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Sunday, February 27, 2011

Things: Bucket List, Memoir, Fun & Finals

Me and one of my friends the other day were talking about a kinky bucket list. I thought that would be interesting to write out. I'll have to write it on paper first as I'll have to think about it a bit but there are definitely a lot of things I want to do. Luckily I don't plan to die any time soon so I'll have some time to cross things off my list.

I know lots of people who say that they should write a memoir and I'm sure everyone thinks that their life would make a rather good story in some capacity. But, you hear people in kink saying it more than most people because the path into the world of kink is a pretty interesting one. I actually love to write which is in part why I started this blog in the first place. I've always been acknowledged for my writing from peers, teachers and friends. Even if it were never to be published I plan to start writing my memoir. Even if only a few people read it, even if only I read it I find it very freeing and relaxing to write. My life without kink is a story within itself and I'm ready write this part of my life. I'm sure it will take quite some time but at least I have an old friend who has actually done some editing and says she would love to do editing for me.

This coming weekend I have a friend visiting me. She is actually my West Virginia fling from a few weeks ago lol. So, we'll see how that goes. Get some dinner, go out to a few bars in town and then I guess I get to be the Dominant one because she's definitely not. I haven't gone out to any of the Athens bars in a long time now. Actually since before I broke my foot, that's crazy. Last time I went out was when I got my cupcake tattoo above my crotch. I went out with the tattoo artist after and we got really drunk. That was a fun night and this dates back to early October.

Finals are right around the corner. I've got to write 1 traditional paper, another response paper, put together a presentation & study my ass off for math. So it's going to be a hectic 2 weeks.

Also I should be getting the pictures back soon that Nikki Domino and I took.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Self Play: Aneros - Piss - Consumption - Orgasm

This actually took a few hours.... So  


Put dick inside baby bottle and taped it to myself. Put a thick diaper on cause I knew it would leak a bit. Used the Aneros prostate massager and I've been getting myself to cum a bit more from it. Anal milking and it's crazy, the feeling that is. So I came a bit in the bottle first and the nice thing about this is your still really horny cause it's not like an orgasm but you produce cum none the less. After doing that for a bit I pissed into the bottle. That's the first part.  


Then I took the tape off and had a piss filled bottle with some cum in it. Took my white gag that not only is for attaching a dildo but also has a hole in the mouth gag to insert tubes into. I hooked up the enema bag and put my piss and cum into the enema bag. I then laid down in my bathtub and my gag has a locking mechanism on the back of it. Instead I attached a leash where it locks and tied the other end of the leash to the faucet in the tub so that I couldn't move my head if I wanted to. I kept the plastic pants on because it's sort of bizarre and turns me on. I took the hose of the enema and put it through my gag and into my mouth. I taped it to the gag so that I could not pull off if I wanted to.  


May I say that my piss wasn't watered down either. I had to piss all day but I was horny all day and started planning shit to do during the day so I held my piss till I got home to do this.  


I decided that I couldn't stop the contents in the enema bag to stop flowing until I had cum. Note: I'm not a big piss drinker at all, but I enjoy putting myself in extreme predicaments. So I let the piss and cum start flowing and it immediately fills my gagged mouth and some starts to drip down my chin and down my chest. The taste and order was strong. I knew it wouldn't take long for me to cum as I was rock hard so I let the piss and cum flow into my mouth a bit longer and then started to masturbate. Before I knew it I had exploded. But, because I had tied myself into such a tough predicament the piss just kept flowing and I had humiliated myself and loved it.  


It was an intense orgasm and a fun self play scenario.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Pushed

The title says it all, I want to be pushed.

I've been kinky since I was a child. I have detailed memories of me stealing my grandfathers diapers when he was on his death bed so that I could wear them. I learned how to masturbate limp 6-7 years before I hit puberty. I recall being aroused by Cameron Diaz when she was tied up in "The Mask", I was 8 then. I would borrow and steal girls clothes when I was at their houses, not to smell them but to wear them and I wore my sisters clothes as well. I almost burnt down the bathroom in my house when I tied myself up and dripped hot wax all over my chest, nipples and cock/balls. I put nails through ping pong paddles because spanking wasn't enough, I wanted to draw blood. At 17 I skipped a basketball game to have my first professional session. At 18 I had a session in Ohio and 2 more in Illinois. Just turning 19 I entered a slave training contract with Vonlivid www.agentfetish.com for 1 1/2 years. A few months later I served Miss Jaded for a few months and then we entered into a couple year personal relationship. In between all of this there were many more dirty, kinky, perverted things going on.

The past 8 months has been great for me. I'm single, happy, finishing my degree at Ohio University and after getting back to my typical self after a break up kink has been great to me. So one might say.... what else could I want?

I want to be pushed. To be abused, mentally and physically. I want to be bent in weird ways, forced to do things I'm maybe not too keen on, made to do things that are beyond humiliating, to be embarrassed, under someones control. I know better than anyone that kink is not all about the bottom but the point of anyone entering any sort of relationship is for both sides to feel satisfaction. Now, I'm not in a relationship right now with anyone, not personally or in kink. So, when I do play with someone the above is what I need.

Lots of people who know me know that I'm not your "typical slave" if there even is such a thing. What I mean by this is I also do kinky films as a part time job and I'm actually friends with a lot of people that I play with. Just as I can separate my kinky life to my vanilla life I want someone who can do the same with me. What I need is someone who is as fucked in the head as me. I know what I want and I'm confident in myself now I need someone who is just as confident and ready to enter into a world of extreme kink with me.

PUSH, PUSh, PUsh, Push, push. I don't like to say I want my limits pushed because things aren't really limits. I am picky who I play with personally as it's something that is important to me. I want us to connect so that the both of us get pure joy out of doing these nasty, disgusting, painful, embarrassing, sexual things together. There are a lot of things I haven't done and am even a little hesitant to talk about but want to do only because that is me giving all my control over to someone else and pleasing them and that is what I also get the most joy out of.

Honestly, I can count on 1 hand of the Dommes that I personally know and I feel could do this. One of them I get to see in Pittsburgh March 19 and saying I'm excited is an under statement.

I'm a patient person and with me finishing school in Ohio I know it's difficult for me to really find anyone to play with very regularly so I guess I just have to continue this route until I graduate which thankfully isn't too much longer... Just over a year to go.

So if you didn't get the message...
PUSH ME!

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

D.C. fun & Photoshoot

We got into DC late Thursday night and both Bobcat and I were pretty tired. Neither of us could do much right. Dropping everything we touched, couldn't figure out how to get into our hotel room and then we couldn't figure out how to shut the door. We were about to change rooms but once we figured it out with some help from the staff it wasn't so bad.

Friday early afternoon I had a session as a submissive for about 2 hours where I was whipped, worshipped some feet and had some predicament bondage done on me, it was fun. That night we roamed around Rockville, MD and had some incredible Thai food. I also had a few chocolate martinis which is definitely one of my favorite drinks.

Saturday I met up with Nyssa Nevers http://www.modelmayhem.com/1613 and we hung all night. We were in the Adam Morgans neighborhood and had a lot of fun at a bar called Madams Organ. It had a cool vibe and I'm sure it's even crazier when it's warm out. Although, I can't complain too much. We had decent weather in the high 40's-50's. I definitely got a little drunk to say the least. My tolerance definitely isn't what it was in December. I tend to drink a little bit of everything once I get going... Tequilla, Whiskey, & beer was on my menu that night.

Sunday Nikki Domino and I had a photo shoot and of course it was BDSM themed. We were in this house that is being renovated so it was completely empty and we had free reign to do whatever we pleased. The house was really dated but that left us with some really cool-fun options. I'm excited to get the photos back and I will be posting some here as soon as I get them.

Monday I headed back home and I'm back to school. There's only 4 weeks left and that's including Finals so it's going to be a busy next few weeks for me. Presentations, papers and tests. Then I'm off for Spring Break for a week and it's looking like I'll be back in Baltimore/DC for most of the week although I think I'm a be staying in Baltimore this time. So my travel for the next 8 weeks is looking like this.

Pittsburgh - March 19 Get to see Madame Ingrid :)
Baltimore/DC - March 20-27
Cincinnati - April 8-10 Tattoo Convention

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Cabin Valentines Fling

West Virginia was a lot of fun, actually even better than I thought it would be. We got there Friday night around 10. It was a bit north of Huntington West Virginia. The Cabin is huge the only thing it was missing was a hot tub but we were in a State Park so you only get so much. We drank every night and for the most part it was just the 4 of us except for Sunday night. Since it was Valentines weekend lots of their friends were busy.

Friday night...
After some drinking we all crashed. Gay boy (happens to have a big crush on me) and I slept downstairs in one of the big beds. It was his b-day so he got the best room as it had a walk-in bathroom as well. So I got in bed as usual and within minutes he asks if I'm naked. I said no, I'm in my boxers. He says, I'm naked and you should get naked. I thought I'll amuse him a bit and so I got naked. He started asking some questions and he put is arm around me and asked if I like my ass played with. I said, of course!
Now I've done a lot of anal with myself and women but I should've known that a gay boy knew what he was doing because it felt fucking fantastic. But, no I didn't give it up, I let him finger me. I actually got hard and was pretty close to cuming. At the same time I was exhausted and figured we got 2 more nights so we stopped and went to sleep.

Saturday night...
Wake up in the mid afternoon and a few hours later we started the drinking. In the midst of that I had this idea that we should climb the rafters because it looked like fun. With some planning and my brilliant ideas we were able to get one of the girls up there. Birthday boy was freaking out but it was funny and a success. I thought it would be hot to have sex up there. I said that I would tie up the girl so that she wouldn't fall and then I could just fuck her.
Then we got back to drinking and Saturday we drank a lot... Lots of Tequilla shots. All 4 of us sat down on the couch. From left to right it went girl, me, boy, girl. I had to at least be next to the boy because he has a crush and it's his birthday. Slightly into the movie me and the girl to my left who also climbed the rafters just started making out. Kissing, nimbling, biting, kissing, touching and yet I felt bad cause the boy to my right wanted me and she felt bad cause that was her best friend. We started to whisper about that but couldn't resist so we moved our fling into her bedroom. We're in there maybe 5 minutes and the next thing I know the boy is at the door cock-blocking me. We ignored him at first and at the same time we both thought it was funny.
We thought he had condoms because he said he did but then yells... "I don't have condoms for you two" he didn't want to give them to us cause he was jealous. I don't have sex without condoms, it doesn't happen, especially when it's a fling. He continued to say things to us through the door while we had some good oral sex and then we came back out to watch another movie to please him. But, I honestly just thought it was hilarious. We couldn't stay off of each other and went back to kissing on the couch hahaha lol.

Sunday Night...
They had some friends over and the Grammy's were on so we had a Grammy Party. I didn't drink too much cause we had to be out by 10am Monday and I had classes in the afternoon in Ohio. Although, I did get a little buzzed I must admit. Everyone else drank a good amount including birthday boy. In fact he got trashed... why he waited to Sunday to get so drunk beats me. Later in the night the 4 of us are sitting on the couch again I was between the girl I was having a fling with and the boy. He grabs my arm and puts it around him and proceeds to ask. "Will you sleep in my bed with me tonight" I hesitated for one second and she says, "No, he is sleeping with me". I just kept my mouth shut because I didn't know what to say. I wanted to sleep in her bed again. So, I thought if he keeps drinking he'll just pass out somewhere. I was right, we went back to having a few drinks and I hold my liquor much better than he does. Me and the fling girl went back to having our weekend fling and he went to the bathroom where he didn't come out until the next morning as he threw up and slept next to the toilet.

Overall it was a fun weekend. I had a weekend valentine which was a pleasant surprise to an already good weekend and I'll see them come Spring when they come to visit me in Athens.

This weekend I'm heading to D.C. with my friend "Bobcat". We are heading there after we both get out of class Thursday night so we should be into D.C. about 1-2am. We won't be going home till Monday sometime.

I'm setting up sessions for myself and taking doubles with both Nikki Domino of Baltimore and with Andriana Santos from Atlanta who is in town for the kinky weekend event Dark Odyssey. I'm also going to be doing some photo shoots with Nikki Domino. It's going to be a busy, kinky working and yet fun weekend. I'm looking forward to it.

If anyone is interested in booking something with me feel free to email me at
morgankeni4@gmail.com

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Thursday, February 10, 2011

West Virginia Cabin

Tomorrow I'm going to West Virginia for the weekend. A friend of mine rented a cabin for the weekend for his birthday. I'm not sure what part of W.V. I live about 45 minutes from the Ohio/W.V. border so hopefully it's not too far.

I actually don't know the birthday boy all that well. I met him and 2 of his girlfriends through my friend "Bobcat" on Halloween night. The birthday boy was dressed as Marie Antionette and when he first showed up I thought he was a girl because he was that passable. Then I realized it was this petite gay boy. After lots of alcohol before hand, then lots of bar hoping (BTW, Halloween in Athens, Ohio is crazy. I believe it's the largest block party in the country every year) he wanted to kiss me and so I kissed him. Nothing extensive but it was still a kiss. About an hour later he was falling over drunk and puking and I got into an argument with someone only to later kick a wall and break my foot. I was actually standing up for him and ever since he has definitely been crushing on me.

So, I'm free this weekend, no extensive homework and decided lets have a fun weekend. He has hinted at "getting some of this" haha... I'm a bit of a tease. I might get raped in my sleep.

Gotta hop in the shower as I have to meet with this hot red head girl from my media class as we have a presentation to work on for next week. I do have a feeling that this weekend will be getting a bit wild though and I am letting him take 2 nude pictures of me that I need for a casting.

I will have some pictures from the weekend  coming.

Friday, February 4, 2011

Travel: D.C. Feb 18-21

A bit of late notice but I'm going to be in D.C. from Feb 18-21

I'm driving there with a friend of mine but for the most part I'm going to be working, I'll mix a little fun in between work of course. I'm taking BDSM sessions as a kinky male. It went well last time I was in DC and I've had some requests to do it again and so I am.

Nikki Domino www.nikkidomino.com and I are trying to work out a photo shoot together as well. Either way me and her will have a fun weekend. I may even let her cut my hair. I've been debating cutting my hair for a few months now. A few months ago I said I would cut it in the Spring and it's almost Spring so we'll see. The longer it gets the more difficult it is to cut it. It's about 7-8 inches all over and that's taken me 1 1/2 years maybe even a little longer. My hair grows so slow, ugh!

There is a kink event going on in DC that weekend as well. I'm not even sure which one it is but Nikki and I said we might go for a night so we'll see. An old friend also hit me up today from Chicago. It was Andriana Santos www.AndrianaSantos.com she knew I was in Ohio currently and she is in Columbus for the weekend. I would love to meet up with her but I'm just not able to this weekend however she is also going to be in DC the same weekend as me attending the kink event there. So, were going to try and get together as well. Catch up, party, maybe play a bit we'll see how the weekend goes.

I'm going to be pretty much going constantly that entire weekend. Lots of work followed by lots of fun.

I haven't even talked with Lexi yet so I don't know if we'll be able to work anything out over that weekend or not. Either way I plan to be back in DC around March 20th for about a week on my Spring Break.

So that's about it for right now. I'll definitely have some pictures from the weekend and be sharing.
This Sunday is the Super Bowl so I'm going to be pumped up for that.
Let's go Steelers!!!

If you want to reach me for a session or video work feel free to send me an email to
Morgankeni4@gmail.com