Anyone that has read my blogs over the years know that what I write has nothing to do with plugging others. It's purely about my experiences in kink and sexuality. I prefix because I'm about to "plug" someone without the intentions of giving her more popularity 1) she's already popular and 2) she is in my mind breaking boundaries in the transgender porn world and I very much appreciate that.
For starters... Time passes us all by and I feel that I accomplished a lot as a male submissive in front of the camera but it was always a means to an end for me. None the less, I've always ran in the adult entertainment world in some aspect, and as I've transitioned I find myself thinking that I pretty much feel like an outsider because I'm not working in adult film as a trans woman the way I worked in Femdom as a male submissive. Not due to lack of opportunity but simply out of choice. But the people I run with very often are still involved so I'm experienced, yet I'm not "in their world". So I find it interesting but I'll admit I find the trans women porn world to be over the top repetitive.
So seeing what Natalie Mars has done pushing limits in kink is beyond refreshing.
The funny thing is New Years Eve, Lexi Sindel invited me and my partner to Vegas to welcome in the New Year with her. So I'm at her house and Lexi and other peeps are getting ready to go out, as am I and she tells me that someone will be coming over soon. So I open the door and it's Natalie Mars and I have absolutely no idea who she is. I'm like cool, another girl and we are all going to have a good time.
So long story short of the night it was a blast. Natalie and I got to know each other better and 2 days later we shot our first scene together w/ Lexi Sindel and Mistress Tangent. If you don't know about it yet it was an amazing day with a focus on over the top femininity and sissy play as two trans woman. I go back with Lexi shooting from the age of 23 and I'm 31 now. It's weird when your kink idols become your friends. But some how she always comes up with fucked up, weird, kinky shit which as a kinkster I appreciate. I also love how Lexi always pushes the limits, where I'm going with this is so many trans women feel uncomfortable with crossdressers or sissy play because they don't want to be labeled that. However as a kinkster I still find sissy, over the top femininity arousing. On a personal level I've purposely stopped shooting heavily for years. But going back to my original topic, that is exactly why I tip my hat to Natalie Mars. She is the first and only trans woman who pushes kink while being a trans porn star and to me that is powerful.
Think about it. There are a million trans girl sites. A million BDSM sites that involve men, women, and even some that involve trans women but the ones with trans women all 100% relate back to sex. It's almost like trans women aren't allowed to be kinky and ironically as someone who runs in both worlds, so many trans women are kinky.
So I'll write about it and Natalie Mars can break boundaries. Some examples......
She proposed a fucking machine to Grooby Girls and got it done. First time ever and to put it nicely, it's a very popular video.
What takes more courage is taking a taboo fetish, that's even taboo in kink. And that's ABDL (Adult Baby, Diaper Lovers) those terms can be one in the same or completely separate. Personally I've been a DL lover all my life but even as open and kinky as I am it took me a very long time to be open about it cause even to me it seemed "weird". Now, not so much but it takes such courage as a trans porn star like her who is so popular to not only open up about it, but expose it, show it and talk about it and that is powerful.
Additionally she has done a lot of Femdom, bondage, and more. In some ways I feel like I am her. I guarantee you she had no idea who I was until I met her. But that doesn't mean I didn't influence people, I know I did, I've been told so many stories and I appreciate that. For me, the most powerful thing about being in front of the camera was others willingly opening up to me about their stories, it's that-that I love. Because we all have a story. I feel that my blog has ALWAYS been about sharing an inside light on things that those note involved wouldn't know, but I feel is important to know. And to me, what Natalie Mars is doing is a HUGE step in adult entertainment for trans people. Instead of simply being what someone fetish-sizes she's saying I also have fetishes and I'm willing to share with the world. And I, SOOOOOOO Love that!
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Saturday, May 25, 2013
Moving to NYC & Kink Of May
The month of May has been a crazy month. Full of lows, highs, a ton of traveling, partying, interviews, a fetish convention, personal kink play and now packing for a big move from Phoenix to New York City.
So the big news is that I landed a new job in NYC. I'm going to be driving across the country in a U-Haul truck with my friend Bobcat. Luckily, it's good timing because he's leaving the country for a few years in mid June and he graduated college about 3 weeks ago. Here is our cross country trip city dates.
June 1 - L.A.
June 2 - Phoenix
June 3 - Austin, TX
June 5 - Little Rock, Arkansas
June 6 - Nashville, TN
June 7 - Athens, Ohio
June 9 - My moms house in Ohio
June 10 - Brooklyn, NY
In the past 2 weeks I had been in L.A. for 4 days, Vegas for 3 days and N.Y. for 1 day. I love traveling but it can be exhausting. None-the-less, it has been an exciting month.
DOMCON LA 2013:
I went to the Friday night and Saturday night Fetish party. Both nights were fun but I did expect the event to be a bit larger than it was. I had gotten to the hotel Wednesday evening and that gave me and Bobcat a chance to have some fun in L.A. We explored Koreatown and a few other neighborhoods. Then Thursday night I bumped into some Domme friends; Natalia Sadici & Mistrix MsE who then introduced me to Michelle Lacy (who I found out spends some time in NYC).
Friday: Bobcat met a submissive who he had some kink fun with. I hung out with another Chicago friend and met a woman who intrigued me. She is a Dominant woman and as the weekend went things evolved. Friday night for me wasn't too eventful. Although I did buy a new latex black dress and a latex waist cincher that I wore to the Fetish Party. Unfortunately we didn't get many pictures, the I did get I'm drunk and it's about 2:30am.
Saturday night I wore my other latex dress that I got from Westward Bound. The white and mint green dress and I do have a few pictures but they are seriously bad. Don't worry I'll be wearing that dress again and make sure to get better pictures before it's the end of the night. I did wear my hair extensions both nights and I love them!
Saturday night led to some kissing and then me and my new Domme friend going back to the hotel room where she fucked me really-really hard with the biggest dildo-cock I've ever taken. She whipped out her big black dildo about 8 inches long and 2 - 2 1/2 inches thick. It was a really hot scene with biting and it was extremely passionate. I think it was the most passionate fucking I've ever taken. It was as if I was fucking a girl and having passionate sex, except I was the one being fucked.... Just the way I like it.
When she pulled off my latex dress these were the boobs she got to look at.
This Domme I'm referring to is strictly lifestyle these days but I'm really happy we met and we're still talking a couple weeks later. We'll see where things lead....
I returned to Phoenix for 2 days of rest and then left for Vegas. I partied with some of my Chicago friends and Bobcat. All vanilla stuff and the best night I've ever had at a strip club on Thursday night. I found me a truly kinky stripper who fingered my ass, bit me all over my stomach to wear I still have bruises 10 days later and did other "nice things" to me. A couple hundred dollars later it was 7am and I was literally the last person to leave the club an hour after the strip club closed. Ha! Not to mention, she was beautiful!
My play partner back in Phoenix and I have been having some great scenes lately. Tonight she's coming over and I know she's planning some public humiliation. Saying that I'm nervous for this is an under statement! With that said, I'm really going to miss playing with her regularly. I've known her since September 2012 but in the past few months we've really been hitting our stride of trust and play.
For instance, 2 days ago we planned to play at night but then she called me and said that she's gonna come over and tie me up while she runs errands for a few hours and then when she gets back to my place we'll play. I got this awesome sensory deprivation hood from Domcon that we've used a little bit but this time I was in it for 3 hours. She tormented my thighs for about an hour before leaving me bound with a prostate massager in my ass. This became really difficult over time as I had no concept of time, couldn't hear, see, or move yet I was extremely aroused from the prostate massager and situation I was in.
When she returned I was tortured more with predicament bondage, choking, huge dildo deep throating, CBT, and punishing yet I must admit hot strap-on. Here are some pictures of the hood from Domcon and then some pictures I literally just found on my phone that she took of me bound before heading out for a few hours for errands.
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Tuesday, December 25, 2012
Holiday Kink & 2013
At 26 years old this is the first year I've spent the Holidays alone. Being that I just moved to Arizona in early September I didn't want to fly home for the Holidays. I cooked some pork chops for myself on Thanksgiving and I'm still here for Christmas and New Years. There are about 5-6 others that moved to Arizona for the job offer and didn't go home for the Holidays so we all hung out yesterday and tonight are having Christmas dinner together. Should be fun tonight.
I have filmed a few times recently. I shot my first real trample shoot in November in Northern Arizona with Mistress Octavia aka Tangent. Personally, trampling isn't my thing but I thought I would try it out and I will admit that it's a lot tougher than it looks. I was feminized with my hair done (which is the longest it's ever been), make up, and then lingerie. Another woman joined Miss Octavia and I felt like my head was going to pop off my shoulders. It was pretty intense.
I then filmed again with Miss Octavia but this was for her clips4sale store. Did some foot fetish scenarios and then some feminization and bondage. About 2 weeks ago Miss Octavia and I also did a personal webcam scene for a lucky slave boy. I hadn't done anal in many months and I still managed to take my big pink dildo. "I'm an anal professional". The scene was pretty hot with some really hard pounding. When we began we did some strap-on deep throat as well and somehow I cut something in the back of my throat and all this blood just kept coming out of my throat. It was a bit nerve racking but it didn't hurt. It was strange.
If you can't tell, I've been working with Miss Octavia a lot lately. It's nice to have met another really kinky - kinkster in the area that also has experience in front of the camera and is intelligent. Believe it or not, that can be hard to come by.
My new "career" job is going well. Looking forward to 2013 where I plan to do some traveling. LA, Vegas, and some others. I don't like to stay anywhere too long without traveling. I've been in Arizona 4 months now and on top of that I'm not the biggest fan of Phoenix. I do have some friends visiting in the Spring though so that will be nice.
I need to upload videos to my Clips4sale as I'm sitting on some videos right now. The past 2 weeks I haven't been online much because my new cat - Nibbles ate my Macbook charger and I haven't bought a new charger yet. I've been putting my new place together. New couch, artwork, TV, bedroom etc. It's taken longer than I expected to just get everything together and for home to start feeling like home. Because of all this my Clips4sale and kink on some level has taken a bit of a backseat.
2013 will have things coming together for me.
I did get some new lingerie and hot little black dress though. Here's a pictures of the black dress and my new cat who now is about 8 1/2 months old.
Wednesday, May 9, 2012
The Male Submissive
I've had active kinky profiles online since the age of 17. Yes, I was underage just like many of you were the first time you looked at porn and or flipped through a Playboy magazine. I've known I was kinky long before that but none-the-less, I've been active on kink based social networking sites for over 9 years now as I'll be 26 in early September. The social networking sites themselves have drastically improved over the years however there is one thing that always seems to remain constant.
The way male submissive's act online.
These male submissive's discuss their problems in finding a play partner and or a dominant to serve. They will complain about everything under the sun.
The way male submissive's act online.
These male submissive's discuss their problems in finding a play partner and or a dominant to serve. They will complain about everything under the sun.
- Too many Pro-Dommes
- Nobody seems to be real
- Everyone wants something in exchange
- No one responds to me
The real problem is in that of the male submissive.
To start, when a male sub contacts someone they hope to serve they should write more than one line.
"Hey, you're beautiful. I'd love to worship your feet, that really turns me on" Just doesn't cut it.
Follow this Top 10 List:
1. Make sure you have correct spelling.
2. Don't contact someone and tell them what you expect.
3. Perhaps you should leave your name.
4. It helps if you've filled out your own profile.
5. Properly introduce yourself.
6. Be polite
7. Don't send a 2nd, 3rd, 4th and so on email within hours or days of not receiving a response.
8. Don't contact a Pro Domme and then get mad when money is asked of you.
9. READ the profile of the person you're contacting.
10. Don't jerk off while contacting the person you're interested in
You would think that this would be common sense. Unfortunately for many, common sense goes out the door in the world of sex.
There are lots and lots of dominants and switches out there that are interested and seeking submissive males. However, sitting on your internet and not following proper writing etiquette nor showing a common courtesy to someone isn't going to get you very far.
There is a very large abundance of male subs who feel that they will never get an opportunity to serve a dominant. That the stories they read and the pictures they view will be the closest that they will ever get.
I get a lot of emails on my Fetlife account from male submissive's of all ages in regards to these topics. Asking about how to get more involved. Telling me that I'm lucky and they wish that they could be me. I've been asked on how to send emails to dominants as well. I always respond as I try to assist those truly seeking out advice. I can be a fun-loving narcissist sometimes but for the large part I'm a humble person. I created my luck in kink. I wasn't born into the world of sexual exploration. I sought it out and with time I learned to accept myself but also study sexual alternatives.
Probably the most common question I get is: How did I get to be so involved?
Male submissives realize that it's not easy to be a male submissive and yet they assume that the world was given to me. To shorten up a long story here is my Timeline into BDSM.
- Age 17, I skipped a basketball game and saw a Pro Domme in Chicago. I paid $200 for the hour. I was extremely nervous but it was the best experience of my life.
- Age 18, In Ohio and saw a Pro Domme in the Cleveland area. Paid $300 for the hour.
- Age 18, moved back to Chicago after graduation & saw a Pro Domme I had been talking with online for 2 years now. She wouldn't see me till I turned 18. I paid $200 for the hour.
- Age 18, almost 19 I saw that same Pro Domme. This time I paid $100 cash & $100 in a giftcard that I had to Extreme Restraints.
- Age 19, Saw the same Pro Domme but we had worked out a 6 month slave training contract between us. I cleaned her dungeon twice a week in exchange for play. I only got play if I had done a good job.
- Age 19, Came out to my friends as being "Kinky" as they started to notice that I was hiding things from them.
- Age 19, Attended Fetishcon in Tampa Bay, Florida with 3 "vanilla" friends. Definitely didn't go as planned with my friends but in the long run was a good experience.
- Age 20, I was no longer serving the same Domme. I was upset that we broke it off but I was starting college. A few months later, although nervous I began attending Nawa Shibari Chicago by myself. A Rope bondage/Kink group.
- Age 20, Decided to put up pictures online about wanting to be a fetish model. I did this to get into the 21+ kinky clubs in Chicago. I also did it to meet more people and hopefully find someone to serve. Dvnt of Chicago who also ran Nawa Shibari Chicago contacted me about being in a live performance at a kinky club.
- Age 20, months later I began serving Miss Jaded who also helped run Nawa Shibari Chicago. Soon after I was attending 2-6 kinky functions in Chicago every month. 6 months later I began a personal relationship on top of a D/s relationship with Miss Jaded.
- Age 20-23, Attended Fetishcon, Atlanta Bound, Shibaricon twice. Assisted in presenting at classes at national conventions and local conventions. Started meeting a lot of big named Dommes, models, and photographers. Had my own members site and became part owners in a new Chicago dungeon - The Studio Chicago. Began filming as a male bottom in femdom based videos as well as doing fetish modeling for still photos. Also worth noting, I was a full time college student and worked some part-time jobs.
- Age 23, split with Miss Jaded and I moved to Ohio to stay with my mother for about 9 months. I lost my co-signer with college and was forced to take a year off from school. I took a much needed brake from kink as I was getting over a break up and needed time for myself. I got 1 full time job and then a 2nd full time job, working 80 plus hours per week.
- Age 23, Starting to get back into kink and to my normal self I knew that Madame Ingrid was a respected Domme and was in Pittsburgh. I contact her and had a 1 hour session with her. I paid $300 for the hour. I had a great experience and was back within the same week and had another 1 hour session for $300. She knew who I was through some friends and over the next few months we built a friendship.
- Age 23, Lexi Sindel contacted me as she knew I was in Ohio. She let me know of some filming going on in Columbus as Club Dom was in town. The next day I shot with them. Soon after I was in D.C. shooting with Lexi Sindel.
- Age 23 turning 24. I began to put myself out there as a fetish model. People had known of me from Chicago and the traveling I was doing. I started doing trade for content work as well as accepting paid gigs.
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- I'm now 25 and graduating college this summer. I have my blog and I have my own clips4sale store that I'm continuing to build - AEB Femdom.
I'll be in Chicago this summer - 2012 with an internship and then moving to Phoenix, Arizona for a few years with a job offer. My life in kink as a submissive will continue to grow and evolve. My life is my life. Other male submissive's can do what pleases them, but don't limit yourself and think that you can't find someone to serve. Or that you can't be involved in the community.
I am proud of what I've accomplished in Kink. I'm proud that I've made a name that people recognize, respect and get off to. I'm proud of the people I've gotten to explore my kinks with and I look forward to all that comes. I mean shit, I am only 25.
Here's a list of all the people I can recall working with over the past 9 plus years.
- Lexi Sindel - Madame Ingrid- VonLivid - Maya Sinstress - Nyssa Nevers - Jade Indica - Lochai - Miss Jaded - Xena - Miss Cheyenne Nikki Domino - Miss Jaded - Miss Simone - Miss Whip - Alexandra Sadista - Natalya Sadici - Dvnt - Miss Mina Meow - Corral Korrupt - Ginger Stone - Gia - Maria Purple Goddess - Lady O - Victoria Sapphire - Noel Knight - Miss Jenni Fishnets - House of Bias Latex - Haven - Kelle Martina - Jessica Temptress - Manchester & I know there's more but I don't remember everyone.
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