times. I believe in October and then in December. I may be back there in Feb I will know that soon and I may go out there in mid March on my spring break. I'm also hoping to do some work with www.kink.com I have been in communications with them so we'll see. I was actually asked to work with when I was 19 and down at Fetishcon. Dana DeArmond had just come up to me and wanted to know if  I would like to work for kink. I corresponded with them for a few weeks after the event but at the time I told them I was unable to as it was my freshman year of school and it was complicated getting to San Francisco. Looking back at it I should have done it at the time. So hopefully you will all see me on there in the near future.

For right now you can see the majority of my video work on Lexi Sindel's clips4sale store
www.clips4sale.com/studio/8341/

Her new site which is in the works and coming soon and you will be able to see me as well is
www.fiercefemdom.com

I must say it is nice to see videos that your apart of do well. I think that's natural for anyone to want. I enjoy knowing that other people are getting pleasure out of a scene that I enjoyed. It's just another way of pleasing someone. My last best seller is with both Lexi Sindel and Corral Korrupt - www.coralkorrupt.com and I am suspended and penetrated by both women. It's called, "Fucked Until Broken" and that has also been a #1 seller. Currently sitting at #4 overall and still #1 under "Strap-On".

There should be some new productions coming soon as well as hopefully working with Kink in the near future.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

7 week Road Trip part 2

I was supposed to take a train from DC to Chicago because I hate flying. I used to like flying as a kid but now I hate it and avoid it at all costs. But, the train ticket prices kept going up because it was around Christmas and they wanted over $300 for a 18 hour train ride and that was a waste of money so I ended up flying out of Baltimore Dec. 21  to Chicago. It ended up being a really smooth flight but that was 2 hours of torture that I didn't want to consent to in any manner. BTW, no airplane magazine should mention death in any of their articles. Every time I saw that it was just on to the next article.

Now I'm born and raised in Chicago. I moved to Ohio my senior year of high school. I was actually renting an apartment in Chicago when I still had 2 months to go my senior year in Ohio. After graduation I moved back to Chicago and then I just moved back to Ohio late December 2009 after my break up and to finish my Bachelors degree at Ohio University.

Back to the story I got in to Chicago and I did a whole lot of drinking and eating. Chicago has some of the best food. Got some deep dish pizza, the best hot dogs on earth from Gene & Judes and lots of Mexican food. Christmas Eve I went out to my sisters house in the suburbs and it was the first time I saw her daughter who is about 9 months old now. I met my mother and her husband (who live in Ohio currently) at my sisters as well. There was a little get together and that was fun until I went to sleep and I was woken up by 2 screaming and crying kids all night.

Christmas day was back to Des Plaines, IL where my uncle has Christmas every year. I was looking good that day, I love to be looking nice. Fast forward to New Years Eve. Me and my vanilla friends rented a hotel room and went to a bar. It was the best NYE I've had yet. I drank a whole lot and danced for hours upon hours. I was definitely hung over the next day and kind of looked like I got hit by a train when we got breakfast but overall it wasn't too bad.

I was supposed to go back to Ohio Jan 3rd. I was able to get to Cincinnati or Pittsburgh but didn't have a way to get down to school. School started on the 3rd but I didn't get back to Ohio until Jan. 8th. So I got to hang out with VonLivid again. She runs www.houseofbias.com latex company. I've known her for nearly 8 years now and it's always fun to hang out with her. She is actually the only person to have ever kept me in chastity. When I was 19 I went 13 days in a CB-3000. One night while I was there we were drinking and the topic came up. She was going to put me in a device with the goal to double that to 26 days but the device was broke so we had to put that off till next time.

Then there was an event going on at The Studio www.thestudiochicago.com and I hadn't attended a Chicago kink event for over a year because every time I visited Chicago over the past year I kept missing all the events. So my good friend Holland and I went together and had a good time. I didn't end up playing and wasn't really looking to. I just wanted to get out and see some old faces that I hadn't in some time. It was an O.K. turn out but I was happy to see Xena, Purple Goddess, and a few other attendees that I won't mention by name. I did get to meet Miss Clawdia whom I had never actually met. But, I knew she was a "legend" in Chicago and I had some mutual friends especially Madame Ingrid from Pittsburgh.

I don't think I've ever drank so much in my life. I put on around 12-15 pounds in 18 days there. I'm a thin guy and will loose that pretty easily getting back to my school routine. But, I remember counting how much I had drank there and it was 16 out of 18 nights. I got food poisoning from Durkins bar in Lincoln Park but I still love that place as it's the BEST Steelers bar in Chicago. I was down and out for about 24 hours but after that I was good. I also got to go to Twisted Spoke on Grand & Ogden 3 times while there. 1/2 off whisky Wednesday's and that includes all whisky. I love that place and I get some really great deals from the Manager so it's an added incentive. They also have amazing food. It's safe to say I went over my budget while there. I was there 5 days longer than expected and spent WAY too much money. Oh, well.

That about wraps up most of my 7 week road trip. I probably won't be back in Chicago until the summer but I plan to be in DC/Baltimore sometime in Feb. and I plan to most likely be there for Spring break which is a week long in mid March.

A FEW PICTURES FROM CHICAGO
Pic 1 - NYE
Pic 2 - Christmas w/ Family
Pic 3 - Drunk after my 1st trip to Twisted Spoke



Monday, January 17, 2011

How to - Make Breasts

I've been requested to write about this and I've been asked the question, "How do you make your boobs?" so many times I wouldn't even attempt to count them.
A little background... When I was a teenager I used to just stuff like like many cross dressers do and some girls of course. When I was 19 I was approached by a drag queen in Chicago by the drag name of Tina Torch. She wanted to do drag make up on me so one day we got together and later that night I went out to The Continuum fetish party in Chicago. There's a picture below of what I looked like that night.

It was then that I learned how to do the way I do my boobs now. You really don't need much, the most important thing is duct tape. Yes, the solution to everything.... duct tape.

Before you do anything push your chest/tits together and you'll get an idea of what you can create. Then take duct tape and before you rip off a piece measure about how long of a piece you need. I wrap the duct tape about an inch or 2 behind my side/past where my arm hangs down. Rip off about 3 pieces at this length and then 1 maybe 2 pieces that are about 4-6 inches shorter.

Note: This is much easier if you have someone to help you, but practice and you'll get a hang off it.

1. Take a long piece of tape and place the end about 2 inches behind your side. Push the tape onto your body to the side of your chest. Then take your chest and push it together like your making cleavage. Push together as much as possible and with your other hand pull the tape the rest of the way and make it as tight as possible. (The tape should be just under your nipples)

2. The 2nd piece of tape should start just a tad further onto your side than the 1st piece so that it grips some skin as well. This piece is easier than the 1st. Squeeze chest together again and pull the tape and make it tight.

3. You may not have to put another long piece of tape on but if it feels like you need it do it again.

4. I then use a shorter piece of tape just to sure things up.

5. Put on your choice of bra.

6. Stuff. You can use breast forms if you have them. They are usually best but socks work as well. But whatever you use to stuff push it down and just fill space. Your chest that has been created into breasts already takes up a good amount of space, now your just filling leftover space.

7. Probably the simplest step is to take a little make up that's just a tad darker than your skin color. With a brush apply that into your cleavage. Blend it into your skin. This creates a dimension that makes your breasts look larger and realer than they are.

I'll need to do a video of this and you'll get an even better idea of how to do this. None the less try this out. Practice helps for any cross dresser. Although, real girls also use this tip sometimes. I actually taught a girl with smaller breasts how to do this and she loved me for it.

This is actually best if you have a little fat in your chest. If you don't have any fat this still helps it's just a tad more difficult but trust me this is the key to beautiful fake breasts.

Taking it off. Can hurt a little bit. If your sweating a bit it actually doesn't hurt at all. Taking a shower with the tape on can help out a lot as well and then just remove it in the shower. But, ask any girl.... Beauty = Pain.

Drag Queen picture & then a close up of my fake breasts.


Sunday, January 16, 2011

My sisters pregnant again

 So I just found out that my sister is pregnant again. This will be her 3rd child in 3 years. She has a little boy and a little girl. Now, she is 7 years older than me and she is married. Both her and her husband have a good job but my initial reaction to her being pregnant again was anger. They live in the Chicago area and I spent Christmas with her this past year as I usually do. Right away I had noticed that she was a bit thin and tired. My mom had said the same thing to me actually on the phone just a little bit ago.
 Last I had talked to her was only about 3-4 weeks ago and she said that she wasn't even sure if she wanted to have another kid. Initially she wanted 3 or 4 but she's had 2 in 2 years and then you have to figure in the economy. She just wanted to "get back to normal" get comfortable and so forth. Now she's having another one.
 We used to be really close but were just in 2 completely different places in our lives right now and we live 500 miles apart. I really hope her husband get's his tubes tied and that this is the last one, at least for some years because she needs that break.
 I guess if I never have my own kids I'm at least an uncle to 3. I'm sure things will work out just fine for her but I'm just worried right now. Worried that it's a bit too much too soon.

Friday, January 14, 2011

7 week Road Trip part 1

After Ithaca, New York I was off to Philly. It was my first time there since I was a child, I wish I had more time than a 1/2 a day there. I'll definitely be back. Miss Lydia Rules was nice enough to meet up with me and I crashed at Coral Korrupts place. Coral was already in DC where I was heading the next day. Lydia is into Lolita fashion and she had a dress that she had ordered a bit large so we played a little dress up. Overall it fit pretty good so I have a better idea of what size to get when I start my Lolita collection. My friend, we'll call him "Bobcat" likes electrical play and he saw that Coral had a cattle prod and asked me if I would use it on him. I was like, are you sure and he was game. That was fun lol :) I shocked him on his ass a few times and boy did he jump but at the same time he enjoyed it. I haven't tried it yet, I try to avoid using it on me that is.

Then it was on to DC in the morning. Bobcat drove back home and Lydia and I were on our way to the "Slave Party" hosted by Lexi Sindel. There were 5 Dommes, Lexi Sindel, Coral Korrupt, Lydia Rules, Jenni Fishnets, and Nikki Domino. I had known them all except for Nikki at the time. A good amount of guys showed up but Lexi's 2 personal slaves that were there and I only helped out with the party. The party was for the other guys attending. Eventually they all went downstairs to play and the 3 of us were left by all the food and alcohol so of course I indulged. As the night got late I ended up playing just a little bit with Nikki and it's safe to say Nikki and I had a really good time that night. She's really cool and enjoyable to be around.

I ended up staying in DC with Lexi to film for 12 days. In that time I shot with Lexi, Victoria Sapphire from Columbus, Ohio and Nikki Domino. A ball kicking submissive was also there for a few shoots, and Cybil Troy and her slave from New York were in town for a few days as well.

I'm trying to recall all the scenes I did while there:
- w/ Lexi as Santa strap-on and heavy bondage
- w/ Lexi wrestling
- w/ Lexi boot worship
- w/ Lexi & Victoria double strap-on
- w/ Lexi and Victoria self cock sucking
- w/ Victoria heavy flogging
- w/ Victoria Whipping
- w/ Victoria Caning (first time I've ever cried during a scene & I cried a lot)
- w/ Victoria CBT, S&M scene and bondage
- w/ Victoria boot worship
- w/ Nikki Domino Strap-on
------------- I think that's all of them and then I just helped out when other people were in town.
Lexi had me serving her on a more regular basis while I was there. We had discussed working out a D/s relationship between us on a more regular basis. I have a few play partners but I've been keeping my eyes open to playing more regularly and more intense with someone. Lexi and I have discussed things a bit and neither of us want to jump into something because I take a D/s relationship seriously but things seem to be heading in a positive direction with us.

I'll wrap up the rest of my trip in my next journal.
But here's a picture of Lexi as Santa with her submissive.... Me.