I woke up this morning like a kid in a candy store. So happy, excited, I feel like I'm going to the beach or on a vacation. So why the excitement. Cause @GoddessTangent gave me the first order in a long time. The funny thing is, it was nothing very meaningful. I kept calling her about the Steelers game yesterday and I know she doesn't like sports. Then I've been very healthy lately and I've lost 11 pounds in 2 1/2 weeks and haven't been drinking and I got a quick buzz and you wouldn't believe why I'm so excited.
She texted me" if I text/call her again with anything meaningless that she doesn't care about that she was going to block me". And trust me I wanted to call and text her again cause I'm so happy that we are talking again. But I knew the consequences so I stopped.
I was so turned on, I woke up this morning humping my bed. And then it came to me. It's not that I didn't know it, but humans, we are stubborn sometimes and don't like to admit things. But I am a stronger, better, more complete person when Tangent has control of my life. When she makes decisions of what I can and cant do. Not maybes, but decisions. And I think that's why I like chastity so much. It's so mental, it's control over me all the time even when she's not home and traveling. It's mind bending and twisting love. Just the way I like it. Even more so from the one person that I trust and have always loved the most in my life.
As a kid they said humans need certain things to live; shelter, food, water etc.
What I've learned as an adult about myself is I need captivity, I need someone who is as passionate about being in control of someones else as I am passionate about being controlled. And what I've learned from there is that you have to have such a deep bond and trust with someone and for me I love this person. It's GoddessTangent. But since I'm not in chastity at the moment and have no regulations on cuming at the moment I'm going to use my Hitachi right now and cum in my panties.
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Monday, January 15, 2018
Monday, January 5, 2015
Happy New Year - Orgasm's to Cum?
Happy New Year!
New Year, same ol chastity for me. I've been locked in chastity since July 17, 2014 and this morning marks 101 days without an orgasm. Originally I was supposed to be released on Christmas Eve but I know that I have to go through the ringer prior to being released. With Her traveling in December and then the Holidays we just didn't have time. Then we spent New Years Eve in Chicago together with my hometown friends and enjoyed a lovely welcoming of the New Year by taking my first ass fucking in nearly 100 days.
Of course we were a little intoxicated being that it was NYE and we didn't have any lube with us. But, we weren't going to let that stop us. A little spit from me and Her and a little bit of my blood from the rough oral I was giving Her cock prior and in She went. She fucked me so hard, so good in our little bedroom (closet) to make sure we had some private space. She fucked me right up until I was about to cum and stopped.
She will be back home in Phoenix with me in a few days and Wednesday I'll be getting my first real marking from Her. I'm very excited about this. She is piercing both of my nipples!!!
I will wear them proudly and look forward to more permanent markings from Her in the future as we grow.
After the piercings I get more of Daddy's dick and rule #1 for me to reach orgasm with the Hitachi in the future is to achieve an anal orgasm while She fucks me. Then, will come further steps (hopefully I get to achieve/pass these steps sooner than later) and then I will be able to cum for the first time in over 3 1/2
months.
I will say, when I have not cum in such long periods of time. I am a lot more pron to do dirty things, I also start to think about and fantasize about such things.
With that said, I've come to truly want to be in chastity. I feel it serves a better purpose locked up than not locked up. I feel more comfortable with it locked up. I feel more feminine with it locked up. Truth is I don't use it, don't need it, in that capacity. Orgasms I of course desire, but that is it.
My CB-6000 (new one) since I broke the last one. Has held up very well, but I believe that's because my body has begun to adjust after spending over 9 months of 2014 in chastity. With that said, I do look forward to upgrading to another chastity belt in time.
New Year, same ol chastity for me. I've been locked in chastity since July 17, 2014 and this morning marks 101 days without an orgasm. Originally I was supposed to be released on Christmas Eve but I know that I have to go through the ringer prior to being released. With Her traveling in December and then the Holidays we just didn't have time. Then we spent New Years Eve in Chicago together with my hometown friends and enjoyed a lovely welcoming of the New Year by taking my first ass fucking in nearly 100 days.
Of course we were a little intoxicated being that it was NYE and we didn't have any lube with us. But, we weren't going to let that stop us. A little spit from me and Her and a little bit of my blood from the rough oral I was giving Her cock prior and in She went. She fucked me so hard, so good in our little bedroom (closet) to make sure we had some private space. She fucked me right up until I was about to cum and stopped.
She will be back home in Phoenix with me in a few days and Wednesday I'll be getting my first real marking from Her. I'm very excited about this. She is piercing both of my nipples!!!
I will wear them proudly and look forward to more permanent markings from Her in the future as we grow.
After the piercings I get more of Daddy's dick and rule #1 for me to reach orgasm with the Hitachi in the future is to achieve an anal orgasm while She fucks me. Then, will come further steps (hopefully I get to achieve/pass these steps sooner than later) and then I will be able to cum for the first time in over 3 1/2
months.
I will say, when I have not cum in such long periods of time. I am a lot more pron to do dirty things, I also start to think about and fantasize about such things.
With that said, I've come to truly want to be in chastity. I feel it serves a better purpose locked up than not locked up. I feel more comfortable with it locked up. I feel more feminine with it locked up. Truth is I don't use it, don't need it, in that capacity. Orgasms I of course desire, but that is it.
My CB-6000 (new one) since I broke the last one. Has held up very well, but I believe that's because my body has begun to adjust after spending over 9 months of 2014 in chastity. With that said, I do look forward to upgrading to another chastity belt in time.
Sunday, August 24, 2014
Needles
For those of you keeping track, today is day 38 in chastity of 160.
I have had 2 orgasms while in the cage while being fucked along with the Hitachi. Both were magical orgasms with Her dick inside me. I know that I'm always being prepped to take chastity longer and longer. Learning to cum in chastity in one way is great for me and the other means that She can keep me locked up for longer periods of time.
One of the new rules implemented in this 160 days of chastity is needles. The CB-6000 can be a pain in the ass to clean. Every night by 9pm I must have my cage thoroughly cleaned and smelling like perfection. 1 needle if not cleaned and 1 needle if not smelling right.
Did I mention that I HATE needles!?!
In fact, other than my ears pierced, my Prince Albert and the taint piercing I used to have I've never done any other piercings and that includes play piercings. The first time I failed at this She stuck a couple 20 gauge needles through my ball sack. I was developing cold sweats and was scared to death. They really hurt but what was to come about a week later was much worse.
This time I was warned that She was using larger needles. 7 of them this time and by larger, she jumped up to 14 gauges. Sweating and yelling I was helpless as my body was tied down on the bed like an 'X'. Lying down and not being able to see helps me out at least a little bit.
Then I messed up again and I was due 4 needles over the next week or so. But then I decided to bet Daddy double or nothing regarding some stupid vacuum bet that I pretty much knew I had no chance or winning. Of course, I lost and now owned Her 8 needles.
This time I was caught off guard. We tried to do the 8 needles the 2 nights prior but life got in the way and we were too busy. If punishment is delayed longer than 3 days regarding the needles then I sleep on the floor next to the bed chained up. So that's where I slept, and that's not where I wanted to be sleeping. The 3rd night She got home late and I wasn't expecting Her to have the energy for the needles, but She did.
She caught me by surprise and pulled up a chair into the bathroom and told me to sit. Tied my legs wide open and my arms up and behind me. Bound tied with my cock pulled up to my collar so that She would have a good canvas to pierce me with. I started to get my cold sweats as I got more nervous. As She got closer to piercing me I would start to hyper-ventilate a little bit. I caught my breath, said ready and in goes 1 as I scream in pain.
I counted each one in my head knowing how many I had left. She took it slow due to my un-easy stomach making sure I was ready for the next needle every time but it just seemed to get more and more painful. The unexpectedness of the ordeal also through off my mindset and made it more difficult.
By the end, I was spent, exhausted, hurting and my legs wouldn't stop shaking.
I'm learning to keep my cage clean but I know that She also likes to catch me when She can. The sadist in Her comes out when given the opportunity. Besides that, I've recently been hearing Her say that She is going to push me past all of my, "original" hard limits. One by one as I'm molded into Her slave.
It's 8:30pm now. I have to run and clean my cage. Day 38 of chastity and I'm starting to throb in my cage a lot more continuously. Time to clean before I get more needles. Pics are below.
I have had 2 orgasms while in the cage while being fucked along with the Hitachi. Both were magical orgasms with Her dick inside me. I know that I'm always being prepped to take chastity longer and longer. Learning to cum in chastity in one way is great for me and the other means that She can keep me locked up for longer periods of time.
One of the new rules implemented in this 160 days of chastity is needles. The CB-6000 can be a pain in the ass to clean. Every night by 9pm I must have my cage thoroughly cleaned and smelling like perfection. 1 needle if not cleaned and 1 needle if not smelling right.
Did I mention that I HATE needles!?!
In fact, other than my ears pierced, my Prince Albert and the taint piercing I used to have I've never done any other piercings and that includes play piercings. The first time I failed at this She stuck a couple 20 gauge needles through my ball sack. I was developing cold sweats and was scared to death. They really hurt but what was to come about a week later was much worse.
This time I was warned that She was using larger needles. 7 of them this time and by larger, she jumped up to 14 gauges. Sweating and yelling I was helpless as my body was tied down on the bed like an 'X'. Lying down and not being able to see helps me out at least a little bit.
Then I messed up again and I was due 4 needles over the next week or so. But then I decided to bet Daddy double or nothing regarding some stupid vacuum bet that I pretty much knew I had no chance or winning. Of course, I lost and now owned Her 8 needles.
This time I was caught off guard. We tried to do the 8 needles the 2 nights prior but life got in the way and we were too busy. If punishment is delayed longer than 3 days regarding the needles then I sleep on the floor next to the bed chained up. So that's where I slept, and that's not where I wanted to be sleeping. The 3rd night She got home late and I wasn't expecting Her to have the energy for the needles, but She did.
She caught me by surprise and pulled up a chair into the bathroom and told me to sit. Tied my legs wide open and my arms up and behind me. Bound tied with my cock pulled up to my collar so that She would have a good canvas to pierce me with. I started to get my cold sweats as I got more nervous. As She got closer to piercing me I would start to hyper-ventilate a little bit. I caught my breath, said ready and in goes 1 as I scream in pain.
I counted each one in my head knowing how many I had left. She took it slow due to my un-easy stomach making sure I was ready for the next needle every time but it just seemed to get more and more painful. The unexpectedness of the ordeal also through off my mindset and made it more difficult.
By the end, I was spent, exhausted, hurting and my legs wouldn't stop shaking.
I'm learning to keep my cage clean but I know that She also likes to catch me when She can. The sadist in Her comes out when given the opportunity. Besides that, I've recently been hearing Her say that She is going to push me past all of my, "original" hard limits. One by one as I'm molded into Her slave.
It's 8:30pm now. I have to run and clean my cage. Day 38 of chastity and I'm starting to throb in my cage a lot more continuously. Time to clean before I get more needles. Pics are below.
Thursday, July 24, 2014
160 Straight Days in Chastity - What!?!
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Saturday, July 19, 2014
Indulge
Last Friday we were supposed to go to a Fetish party but it ended at midnight which is rather early. By the time I got off work and got all dolled up it was too late so we decided to have some fun at home.
We've been trying to figure out my hair for awhile now with my extensions after I cut my long hair off. I wanted to do the alt girl look with a shaved side of the head. And I love the look we got with it.
The makeup, we tried something new and again it came out perfect. I think this is going to be my new look for awhile.
The dress of the night, is a stretchy blue dress that is Tangent's. I've lost so much weight over the past 7 months I fit into smaller sizes and it's terrific. I've lost about 25 pounds since December 2013 and my feminine figure shows tenfold now.
A side note, I'm back in chastity as of 2 days ago.
Indulge
We've been trying to figure out my hair for awhile now with my extensions after I cut my long hair off. I wanted to do the alt girl look with a shaved side of the head. And I love the look we got with it.
The makeup, we tried something new and again it came out perfect. I think this is going to be my new look for awhile.
The dress of the night, is a stretchy blue dress that is Tangent's. I've lost so much weight over the past 7 months I fit into smaller sizes and it's terrific. I've lost about 25 pounds since December 2013 and my feminine figure shows tenfold now.
A side note, I'm back in chastity as of 2 days ago.
Indulge
Monday, June 2, 2014
Day 65: Day of Hell - Tortured to Earn Orgasm
The morning of day 65 I went to work. It was just like any other morning except that I knew what day 65 was... It was my last day in chastity prior to being released but it was also a day of "hell" as in She was going to do anything She felt like doing to me.
Ironically enough, I couldn't wait for the work day to end and for me to get home. I was told to grab a bite to eat and then it was to begin.
About 7pm I was told I have 20 minutes to do all my makeup. 20 minutes!!! In my head I was thinking I'm only going to be half done with 20 minutes. But, I kicked it in gear and got my makeup done while She packed a bunch of goodies into the kink bag. I didn't even think to look at what She was packing although I really didn't want to know either. I knew that we were leaving the house but I wasn't sure where we were going. She was clad in one of Her new corsets and sexy, black Domme attire so I figured we were either going to the dungeon or someone's house.
We arrive at the dungeon and I'm escorted into a red room and told to put on black stockings, garter belt, crotchless black panties, black bra and my new black heels (which She by the way made me try on at the store a few days prior). I got all dressed up and then just waited and waited which seemed like an eternity because I knew that bad things were about to happen to me and I was waiting in anxiety and anxiousness. Then She walks in, puts a collar around my neck, attaches a leash and tugs at it while She walks me out of the room. No words, just a look, a glare and I followed.
Through one room and into another and there's a hooded person with a camera. Yes, all of this was captured on video. I didn't know who that person was though. I walked into a corner and was put on my knees facing out looking into the room. I look at Her and then that's when I noticed out the corner of my eye there were 2 more men to the left of the room. I knew what was to come next... but first She had me announce to them the situation.
"How long have you been in chastity?"
Me: 65 days
"Tell Me, what do you have to do for Me to earn release from chastity on day 66?"
Me: Anything You want Daddy.
And so it began. The 2 men walk over to me. She says, "The dicks aren't going to pull themselves out". So I nervously start to un-button their pants. Dicks flop out, condoms are put on and I start sucking one of them. But I didn't think to pay attention to the other dick but She pointed that out quickly so I'd be sucking on one and stroking the other. One dick was rather big while the other wasn't. I got both of them hard rather quickly and I then I was left alone to suck their cocks for maybe a minute or so but soon after my head was being forced down both of their cocks as She grabbed me by my hair and started shoving my face down their cocks.
I was drooling, gagging, tears running down my face, snot bubbling out my nose but I was still sucking and jerking and then one of the men yell out, "I'm going to cum" and he shoots his load all over my face. Soon as he is done cuming I'm directed back onto the large cock and bobbing my head on his cock. I was running out of breath as She was slamming my throat down on his cock to their point where I was deep throating him over and over. It had to be another 1-2 minutes until he cumed all over my face as well.
I was a hot mess, literally. Couldn't open one of my eyes due to all the cum in it, cum in my hair that was stuck to my face, cum up my nose and on my lips. Lipstick smeared on my face, tears had run down my face and my eye makeup was smeared all over as well. I was literally left there on the floor with my real consciousness of what was going on. I was just used and abused by 2 men for my owner as they were escorted out. Then I'm picked up by my hair and essentially dragged out as I teeter on my heels to the red room that I started in.
She says, "Don't touch your face but change clothes, the night just started".
Fast forward as we get home...
She straps on Her dick and shoves it down my throat. Get it straight, I suck Her cock all the time and it was only right that I sucked Her dick as well. But this wasn't no 'gentle' cock sucking. She wanted to ravage my throat the way the 2 men did, if not harder. Immediately, I deep throat her 8 inch thick cock and time and time again she shoves it back down, balls deep on her cock with each time being a harder thrust. Within seconds, blood is coming out of my mouth and my blood is covering her cock. She throat fucked me so hard I cut open my throat on Her cock. We both noticed it, but that didn't matter....
"Lick your blood off my cock", She said. And then I would have my throat fucked again. She orders me off Her cock after I clean up all my blood off of it and orders me into the bathroom. I'm on my knees and in She comes with the open mouth, dental gag. She forces my mouth wide open and has my head back. She pisses her warm piss into a glass right in front of me and I know what is next.
(( I have difficulty drinking piss because I have a very bad gag reflux so as many love such a gesture, She knows that this is a form of torture and humiliation for me))
With no hesitation she starts pouring Her piss from the glass down my wide open throat. It fills up my entire mouth and then starts to overflow out of my mouth as the reminder trickles down my throat and I soon begin to gag. As I gag I choke on Her piss and swallow more. I'm struggling and weak and as soon as there is more room in my mouth to take more She pours the rest into my mouth. I choke, gag, moan, struggle and even start to puke a bit, but I know even that would be forced back down my throat.
I'm left on the floor just a complete mess, used, abused, tired, sore, degraded but She wasn't done with me. I'm ordered to sit on the floor with my legs outwards and She tells me that I've earned release from the Chastity cage that I've been in for 65 days. Out come the keys and piece by piece She removes my cage. My cock is throbbing and I'm excited but I'm also beat, mentally, emotionally, and physically. She turns on the Hitachi and laughs as She talked about how quickly She expects me to cum. She puts the Hitachi on my cock and it took maybe 10 seconds max, I ask for permission to cum but She says no, not yet.
What!!!!! (I'm thinking in my head, She keeps the Hitachi on my cock the entire time, I can't hold it any longer and I start cuming everywhere and then She punches my cock really hard. I twist to turn away as I moan in ecstasy and pain and She punches my cock again and again and again. What a ruined orgasm that was and then all the cum of my big load was dripped and rubbed into my mouth.
And that's when She cuts the camera but not because She was down with me but because what was done next is not allowed on film.
Her and I have a bucket list of things we want to do together. Full toilet has been on their awhile but once again, my gag reflux is really bad. Still bound from before I'm told to get on my knees with them spread. I think it my head ok, maybe She's not doing full toilet.... in turned out just not yet. She get's after my nipples with very strong clamps. (I have sensitive nipples) The combination of the entire night and then Her abusing my nipples all the while I have a new open mouth gag that has a round, smaller hole and it couldn't be pushed out of my mouth by me even if I tried. I literally just began to cry and cry and cry as She abused my nipples. It was a hopeless cry, a tired cry, an then She stopped only to instruct me to lay on my back.
Keep in mind that I still have the open mouth gag on and as I lay on the floor She stands over me and laughs as She says, "Oh, you know what's next". She squats Her naked body over me and her ass directly above my mouth, and the open gag and shit's into my mouth.
She didn't shit a lot but She knows me and my gag reflux and it was enough. Now the real humiliation and degradation began. I tried to swallow but started to gag and I found it near impossible to swallow with the gag so She removed it and told me to swallow. I tried but kept failing to the point where I had it half down and then threw up. She put my face in the shit and my puke now on the ground. The torment and then the time challenge and threat was announced.
I was told that I have 10 seconds to eat and swallow the shit. If I don't swallow it then I'm going to be chained to the toilet in the shit and puke and not allowed to shower. I knew She wasn't joking either and I couldn't let that happen tonight. So I some how slurped my own puke and Her shit off the ground in a couple of bites and it came down to the wire. As She counted "2, 1". I yelled with all the I had left in me, "It's down, it's down, look in my mouth!"
And then it was over.... I didn't move for 5-10 minutes. I was spent in every way.
I mean the idea of having me orgasm and then torture me more was brilliant on Her end.
(BTW, this is my 100th post to my blog. I must say it's the perfect post for #100)
Pictures to come. We are in Chicago right now for a few more days.
The video will also be released on her website: Mistress Tangent
Ironically enough, I couldn't wait for the work day to end and for me to get home. I was told to grab a bite to eat and then it was to begin.
About 7pm I was told I have 20 minutes to do all my makeup. 20 minutes!!! In my head I was thinking I'm only going to be half done with 20 minutes. But, I kicked it in gear and got my makeup done while She packed a bunch of goodies into the kink bag. I didn't even think to look at what She was packing although I really didn't want to know either. I knew that we were leaving the house but I wasn't sure where we were going. She was clad in one of Her new corsets and sexy, black Domme attire so I figured we were either going to the dungeon or someone's house.
We arrive at the dungeon and I'm escorted into a red room and told to put on black stockings, garter belt, crotchless black panties, black bra and my new black heels (which She by the way made me try on at the store a few days prior). I got all dressed up and then just waited and waited which seemed like an eternity because I knew that bad things were about to happen to me and I was waiting in anxiety and anxiousness. Then She walks in, puts a collar around my neck, attaches a leash and tugs at it while She walks me out of the room. No words, just a look, a glare and I followed.
Through one room and into another and there's a hooded person with a camera. Yes, all of this was captured on video. I didn't know who that person was though. I walked into a corner and was put on my knees facing out looking into the room. I look at Her and then that's when I noticed out the corner of my eye there were 2 more men to the left of the room. I knew what was to come next... but first She had me announce to them the situation.
"How long have you been in chastity?"
Me: 65 days
"Tell Me, what do you have to do for Me to earn release from chastity on day 66?"
Me: Anything You want Daddy.
And so it began. The 2 men walk over to me. She says, "The dicks aren't going to pull themselves out". So I nervously start to un-button their pants. Dicks flop out, condoms are put on and I start sucking one of them. But I didn't think to pay attention to the other dick but She pointed that out quickly so I'd be sucking on one and stroking the other. One dick was rather big while the other wasn't. I got both of them hard rather quickly and I then I was left alone to suck their cocks for maybe a minute or so but soon after my head was being forced down both of their cocks as She grabbed me by my hair and started shoving my face down their cocks.
I was drooling, gagging, tears running down my face, snot bubbling out my nose but I was still sucking and jerking and then one of the men yell out, "I'm going to cum" and he shoots his load all over my face. Soon as he is done cuming I'm directed back onto the large cock and bobbing my head on his cock. I was running out of breath as She was slamming my throat down on his cock to their point where I was deep throating him over and over. It had to be another 1-2 minutes until he cumed all over my face as well.
I was a hot mess, literally. Couldn't open one of my eyes due to all the cum in it, cum in my hair that was stuck to my face, cum up my nose and on my lips. Lipstick smeared on my face, tears had run down my face and my eye makeup was smeared all over as well. I was literally left there on the floor with my real consciousness of what was going on. I was just used and abused by 2 men for my owner as they were escorted out. Then I'm picked up by my hair and essentially dragged out as I teeter on my heels to the red room that I started in.
She says, "Don't touch your face but change clothes, the night just started".
Fast forward as we get home...
She straps on Her dick and shoves it down my throat. Get it straight, I suck Her cock all the time and it was only right that I sucked Her dick as well. But this wasn't no 'gentle' cock sucking. She wanted to ravage my throat the way the 2 men did, if not harder. Immediately, I deep throat her 8 inch thick cock and time and time again she shoves it back down, balls deep on her cock with each time being a harder thrust. Within seconds, blood is coming out of my mouth and my blood is covering her cock. She throat fucked me so hard I cut open my throat on Her cock. We both noticed it, but that didn't matter....
"Lick your blood off my cock", She said. And then I would have my throat fucked again. She orders me off Her cock after I clean up all my blood off of it and orders me into the bathroom. I'm on my knees and in She comes with the open mouth, dental gag. She forces my mouth wide open and has my head back. She pisses her warm piss into a glass right in front of me and I know what is next.
(( I have difficulty drinking piss because I have a very bad gag reflux so as many love such a gesture, She knows that this is a form of torture and humiliation for me))
With no hesitation she starts pouring Her piss from the glass down my wide open throat. It fills up my entire mouth and then starts to overflow out of my mouth as the reminder trickles down my throat and I soon begin to gag. As I gag I choke on Her piss and swallow more. I'm struggling and weak and as soon as there is more room in my mouth to take more She pours the rest into my mouth. I choke, gag, moan, struggle and even start to puke a bit, but I know even that would be forced back down my throat.
I'm left on the floor just a complete mess, used, abused, tired, sore, degraded but She wasn't done with me. I'm ordered to sit on the floor with my legs outwards and She tells me that I've earned release from the Chastity cage that I've been in for 65 days. Out come the keys and piece by piece She removes my cage. My cock is throbbing and I'm excited but I'm also beat, mentally, emotionally, and physically. She turns on the Hitachi and laughs as She talked about how quickly She expects me to cum. She puts the Hitachi on my cock and it took maybe 10 seconds max, I ask for permission to cum but She says no, not yet.
What!!!!! (I'm thinking in my head, She keeps the Hitachi on my cock the entire time, I can't hold it any longer and I start cuming everywhere and then She punches my cock really hard. I twist to turn away as I moan in ecstasy and pain and She punches my cock again and again and again. What a ruined orgasm that was and then all the cum of my big load was dripped and rubbed into my mouth.
And that's when She cuts the camera but not because She was down with me but because what was done next is not allowed on film.
Her and I have a bucket list of things we want to do together. Full toilet has been on their awhile but once again, my gag reflux is really bad. Still bound from before I'm told to get on my knees with them spread. I think it my head ok, maybe She's not doing full toilet.... in turned out just not yet. She get's after my nipples with very strong clamps. (I have sensitive nipples) The combination of the entire night and then Her abusing my nipples all the while I have a new open mouth gag that has a round, smaller hole and it couldn't be pushed out of my mouth by me even if I tried. I literally just began to cry and cry and cry as She abused my nipples. It was a hopeless cry, a tired cry, an then She stopped only to instruct me to lay on my back.
Keep in mind that I still have the open mouth gag on and as I lay on the floor She stands over me and laughs as She says, "Oh, you know what's next". She squats Her naked body over me and her ass directly above my mouth, and the open gag and shit's into my mouth.
She didn't shit a lot but She knows me and my gag reflux and it was enough. Now the real humiliation and degradation began. I tried to swallow but started to gag and I found it near impossible to swallow with the gag so She removed it and told me to swallow. I tried but kept failing to the point where I had it half down and then threw up. She put my face in the shit and my puke now on the ground. The torment and then the time challenge and threat was announced.
I was told that I have 10 seconds to eat and swallow the shit. If I don't swallow it then I'm going to be chained to the toilet in the shit and puke and not allowed to shower. I knew She wasn't joking either and I couldn't let that happen tonight. So I some how slurped my own puke and Her shit off the ground in a couple of bites and it came down to the wire. As She counted "2, 1". I yelled with all the I had left in me, "It's down, it's down, look in my mouth!"
And then it was over.... I didn't move for 5-10 minutes. I was spent in every way.
I mean the idea of having me orgasm and then torture me more was brilliant on Her end.
(BTW, this is my 100th post to my blog. I must say it's the perfect post for #100)
Pictures to come. We are in Chicago right now for a few more days.
The video will also be released on her website: Mistress Tangent
Friday, May 2, 2014
Forced Sissy Blowjob to Completion
A night of Humiliation, Degradation, Shame, Embarrassment...
(To Clarify as some have asked. Daddy is a She, She is my owner. The 2 of us have adopted the roles of She is the Daddy and I am Her girl. So throughout my posts you may see me refer to Her as She and as Daddy)
While at work I got a phone call that once I got home I was going to be all dolled up for Daddy (Wednesday night).
She had gone out and gotten me a brand new wig (sometimes I put in hair extensions), got me some new breast forms among other things. She also brought back some of my things that I still had in my NYC apartment when she was in NYC last week. Some of those things included my pink sissy dress, so I decided to wear that. I thought the night was going to be just me and her, like it usually is but after I was all ready; makeup, hair, lingerie, high heels, locking wrist cuffs, locking heel cuffs, my collar and locked in my dress I was told that our guest would be here soon.
I was told to pull a chair into the bedroom and put it in the corner and face it towards the bed, then to sit down. I was tied with my hands behind the back of the chair and my feet in high heels bound together and then my legs bound back to the chair. The doorbell rang and out She went to answer the door. I was in the room for about 15-20 minutes by myself.
In She walked with a submissive behind Her on a collar and leash. She strapped on "Pink Princess" about a 5 inch pink dildo into her harness.
All the while just sitting there knowing what She was going to make me do that night my heart was racing. I had a bit of anxiety and lots of nervousness but I didn't want that to show. As I calmed myself down a bit I began to get aroused in my cage. BTW today marks day 48 in chastity.
The submissive was bent over a bench about 10 feet in front me and Daddy asked me how long it's been since She's fucked me. I said, "Over 50 days" Then She began telling the submissive that he better take her cock good otherwise the sissy (me) wasn't going to give him a blow job at the end.
That's when my stomach sank a bit and more nerves crept in. It's been drilled into my head that this day would come and that I HAVE TO DO A GOOD JOB otherwise I don't get to cum on day 66.
Then She stuck her cock into the submissive bound to the bench. She began slow as he doesn't take large cocks and I began to get jealous. Wanting Her to be fucking me. I know that She loves to fuck me and that this was torment. I was rocking a bit in my chair wishing it was me, but with a bigger dick, or Her feeldoe. She then put on a smaller dick that She could fuck him harder with. She would glance at me with these looks oh "don't you wish this was you?"
Smaller dick on, She started to fuck him hard, he was moaning and I was begging silently. About 10 minutes later She stopped walked over to me and untied me. Told me to walk next to the submissive who was on his belling/all 4's on the bench and for me to lay down and put my head between his legs where his cock and balls hung over my face.
Let me tell you, the fear that was in me in that moment. But I was there to impress Daddy. Then She got close and put Her dick in his ass and I was told to suck on his balls while she pounded him in the ass. He was clean shaven so that was nice. I opened up my mouth and sucked on his balls. His cock started to drip cum on my forehead and into my hair and eye. I kind of felt like moaning but I didn't, I stayed to course.
Daddy stopped, backed up and told the submissive to sit up and me get on my knees. She handcuffed his hands behind his back and stood over me from the side and ordered me to start sucking. I could hear Her in the background saying things like, "Is she doing a good job?" Let her know if she needs to change anything" "Teach her, because she has to learn how to suck cock for me" etc. I focused on Her voice and tried to suck his cock the way I suck Daddy's cock regularly.
There I was on my knees, head bobbing up and down and this man's cock. He had a rather big dick, maybe 8 inches and thick. He was already dripping when I put my lips on it. It helped me to keep my eyes closed most of the time. If I started to gag a bit I'd pull my head off of his cock and keep stroking with my hand. I felt like I was doing a good job and every time Daddy asked the submissive if I was doing a good job he would reply with, "Yes, she's a good sissy". But at the same time I wasn't really sure if I was doing a good job. I lost track of time and started to think should he have cum already? I hope Daddy doesn't punish me for doing a bad job.
But then, I hear the submissive saying I'm going to cum and with his cock in the back of my throat he spurts a big load in my mouth. Maybe 2-3 shots and I swallow immediately just as I started to gag a little bit and was getting a bit grossed out at the same time. When I shut my eyes it helps me not be grossed out by the act of what I'm doing. I pulled his cock out of my mouth and kept stroking it as he shot another load onto my face and in my eyes. Only a few drops fell on the bench and Daddy told me to lick it up, so I did.
I was left on my knees and he was escorted out of the bedroom and soon after left.
Daddy came back in the room and didn't say much at first. Maybe 10 minutes later I was on the bathroom floor and She asked me what I thought of him. I said, he seemed nice enough but I don't know what I'm supposed to think about him because I didn't talk with him any.
She replies, "Good, you're going to be seeing more of him". I literally just couldn't say anything, I didn't like the idea of that and still don't. The only aspect of that idea that I enjoy is that I'm doing it for Her. In the next hour or so I began to get a little sad. I had just done something I had never done and it was something very extreme. It's allowing myself to be that vulnerable, that controlled, that owned and it wasn't easy at all for me to do.
After a little while She brought me back to "normal" I guess you could say. One thing most people don't know is that Daddy has what we refer to as a "darkside". Meaning, She knows how to and sometimes will break me. She's done it before and as we went to bed that night I knew I was a little broken. I love parts of Her darkside, as does She. But it's something we are both learning to operate within. Me and Her are great together because our interests are both all over the map and we both push each other. In the midst of pushing each other we find each others boundaries and not all play is cupcakes and candy. Lots of our play is hardcore, envelope pushing that in reality arouses the both of us to extremes.
Day 65, aka May 19th has been labeled "Day of Hell". I already know I'm going to be put through the ringer to earn Day 66, my release date from chastity and no anal. Truth is, I have no idea what She has in store. Truth is I'm scared shitless, truth is I'm aroused by all of that and I know She is as well. Something tells me She's going to break me and make me keep going and push through for Her.
And I will push through for Her.
Here are 4 pics.
1) Me on all fours over Daddy in my new black crotchless panties and in chastity of course.
2) Me dolled up from Wednesday sucking Daddy's cock.
3) Picture of the bows She tied on the back of my dress (Wednesday night)
4) Photo of me right before all the action (Wednesday night)
You can read my Owner's blog at Mistress Tangent
(To Clarify as some have asked. Daddy is a She, She is my owner. The 2 of us have adopted the roles of She is the Daddy and I am Her girl. So throughout my posts you may see me refer to Her as She and as Daddy)
While at work I got a phone call that once I got home I was going to be all dolled up for Daddy (Wednesday night).
She had gone out and gotten me a brand new wig (sometimes I put in hair extensions), got me some new breast forms among other things. She also brought back some of my things that I still had in my NYC apartment when she was in NYC last week. Some of those things included my pink sissy dress, so I decided to wear that. I thought the night was going to be just me and her, like it usually is but after I was all ready; makeup, hair, lingerie, high heels, locking wrist cuffs, locking heel cuffs, my collar and locked in my dress I was told that our guest would be here soon.
I was told to pull a chair into the bedroom and put it in the corner and face it towards the bed, then to sit down. I was tied with my hands behind the back of the chair and my feet in high heels bound together and then my legs bound back to the chair. The doorbell rang and out She went to answer the door. I was in the room for about 15-20 minutes by myself.
In She walked with a submissive behind Her on a collar and leash. She strapped on "Pink Princess" about a 5 inch pink dildo into her harness.
All the while just sitting there knowing what She was going to make me do that night my heart was racing. I had a bit of anxiety and lots of nervousness but I didn't want that to show. As I calmed myself down a bit I began to get aroused in my cage. BTW today marks day 48 in chastity.
The submissive was bent over a bench about 10 feet in front me and Daddy asked me how long it's been since She's fucked me. I said, "Over 50 days" Then She began telling the submissive that he better take her cock good otherwise the sissy (me) wasn't going to give him a blow job at the end.
That's when my stomach sank a bit and more nerves crept in. It's been drilled into my head that this day would come and that I HAVE TO DO A GOOD JOB otherwise I don't get to cum on day 66.
Then She stuck her cock into the submissive bound to the bench. She began slow as he doesn't take large cocks and I began to get jealous. Wanting Her to be fucking me. I know that She loves to fuck me and that this was torment. I was rocking a bit in my chair wishing it was me, but with a bigger dick, or Her feeldoe. She then put on a smaller dick that She could fuck him harder with. She would glance at me with these looks oh "don't you wish this was you?"
Smaller dick on, She started to fuck him hard, he was moaning and I was begging silently. About 10 minutes later She stopped walked over to me and untied me. Told me to walk next to the submissive who was on his belling/all 4's on the bench and for me to lay down and put my head between his legs where his cock and balls hung over my face.
Let me tell you, the fear that was in me in that moment. But I was there to impress Daddy. Then She got close and put Her dick in his ass and I was told to suck on his balls while she pounded him in the ass. He was clean shaven so that was nice. I opened up my mouth and sucked on his balls. His cock started to drip cum on my forehead and into my hair and eye. I kind of felt like moaning but I didn't, I stayed to course.
Daddy stopped, backed up and told the submissive to sit up and me get on my knees. She handcuffed his hands behind his back and stood over me from the side and ordered me to start sucking. I could hear Her in the background saying things like, "Is she doing a good job?" Let her know if she needs to change anything" "Teach her, because she has to learn how to suck cock for me" etc. I focused on Her voice and tried to suck his cock the way I suck Daddy's cock regularly.
There I was on my knees, head bobbing up and down and this man's cock. He had a rather big dick, maybe 8 inches and thick. He was already dripping when I put my lips on it. It helped me to keep my eyes closed most of the time. If I started to gag a bit I'd pull my head off of his cock and keep stroking with my hand. I felt like I was doing a good job and every time Daddy asked the submissive if I was doing a good job he would reply with, "Yes, she's a good sissy". But at the same time I wasn't really sure if I was doing a good job. I lost track of time and started to think should he have cum already? I hope Daddy doesn't punish me for doing a bad job.
But then, I hear the submissive saying I'm going to cum and with his cock in the back of my throat he spurts a big load in my mouth. Maybe 2-3 shots and I swallow immediately just as I started to gag a little bit and was getting a bit grossed out at the same time. When I shut my eyes it helps me not be grossed out by the act of what I'm doing. I pulled his cock out of my mouth and kept stroking it as he shot another load onto my face and in my eyes. Only a few drops fell on the bench and Daddy told me to lick it up, so I did.
I was left on my knees and he was escorted out of the bedroom and soon after left.
Daddy came back in the room and didn't say much at first. Maybe 10 minutes later I was on the bathroom floor and She asked me what I thought of him. I said, he seemed nice enough but I don't know what I'm supposed to think about him because I didn't talk with him any.
She replies, "Good, you're going to be seeing more of him". I literally just couldn't say anything, I didn't like the idea of that and still don't. The only aspect of that idea that I enjoy is that I'm doing it for Her. In the next hour or so I began to get a little sad. I had just done something I had never done and it was something very extreme. It's allowing myself to be that vulnerable, that controlled, that owned and it wasn't easy at all for me to do.
After a little while She brought me back to "normal" I guess you could say. One thing most people don't know is that Daddy has what we refer to as a "darkside". Meaning, She knows how to and sometimes will break me. She's done it before and as we went to bed that night I knew I was a little broken. I love parts of Her darkside, as does She. But it's something we are both learning to operate within. Me and Her are great together because our interests are both all over the map and we both push each other. In the midst of pushing each other we find each others boundaries and not all play is cupcakes and candy. Lots of our play is hardcore, envelope pushing that in reality arouses the both of us to extremes.
Day 65, aka May 19th has been labeled "Day of Hell". I already know I'm going to be put through the ringer to earn Day 66, my release date from chastity and no anal. Truth is, I have no idea what She has in store. Truth is I'm scared shitless, truth is I'm aroused by all of that and I know She is as well. Something tells me She's going to break me and make me keep going and push through for Her.
And I will push through for Her.
Here are 4 pics.
1) Me on all fours over Daddy in my new black crotchless panties and in chastity of course.
2) Me dolled up from Wednesday sucking Daddy's cock.
3) Picture of the bows She tied on the back of my dress (Wednesday night)
4) Photo of me right before all the action (Wednesday night)
You can read my Owner's blog at Mistress Tangent
Sunday, April 27, 2014
Daddy Back Home
I don't think people realize just how difficult it is to 1 be a slave and 2 be a cuckold. Both are actually relatively new to me. I mean I've been a submissive and a fetishist for years but I've never been a slave. And to me the term is over used. A slave to an owner is commitment and devotion and is something that is earned over a period of time.
With that rambling, I'm going to say that I've been drinking heavily today/tonight as I write this blog.
I'm 27. Keep that in mind... I'm not an older man who stumbled into bdsm. I'm a guy who has been a fetish model, a person that is recognized in the community, someone who in my own right is a younger, good looking person.... and yet I chose to be a slave. I'm kinky to the core. I'm 46 days in straight chastity and in part is a large reason why I'm writing this post that is admittedly scatter-brained from alcohol.
Anyone that knows me personally, or has worked with me in photos or videos knows about me and my body. I've always celebrated my body but just like most others, I am insecure about my own body. I'm a 27 year old male who was born with Klinefelters, something that makes my body truly feminine; naturally limited body hair, no facial hair, put on weight in my hips and thighs like a woman, small hands and feet, non-developed testicles plus more. I'm someone who has always desired femininity in everything including myself to the point where I took Estrogen for 6 weeks at the age of 23 as I seriously considered transitioning. I'm someone who desires sex but not the way most men do. I'm admittedly the bottom.
Finding someone, particularly a natural born woman who not only accepts but appreciates and can love me for all that I am is more difficult that one could imagine. Perhaps I am a natural born sissy. And that's essentially where I find myself today. A slave to a woman that means the world to me, more than I'm going to put into writing on my blog. She really loves for me to be her girl, she's my daddy and I'm her girl. Yet, I hold on to a piece of fear.
I'm not what she wants in a man. To be honest I'm not much of a man. Of course I can pass in any situation as need be but my desire to be a man is very little. Beyond being her slave this is very scary. As much as she wants and desires me to be her girl, how much can I fulfill is a fear.
Then comes being a cuckold. It's a love hate thing for myself. I love for her to be pleased I do. But, I'm learning my place in that dynamic. And I'm learning that I'm still important and desired by her in that dynamic.
I'm a leave this for tonight. Gotta go to bed but had to write some of whats on my mind. I'm excited to have Daddy back home tomorrow night.
With that rambling, I'm going to say that I've been drinking heavily today/tonight as I write this blog.
I'm 27. Keep that in mind... I'm not an older man who stumbled into bdsm. I'm a guy who has been a fetish model, a person that is recognized in the community, someone who in my own right is a younger, good looking person.... and yet I chose to be a slave. I'm kinky to the core. I'm 46 days in straight chastity and in part is a large reason why I'm writing this post that is admittedly scatter-brained from alcohol.
Anyone that knows me personally, or has worked with me in photos or videos knows about me and my body. I've always celebrated my body but just like most others, I am insecure about my own body. I'm a 27 year old male who was born with Klinefelters, something that makes my body truly feminine; naturally limited body hair, no facial hair, put on weight in my hips and thighs like a woman, small hands and feet, non-developed testicles plus more. I'm someone who has always desired femininity in everything including myself to the point where I took Estrogen for 6 weeks at the age of 23 as I seriously considered transitioning. I'm someone who desires sex but not the way most men do. I'm admittedly the bottom.
Finding someone, particularly a natural born woman who not only accepts but appreciates and can love me for all that I am is more difficult that one could imagine. Perhaps I am a natural born sissy. And that's essentially where I find myself today. A slave to a woman that means the world to me, more than I'm going to put into writing on my blog. She really loves for me to be her girl, she's my daddy and I'm her girl. Yet, I hold on to a piece of fear.
I'm not what she wants in a man. To be honest I'm not much of a man. Of course I can pass in any situation as need be but my desire to be a man is very little. Beyond being her slave this is very scary. As much as she wants and desires me to be her girl, how much can I fulfill is a fear.
Then comes being a cuckold. It's a love hate thing for myself. I love for her to be pleased I do. But, I'm learning my place in that dynamic. And I'm learning that I'm still important and desired by her in that dynamic.
I'm a leave this for tonight. Gotta go to bed but had to write some of whats on my mind. I'm excited to have Daddy back home tomorrow night.
Saturday, April 12, 2014
It's Go Time - You're My Cuck Tonight
"It's Go time!!!!
Hurry up, grab the red bag, the bondage cuffs and make sure to wear cute panties.
Bring my strap-on and hurry up, it's Go time!!!"
That's the call I got on Sunday night after Miss aka my Daddy aka my owner was out at a BBQ and it was finally time. I was going to be her cuckold. For me it was a moment of excitement and nervousness. I started grabbing all of the necessary items as She requested and I got another phone call from Her saying to hurry up.
I arrived at the house where she was with him. I made sure I looked good that night, even though I knew what was about to happen there is still a sense of pride in me. I walked to the door, he had his shirt off already and was grabbing on her. A few knots in my stomach but overall it was a rather comfortable setting. We gathered in the kitchen and had a few drinks together to talk and get to know each other a little bit and to be honest, probably relax us all a bit. This was a first time for all of us.
When I saw them caress each other even standing I got knots in my stomach but I knew my place. We had to make a quick run to the store and Miss suggested that we all go. I was the driver, Miss slid in the back sear and for some reason I naturally thought he would get in the seat next to me up front but he got in the back seat with her. Of course, that made sense but for some reason it didn't cross my mind in the moment. We all chatted a bit, I was asked to turn up the music a bit and they made out. It was a very weird feeling for me. I was like nooooo but again I knew my place and I understood what was going on. I just drove and listened while at the same time could feel Miss's touch on my arm here and there.
We get back to the house, go into the living room and they start making out. I'm instructed to strip down to my panties and just watch. A few minutes later we step outside I'm told to sit/lay on the outside furtniture. Miss lays on top of me and he gets on top of her for more foreplay for a few minutes. He grabbed a quick smoke and we made our way to his bedroom.
I'm immediately told to get on my knees in the corner and it starts. He undresses her more, he gets undress and he even starts to ask me questions in a teasing way.
"You like it on your knees sissy?" - Yes.
"Oh, She feels so good, do you like watching me please your Miss?" Yes, please, please Her!
Foreplay continued and suddenly all I wanted was for him to please Her. Seriously, deep inside of me I wanted to see my Owner be pleased by another man. Me-on my knees, Her sissy just watching and yearning to see Her truly pleased. I was getting such a high, such a pleasure from all of this.
I could see the pleasure Miss was receiving from Her control, Her dominance, my submission and our bond. It was ecstasy!!!!!
The next time I'm sure will be sooner than later and it's something I'm looking forward to. It's something I'm not fearing because it was something we enjoyed together. That level of trust in each other, the attention to detail Miss gave me throughout by slight rubs on my arm, telling me to get closer, ordering me to show him how a sissy really sucks Her dick (strap-on), to having me get closer for a better view. There was a point where I got on all fours with my head down on the floor as I had gone into such a great sub space. I was Her slave to be done with as She pleased.
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Right now I write this 12 days after that night. Daddy is in California for the weekend working and I'm yearning for Daddy. Daddy is a name She has taken on, I'm her girl and She is my Daddy. And truth be it Daddy has a high level of masculine tendencies and I have a high level of feminine tendencies. We compliment each other very well in my facets and our BDSM side of our relationship is a part of our everyday, we are lifestyle. But more and more I'm becoming more comfortable with being Daddy's slave as well as Her girl. I can't explain the feeling it gives me inside and I can't explain how I need to please Daddy. It just is a part of me and it's a part of us.
On top of all this today is the 27th straight day in chastity. The previous longest I had ever gone is 13 days. Daddy told me I don't get out until day 66. Day 66!!!!! And I'm not allowed ANY anal of any kind until day 66.
As much as that # ran through my head for days I love that I'm challenged and I love that I'm able to please Daddy in the process. More to come on this and the life of Mistress Tangent (Daddy) and Autoeroticboy (girl) soon.
Below are pictures of the bruises I had on both of my thighs during the cuckold scene from a punishment and the chastity I was in during the scene and what I'm still in as I write this, 27 days in. The photo is from my last orgasm, I cam while in my CB from the hitachi.... 1st time EVER!
BTW.... I have not had an orgasm from a jacking off motion and or sex of any kind since February 1st. That's right, over 2 months ago.
That is devotion to my Owner.
Hurry up, grab the red bag, the bondage cuffs and make sure to wear cute panties.
Bring my strap-on and hurry up, it's Go time!!!"
That's the call I got on Sunday night after Miss aka my Daddy aka my owner was out at a BBQ and it was finally time. I was going to be her cuckold. For me it was a moment of excitement and nervousness. I started grabbing all of the necessary items as She requested and I got another phone call from Her saying to hurry up.
I arrived at the house where she was with him. I made sure I looked good that night, even though I knew what was about to happen there is still a sense of pride in me. I walked to the door, he had his shirt off already and was grabbing on her. A few knots in my stomach but overall it was a rather comfortable setting. We gathered in the kitchen and had a few drinks together to talk and get to know each other a little bit and to be honest, probably relax us all a bit. This was a first time for all of us.
When I saw them caress each other even standing I got knots in my stomach but I knew my place. We had to make a quick run to the store and Miss suggested that we all go. I was the driver, Miss slid in the back sear and for some reason I naturally thought he would get in the seat next to me up front but he got in the back seat with her. Of course, that made sense but for some reason it didn't cross my mind in the moment. We all chatted a bit, I was asked to turn up the music a bit and they made out. It was a very weird feeling for me. I was like nooooo but again I knew my place and I understood what was going on. I just drove and listened while at the same time could feel Miss's touch on my arm here and there.
We get back to the house, go into the living room and they start making out. I'm instructed to strip down to my panties and just watch. A few minutes later we step outside I'm told to sit/lay on the outside furtniture. Miss lays on top of me and he gets on top of her for more foreplay for a few minutes. He grabbed a quick smoke and we made our way to his bedroom.
I'm immediately told to get on my knees in the corner and it starts. He undresses her more, he gets undress and he even starts to ask me questions in a teasing way.
"You like it on your knees sissy?" - Yes.
"Oh, She feels so good, do you like watching me please your Miss?" Yes, please, please Her!
Foreplay continued and suddenly all I wanted was for him to please Her. Seriously, deep inside of me I wanted to see my Owner be pleased by another man. Me-on my knees, Her sissy just watching and yearning to see Her truly pleased. I was getting such a high, such a pleasure from all of this.
I could see the pleasure Miss was receiving from Her control, Her dominance, my submission and our bond. It was ecstasy!!!!!
The next time I'm sure will be sooner than later and it's something I'm looking forward to. It's something I'm not fearing because it was something we enjoyed together. That level of trust in each other, the attention to detail Miss gave me throughout by slight rubs on my arm, telling me to get closer, ordering me to show him how a sissy really sucks Her dick (strap-on), to having me get closer for a better view. There was a point where I got on all fours with my head down on the floor as I had gone into such a great sub space. I was Her slave to be done with as She pleased.
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Right now I write this 12 days after that night. Daddy is in California for the weekend working and I'm yearning for Daddy. Daddy is a name She has taken on, I'm her girl and She is my Daddy. And truth be it Daddy has a high level of masculine tendencies and I have a high level of feminine tendencies. We compliment each other very well in my facets and our BDSM side of our relationship is a part of our everyday, we are lifestyle. But more and more I'm becoming more comfortable with being Daddy's slave as well as Her girl. I can't explain the feeling it gives me inside and I can't explain how I need to please Daddy. It just is a part of me and it's a part of us.
On top of all this today is the 27th straight day in chastity. The previous longest I had ever gone is 13 days. Daddy told me I don't get out until day 66. Day 66!!!!! And I'm not allowed ANY anal of any kind until day 66.
As much as that # ran through my head for days I love that I'm challenged and I love that I'm able to please Daddy in the process. More to come on this and the life of Mistress Tangent (Daddy) and Autoeroticboy (girl) soon.
Below are pictures of the bruises I had on both of my thighs during the cuckold scene from a punishment and the chastity I was in during the scene and what I'm still in as I write this, 27 days in. The photo is from my last orgasm, I cam while in my CB from the hitachi.... 1st time EVER!
BTW.... I have not had an orgasm from a jacking off motion and or sex of any kind since February 1st. That's right, over 2 months ago.
That is devotion to my Owner.
Sunday, November 10, 2013
Mistress Tangent
I want to share a website / blog with all of you to check out.
Mistress Tangent is a really good friend of mine. She's a Femdom from Phoenix but travels all over and she recently (as of a couple months ago) started a website and also has a diary/blog similar to mine on her website.
For all of you kinksters out there that love to worship a beautiful and truly kinky dominant woman I highly suggest you taking a look at her site - MistressTangent
I've been in the BDSM world for 10 years now and there are a lot of beautiful women but some of them aren't as kinky as they put off. Mistress Tangent is a kinky as she puts off if not kinkier and so I have to show love and support here on my blog.
Mistress Tangent is a really good friend of mine. She's a Femdom from Phoenix but travels all over and she recently (as of a couple months ago) started a website and also has a diary/blog similar to mine on her website.
For all of you kinksters out there that love to worship a beautiful and truly kinky dominant woman I highly suggest you taking a look at her site - MistressTangent
I've been in the BDSM world for 10 years now and there are a lot of beautiful women but some of them aren't as kinky as they put off. Mistress Tangent is a kinky as she puts off if not kinkier and so I have to show love and support here on my blog.
Friday, January 11, 2013
I'm Seeking a D/s Relationship
I want/need to be in a D/s relationship.... I'm seeking to serve a Dominant Woman.
I turned 26 in September and many who read my blog would say to me that I live the dream life of a male submissive. I'm sure that is true on some levels. By the age of 26 I've accomplished quite a lot in the world of BDSM both lifestyle and professional. Ironically, on the professional side it's never been my full time job. I've been a fetish model since I was 20 but I was also in college. When I was in Chicago I was running a dungeon with my girlfriend at the time, traveling for fetish events and again all while in college. Now that my life is a bit more simple and I have a full time "career" job (I am still doing some fetish modeling) but I really want to be in a D/s relationship.
I've been in 2 serious D/s relationships in my time.
1st.) I was almost 19 and began serving a Pro Domme in Chicago by cleaning her dungeon twice a week. That progressed into many more duties and dynamics over time as I served her for a little over 1 1/2 years. (We are friends to this day).
2nd.) I began serving another Pro Domme in Chicago who was also very active in the lifestyle community in Chicago. Many months later we entered into a personal relationship where we were dating for 2 1/2 plus years.
Since then, I've been single. I really focused on school, transferred colleges to a different state. Graduated in 2 years when I was told it would take me 3 years. In September I moved to Arizona where I'll probably be here 1 1/2 - 3 years. Now that everything is lining up in my life it's time that I find someone that I can serve.
Yes, over the course of this blog and most of you who read it know me from my fetish videos and pictures etc. I'm as kinky as they come and with that I need D/s on a more personal level as well. I don't have strict guidelines of what I'm seeking but I do have an outline.
1. Compatibility
2. An attractiveness to one another
3. Be a well rounded Dominant (I'm extremely kinky, open minded & I'm looking to push my limits for a Dominant.)
4. Creativity
I've done a lot in kink. With that said there is so much I want to do. I feel like I've barely tapped into my life in kink. Kink to me is a lot more than play I really enjoy the psychological aspects of kink. Like a woman most things are mental for me.
The more your involved in the lifestyle the more your interests evolve. This is not a list of demands just a list of types of BDSM interests that play a role in my life now and interests that have evolved over time to where I have a large interest to explore now.
(Humiliation, total degradation, feminization, sissy, cuckold, chastity, orgasm control, anal stretching, strict slave protocols, 2 legged pony, toilet training, domestic slave, slave branding/tattoo, castration, bukkake, extreme rubber, trained to take a brutal caning, sensory deprivation, gimp, public humiliation, diaper humiliation, sleep restrictions, confinement, bondage and lots more). I can take pain and understand pain as part of BDSM but the aspects of BDSM that I truly love are mental control, slave protocols, complete and total humiliation and degradation as well as feminization.
If someone is interested in talking with me about possible servitude you can email me on Fetlife - Autoeroticboy or at my email Morgankeni4@gmail.com
I turned 26 in September and many who read my blog would say to me that I live the dream life of a male submissive. I'm sure that is true on some levels. By the age of 26 I've accomplished quite a lot in the world of BDSM both lifestyle and professional. Ironically, on the professional side it's never been my full time job. I've been a fetish model since I was 20 but I was also in college. When I was in Chicago I was running a dungeon with my girlfriend at the time, traveling for fetish events and again all while in college. Now that my life is a bit more simple and I have a full time "career" job (I am still doing some fetish modeling) but I really want to be in a D/s relationship.
I've been in 2 serious D/s relationships in my time.
1st.) I was almost 19 and began serving a Pro Domme in Chicago by cleaning her dungeon twice a week. That progressed into many more duties and dynamics over time as I served her for a little over 1 1/2 years. (We are friends to this day).
2nd.) I began serving another Pro Domme in Chicago who was also very active in the lifestyle community in Chicago. Many months later we entered into a personal relationship where we were dating for 2 1/2 plus years.
Since then, I've been single. I really focused on school, transferred colleges to a different state. Graduated in 2 years when I was told it would take me 3 years. In September I moved to Arizona where I'll probably be here 1 1/2 - 3 years. Now that everything is lining up in my life it's time that I find someone that I can serve.
Yes, over the course of this blog and most of you who read it know me from my fetish videos and pictures etc. I'm as kinky as they come and with that I need D/s on a more personal level as well. I don't have strict guidelines of what I'm seeking but I do have an outline.
1. Compatibility
2. An attractiveness to one another
3. Be a well rounded Dominant (I'm extremely kinky, open minded & I'm looking to push my limits for a Dominant.)
4. Creativity
I've done a lot in kink. With that said there is so much I want to do. I feel like I've barely tapped into my life in kink. Kink to me is a lot more than play I really enjoy the psychological aspects of kink. Like a woman most things are mental for me.
The more your involved in the lifestyle the more your interests evolve. This is not a list of demands just a list of types of BDSM interests that play a role in my life now and interests that have evolved over time to where I have a large interest to explore now.
(Humiliation, total degradation, feminization, sissy, cuckold, chastity, orgasm control, anal stretching, strict slave protocols, 2 legged pony, toilet training, domestic slave, slave branding/tattoo, castration, bukkake, extreme rubber, trained to take a brutal caning, sensory deprivation, gimp, public humiliation, diaper humiliation, sleep restrictions, confinement, bondage and lots more). I can take pain and understand pain as part of BDSM but the aspects of BDSM that I truly love are mental control, slave protocols, complete and total humiliation and degradation as well as feminization.
If someone is interested in talking with me about possible servitude you can email me on Fetlife - Autoeroticboy or at my email Morgankeni4@gmail.com
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Coming & Going
I'll be leaving Ohio in 9 days, this time I hope it's forever. After I spent my senior year of high school in Ohio I moved out on my own at 18 and back to Chicago. I never thought I'd end up back in Ohio but obviously that didn't exactly go as planned. I've spent the past 2 1/2 years in Ohio and I have no plans on ever living here again. It feels great to have earned my Bachelors degree and now I'm ready to move on to the next phase of life.
Stop 1: Chicago. I would've liked to of been staying in Chicago this summer because it would make my life easier with an internship and truthfully most of my time spent will be in Chicago (Internship, kink, bars, friends etc). With that said, I'm staying at an apartment in Des Plaines because my best friend just got a new apartment and I'm staying with him. We are really tight and if I am going to be living in Arizona for the next few years I want us to have a good summer together before I go again. Everyone that knows me knows how close me and my friend Jamal are. I know it's important to him that I'm around and it's important to me that we can at worst have one last go at a fun summer.
I've been talking with a lot of models and dommes to shoot with this summer. It's looking like it will be a good summer for filming. I personally haven't filmed in about 3 months and have maybe only filmed 10 times over the past 9 months. Being that it was my senior year and I was taking more than a full load of credits, I had my hands full. I've got a lot of new women that I have plans with for filming purposes. I've also got some people that I've shot with in the past as well. I even got a sexy femme sissy that I have plans to shoot with.
I plan on shooting a lot of diverse material. Putting myself into a lot of crazy kinky, humiliating, degrading, mind blowing circumstances and best of all I'm looking forward to it. I'm always pushing/expanding my own limitations and finding new things that get me off. I'm also focusing on doing a lot of trade for content work meaning all of my shoots will become available at my video store for you to cum and enjoy - AEB Femdom
I'm also looking forward to just attending some kink events this summer. It's been awhile since I've done so. Last year I had a great time at the LRA 4th of July kink celebration so I hope to attend that again this year. I believe it's actually on the 3rd of July. The Chicago legend and my friend Mortis has been teaching kink classes in town again so I hope to catch one of his classes and hopefully I'll make it to Carnel for my first time among some other kinky ongoings.
I'm ready to kick off a hard-working and hard-playing extravagant kink filled summer in Chicago.
Additionally, I wanted to note that I've added a few features to my blog over the past few months. To the right you can see my Clips4sale store. Most recently added are the "Who do you think you are" videos. Which has some really hot strap-on/ass fucking scenes, forced orgasms, blackmail, and humiliation. To the right you can see my Amazon wish list for those that ask for it and wish to get me some gifts. Near the top and again to the right is a new "Share it" feature allowing you to easily share my blog with others on Facebook and Twitter. I've also added a feature that counts the hits this blog gets. It's up to almost 30,000 which is awesome!
Stop 1: Chicago. I would've liked to of been staying in Chicago this summer because it would make my life easier with an internship and truthfully most of my time spent will be in Chicago (Internship, kink, bars, friends etc). With that said, I'm staying at an apartment in Des Plaines because my best friend just got a new apartment and I'm staying with him. We are really tight and if I am going to be living in Arizona for the next few years I want us to have a good summer together before I go again. Everyone that knows me knows how close me and my friend Jamal are. I know it's important to him that I'm around and it's important to me that we can at worst have one last go at a fun summer.
I've been talking with a lot of models and dommes to shoot with this summer. It's looking like it will be a good summer for filming. I personally haven't filmed in about 3 months and have maybe only filmed 10 times over the past 9 months. Being that it was my senior year and I was taking more than a full load of credits, I had my hands full. I've got a lot of new women that I have plans with for filming purposes. I've also got some people that I've shot with in the past as well. I even got a sexy femme sissy that I have plans to shoot with.
I plan on shooting a lot of diverse material. Putting myself into a lot of crazy kinky, humiliating, degrading, mind blowing circumstances and best of all I'm looking forward to it. I'm always pushing/expanding my own limitations and finding new things that get me off. I'm also focusing on doing a lot of trade for content work meaning all of my shoots will become available at my video store for you to cum and enjoy - AEB Femdom
I'm also looking forward to just attending some kink events this summer. It's been awhile since I've done so. Last year I had a great time at the LRA 4th of July kink celebration so I hope to attend that again this year. I believe it's actually on the 3rd of July. The Chicago legend and my friend Mortis has been teaching kink classes in town again so I hope to catch one of his classes and hopefully I'll make it to Carnel for my first time among some other kinky ongoings.
I'm ready to kick off a hard-working and hard-playing extravagant kink filled summer in Chicago.
Additionally, I wanted to note that I've added a few features to my blog over the past few months. To the right you can see my Clips4sale store. Most recently added are the "Who do you think you are" videos. Which has some really hot strap-on/ass fucking scenes, forced orgasms, blackmail, and humiliation. To the right you can see my Amazon wish list for those that ask for it and wish to get me some gifts. Near the top and again to the right is a new "Share it" feature allowing you to easily share my blog with others on Facebook and Twitter. I've also added a feature that counts the hits this blog gets. It's up to almost 30,000 which is awesome!
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Got Everything I Need
The month of October hasn't left me with much time to do anything other than school. I've managed to get a bit ahead of the curve this week and so I'm looking pretty good for the next 10 days. Next week Wednesday - the 26th I'm dying my hair pink. I'm excited! I've got everything I need for Halloween except for some eyebrow wax. So I'm a try and get my hands on some of that.
I was in Baltimore and DC last weekend. I shot video with Nyssa Nevers for the first time. We worked with R.I.Productions and their new femdom site to be launched soon. We shot 3 different videso.
1. Boot & Stocking feet worship
2. Spanking & Strap-on fucking
3. Sissy Maid Servitude
The strap-on scene was the first on-camera strap-on scene she's EVER done with a boy or girl. Nyssa is one of the best female fetish models around and so that's kind of cool to take her on-camera strap-on virginity :). We've been friends since 2007 but this was the first time we worked together.
Then Sissy Maid video also featured another Domme out of Baltimore named Miss Alegria. She was also great to work with and a great host.
Saturday in DC I had a session with one of my regular clients and then I was off to do some shopping in Georgetown. I went to urban outfitters to get 2 nail polish colors that I've been meaning to get from them for awhile now. One's a shade of a purple with some hints of grey that I love and the other is a red/pink/orange tint. A little tough to explain but I love them both but here is a picture of my toes with both colors.
I also noticed last time I was in DC that they had a new version of my favorite T-shirt that I've had for years. In fact, I've had this T-shirt since high school but it was starting to fade on me. Last time they didn't have my size and this time they did so I updated. Hopefully this one last me just as long as the old one.
The last thing I needed was a top for my Jeffree Star look for Halloween. I went to a few different stores but figured it might be hard to find what I was looking for because most people are bring in their Autumn looks. Then I saw the Betsey Johnson store and I knew they would have what I wanted. I got the perfect top. It fits great but I could have done a size smaller but they didn't have a smaller size. Either way I love the top and I'm excited for Halloween!
The other day I ordered some LimeCrime lipstick in a pink shade. Again for the JStar look and it came in.
I've also been shooting some custom videos for a client. I'll talk more about this is my next post but I've shot 2 so far and I might be doing a few more in the near future.
A few of my Chicago friends will be getting into Athens the 27th/28th for Halloween. This will be their first time visiting me here since I've been at Ohio University. As soon as Halloween is over I'm going to go into Chastity again and from what me and my play partner have discussed it won't come off until I see her in Chicago in late November/early December.
That will be the longest I've gone locked up.
I'll make sure to update mid next week and right after Halloween with plenty of pictures of the pink hair and the JStar look.
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Great Weekend
What a great weekend it was! But first let me back track a bit here. The start of October has been crazy for me. Taking 20 credit hours of school and all the classes being legit classes takes up a lot of your time. I've been doing great in class, in fact probably the best of my college career. We are half through with the quarter and I have some big big projects coming up.
On October 4th I went to the career fair and that went well. I also earned an interview with a company I'm interested in working with and I passed stage 1. So, I have a 2nd interview in coming weeks that I have to prepare for. I'm going to be sending out lots of resumes but if I were to land this job and ultimately take an offer from them then I would be moving to the west coast over the summer.
In the midst of school I was in chastity for 14 1/2 days. I've also been opening up my clips4sale store - AEB KINK I have about 11 or 12 videos uploaded at the moment but I'm working on shooting new videos and working with different people. There is a lot more to come with that. I will be talking more about that in coming weeks. I was asked to shoot some custom videos for a client and so I will be shooting those while I'm in DC/Baltimore this coming weekend - October 14-16. I will also be sharing these videos on AEB KINK.
While I'm in DC/Baltimore this go around I'm going to be working with both Nyssa Nevers and Nikki Domino. Once I return back to Ohio I will be dying my hair pink October 26th for Halloween and my Chicago friends are coming in town to party for Halloween as well.
This past weekend I got to spend with my play partner and I had a great time with her. I also had a wonderful orgasm after being locked up for 2 weeks. That night Bobcat and his girlfriend were over at my place for a little bit and she thought it would be humiliating for me to have to cum in front of them so she made that happen. Afterwards I was going out for a few drinks and she forced me to wear the Aneros anal toy and tights to help hold it in under my clothes. You definitely feel the Aneros when out and about too.
I'm going to enjoy another orgasm tonight and try and get to bed early because I have a 9am exam and I'm going to wake up extra early to get more studying in since I didn't do much of that this weekend. I'm going to be out of chastity for the rest of this month due to some kink work and Halloween. Then I will be locked up in early November until I see her when I'm in Chicago in late November. That will definitely be the longer I will have ever been in chastity.
I really enjoyed this weekend and things have been really good for me. I've just been very busy with little to no down time. 5 more weeks of school until a 6 week Winter vacation.
On October 4th I went to the career fair and that went well. I also earned an interview with a company I'm interested in working with and I passed stage 1. So, I have a 2nd interview in coming weeks that I have to prepare for. I'm going to be sending out lots of resumes but if I were to land this job and ultimately take an offer from them then I would be moving to the west coast over the summer.
In the midst of school I was in chastity for 14 1/2 days. I've also been opening up my clips4sale store - AEB KINK I have about 11 or 12 videos uploaded at the moment but I'm working on shooting new videos and working with different people. There is a lot more to come with that. I will be talking more about that in coming weeks. I was asked to shoot some custom videos for a client and so I will be shooting those while I'm in DC/Baltimore this coming weekend - October 14-16. I will also be sharing these videos on AEB KINK.
While I'm in DC/Baltimore this go around I'm going to be working with both Nyssa Nevers and Nikki Domino. Once I return back to Ohio I will be dying my hair pink October 26th for Halloween and my Chicago friends are coming in town to party for Halloween as well.
This past weekend I got to spend with my play partner and I had a great time with her. I also had a wonderful orgasm after being locked up for 2 weeks. That night Bobcat and his girlfriend were over at my place for a little bit and she thought it would be humiliating for me to have to cum in front of them so she made that happen. Afterwards I was going out for a few drinks and she forced me to wear the Aneros anal toy and tights to help hold it in under my clothes. You definitely feel the Aneros when out and about too.
I'm going to enjoy another orgasm tonight and try and get to bed early because I have a 9am exam and I'm going to wake up extra early to get more studying in since I didn't do much of that this weekend. I'm going to be out of chastity for the rest of this month due to some kink work and Halloween. Then I will be locked up in early November until I see her when I'm in Chicago in late November. That will definitely be the longer I will have ever been in chastity.
I really enjoyed this weekend and things have been really good for me. I've just been very busy with little to no down time. 5 more weeks of school until a 6 week Winter vacation.
Friday, September 30, 2011
IT'S OFFICIAL!
I am going to be in DC again on October 14-16. I'm taking sessions, photo shoots, & video. I met Nyssa Nevers back in 2007 at Atlanta Bound and we've been friends since. With that said we've never worked together and that's about to change. We are going to be shooting for RIProductions when I'm in DC. I've worked with them before but their femdom site is yet to be released. They do however have a girl on girl clips4sale up. It's called FemdomFem
Again if anyone wants to work with me while I'm in DC from October 14-16 contact me here - Morgankeni4@gmail.com
AEB KINK - HTTP://CLIPS4SALE.COM/47506 IT IS OFFICIALLY UP & RUNNING..... Hooray!!!
Yes, that is my clips4sale store.
My blog details my life through my writings and a few pictures. I love to write and will continue to do so. But, now you all get a hub for the videos I've shot as well. AEB KINK will feature femdom videos of me, auto-erotic raw play of me & it will feature my kinky friends as well.
This weekend I have a friend of mine, a beautiful - very kinky girl that will be showing off her small feet in stockings, socks, and tights. I will also be shooting her bare feet and of course there will be some other hot scenes as well. But, you will have to wait for those details.
Right now I have some femdom videos up that I show with Lady Maria, Miss Xena & Lady O over the summer in Chicago. I also have some of my self play videos up. From self-cock sucking, wetting my panties, toilet training, sissy maid shaving, and lots more. This past summer I also shot with Maya Sinstress, Madame Ingrid and a few other femdom's.
ALSO
I have a Images4sale store. HTTP://IMAGES4SALE.COM/47506
Here you will get full picture sets from video shoots and some additional never seen pictures.
The first picture set I have up is from this past summer where I shot with Lady Maria & Miss Xena. 3 of the 4 videos and we shot where outdoors in the public eye and there are 62 unseen pictures. That's a lot of masturbation material!
When it comes to videos, if you want to see anything specific then send me an email. Morgankeni4@gmail.com
Whether it's a femdom scene, self-play, or featuring someone else. Feel free to contact me and I'll see what I can do.
Last night marked 7 days in chastity and I also got my test scores back from my Management: Organization Behaviors class. This is definitely my hardest class but it's also my favorite and I love the teachers, teaching style! Let me just say I don't get test scores like this so this made my whole week!
I did the best in the class and only got 1 question wrong. On top of that I got extra credit earlier in the week and so I got 100% on this super hard test. I couldn't believe it!
So, as you can see I work hard at kink and I work hard at school. Because I did so well on my test I think my Top was being nice to me. I asked if I could fuck myself with a dildo for 5 minutes. She said yes, but she wanted to watch on Skype. Out came the stopwatch and she watched me attempt to enjoy some anal pleasure with my cock all locked up. It was lovely :)
I'm excited to see her soon!
Just for fun here are a few butt pictures of me. 2 days ago I wet my purple lace panties for some enjoyment & the video is on http://clips4sale.com/47506 Also here is a picture of my butt in my "Sure Thing" panties when I woke up this morning.
Again if anyone wants to work with me while I'm in DC from October 14-16 contact me here - Morgankeni4@gmail.com
AEB KINK - HTTP://CLIPS4SALE.COM/47506 IT IS OFFICIALLY UP & RUNNING..... Hooray!!!
Yes, that is my clips4sale store.
My blog details my life through my writings and a few pictures. I love to write and will continue to do so. But, now you all get a hub for the videos I've shot as well. AEB KINK will feature femdom videos of me, auto-erotic raw play of me & it will feature my kinky friends as well.
This weekend I have a friend of mine, a beautiful - very kinky girl that will be showing off her small feet in stockings, socks, and tights. I will also be shooting her bare feet and of course there will be some other hot scenes as well. But, you will have to wait for those details.
Right now I have some femdom videos up that I show with Lady Maria, Miss Xena & Lady O over the summer in Chicago. I also have some of my self play videos up. From self-cock sucking, wetting my panties, toilet training, sissy maid shaving, and lots more. This past summer I also shot with Maya Sinstress, Madame Ingrid and a few other femdom's.
ALSO
I have a Images4sale store. HTTP://IMAGES4SALE.COM/47506
Here you will get full picture sets from video shoots and some additional never seen pictures.
The first picture set I have up is from this past summer where I shot with Lady Maria & Miss Xena. 3 of the 4 videos and we shot where outdoors in the public eye and there are 62 unseen pictures. That's a lot of masturbation material!
When it comes to videos, if you want to see anything specific then send me an email. Morgankeni4@gmail.com
Whether it's a femdom scene, self-play, or featuring someone else. Feel free to contact me and I'll see what I can do.
Last night marked 7 days in chastity and I also got my test scores back from my Management: Organization Behaviors class. This is definitely my hardest class but it's also my favorite and I love the teachers, teaching style! Let me just say I don't get test scores like this so this made my whole week!
I did the best in the class and only got 1 question wrong. On top of that I got extra credit earlier in the week and so I got 100% on this super hard test. I couldn't believe it!
So, as you can see I work hard at kink and I work hard at school. Because I did so well on my test I think my Top was being nice to me. I asked if I could fuck myself with a dildo for 5 minutes. She said yes, but she wanted to watch on Skype. Out came the stopwatch and she watched me attempt to enjoy some anal pleasure with my cock all locked up. It was lovely :)
I'm excited to see her soon!
Just for fun here are a few butt pictures of me. 2 days ago I wet my purple lace panties for some enjoyment & the video is on http://clips4sale.com/47506 Also here is a picture of my butt in my "Sure Thing" panties when I woke up this morning.
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Thursday, September 22, 2011
DC Mixup & Chastity
Last weekend I went to DC with Bobcat. I had some session work as a male bottom. We didn't end up leaving until about 3am Friday night/Saturday morning. We made fantastic time on our way there and home for that matter. We made it in under 5 hours both ways and it's about 350 miles of driving. It helps to travel at night too when there is no one on the road. So we get into DC and I take an hour nap which didn't help me out very much. My contacts had been driving me nuts and a headache was brewing. I go to meet my client and there happened to be a big festival going on, on the same street. Now this client that I see all the time I have a lot of trust in him. I've been seeing him for about a year now and I have no worries. However, another client of mine does cause me to worry a bit. So the reason Bobcat came with Me was to be my security.
Now because of the festival my client was running late however Bobcat didn't know this. We normally session for about 2 hours but because my client was having trouble finding parking we got a late start. So, from Bobcat's perspective he began to worry because I was about 45 minutes over how long I said I would be. (The thing is, I wasn't concerned about this particular client). Next thing I know Bobcat is ringing the door bell to make sure I'm alive. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! I was laughing but at the same time I was like Noooooooooo.
Bobcat told my client that I had to text him and tell him I was ok otherwise he wasn't going to leave. My client handled all of this really well and it all worked out in the end. He actually knows of the client that I have some issues with and understands why I had "security" with me. In the end it's a funny story and I respect Bobcat for being concerned. You have to remember that when I do sessions where I'm a submissive I have to be cautious. I allow clients to tie me up, beat me, humiliate me etc. In the end my safety and well being comes first.
After the session my contacts were still hurting me but we got some food and a one beer at the festival. We went to the hotel and took a nap. I felt a bit better but ended up taking my contacts out and I don't have glasses at the moment so I was rather blind. We went to a few bars in the Adams Morgan neighborhood but neither of us drank much because we had to get up semi early in the morning. Sunday I woke up and felt 100 times worse than the day before. Ultimately I had to cancel a few sessions because I just wasn't feeling well all weekend. I really didn't start to feel better until about 36 hours after being home. I did get a few new boxer briefs and shirts though. Got a shirt from Urban Outfitters and from Express. I also got some red boxer briefs from Express and pink boxer briefs from Urban Outfitters.
I will be back in DC either the 2nd or 3rd week of October. I may also make a pit stop in Pittsburgh and taking a few sessions on the Friday of the weekend I leave for DC.
I've been out of chastity for a week now. My cock needed some healing time as I hurt it doing some self-bondage. With that said, I have the smaller cage and it's ready to go. Tonight I will be locked up again. My Top thinks she's going to be in town in about 2 - 2 1/2 weeks and that's when I will be released. We'll see how this go around goes.... should be fun for her and torturous for me.
Also for the male subs who may want to serve a TG Domme I am taking sessions here in Athens, Ohio. I actually have a few later this week and next week. Email me at morgankeni4@gmail.com to inquire.
-- I was just locked in chastity as of 7:20pm east coast time (Wednesday night).
Now because of the festival my client was running late however Bobcat didn't know this. We normally session for about 2 hours but because my client was having trouble finding parking we got a late start. So, from Bobcat's perspective he began to worry because I was about 45 minutes over how long I said I would be. (The thing is, I wasn't concerned about this particular client). Next thing I know Bobcat is ringing the door bell to make sure I'm alive. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! I was laughing but at the same time I was like Noooooooooo.
Bobcat told my client that I had to text him and tell him I was ok otherwise he wasn't going to leave. My client handled all of this really well and it all worked out in the end. He actually knows of the client that I have some issues with and understands why I had "security" with me. In the end it's a funny story and I respect Bobcat for being concerned. You have to remember that when I do sessions where I'm a submissive I have to be cautious. I allow clients to tie me up, beat me, humiliate me etc. In the end my safety and well being comes first.
After the session my contacts were still hurting me but we got some food and a one beer at the festival. We went to the hotel and took a nap. I felt a bit better but ended up taking my contacts out and I don't have glasses at the moment so I was rather blind. We went to a few bars in the Adams Morgan neighborhood but neither of us drank much because we had to get up semi early in the morning. Sunday I woke up and felt 100 times worse than the day before. Ultimately I had to cancel a few sessions because I just wasn't feeling well all weekend. I really didn't start to feel better until about 36 hours after being home. I did get a few new boxer briefs and shirts though. Got a shirt from Urban Outfitters and from Express. I also got some red boxer briefs from Express and pink boxer briefs from Urban Outfitters.
I will be back in DC either the 2nd or 3rd week of October. I may also make a pit stop in Pittsburgh and taking a few sessions on the Friday of the weekend I leave for DC.
I've been out of chastity for a week now. My cock needed some healing time as I hurt it doing some self-bondage. With that said, I have the smaller cage and it's ready to go. Tonight I will be locked up again. My Top thinks she's going to be in town in about 2 - 2 1/2 weeks and that's when I will be released. We'll see how this go around goes.... should be fun for her and torturous for me.
Also for the male subs who may want to serve a TG Domme I am taking sessions here in Athens, Ohio. I actually have a few later this week and next week. Email me at morgankeni4@gmail.com to inquire.
-- I was just locked in chastity as of 7:20pm east coast time (Wednesday night).
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Chastity Freedom = Chicken Sex
WARNING: THIS POST INCLUDES SOME THINGS THAT MAY POSSIBLY OFFEND SOME PEOPLE. READ & OBSERVE WITH CAUTION
Last night I was allowed to orgasm for the first time in 15 days and 8 hours. I had been in chastity all that time and my previous posts detail this. As you may know my play partner lives in Chicago and so when we don't see each other in person we talk and sometimes play on webcam. All the pictures in this post were taken by her, on her end of the webcam - she did a good job! Also let me say that some of the best joy I got out of last night was that she also enjoyed it. She kept saying that she was bizarrely becoming eroticized and that has to be the best part of it. To be able to mutually enjoy our dirty doings together - just on opposite sides of the spectrum.
Now to the juicy details....
For starters she was dressed incredibly sexy and she has the art of the tease down pretty well. She instructs me to unlock myself and that was the first time I got to really see my cock in over 2 weeks. It was FREE! She had me purchase a full chicken and I had made some Piss Pudding as well however this time it didn't thicken up and so it was too liquidy to use so the PPP didn't see any action. I opened up the chicken and she wanted me to skin the chicken. That took about 5 or so minutes because she wanted me to get a large portion of the skin in one whole piece. Once it was finally skinned the skin was put to the side just for a moment. Then she had me pull out some markers and "do up" the chicken.
First I was told to draw on some nipples and then some pussy hair followed by a sign that said "Insert Penis" with an arrow towards the neck hole. The neck whole was tighter and more like a pussy. Every girl likes foreplay so she had me caress her nipples. I then moved "her" and myself to the bed. I was told to take the skin and wrap it around my cock like a chicken skin condom or perhaps you like the idea of a "Silence Of The Lambs" reference better.
Then she said the words, "Put it in" and so I did. Back and forth, turning "her" out. Pounding "her" good to the delights of my top. It actually felt pretty good. Maybe that was because I had been in chastity for 15 days and maybe it was because it was slimy and semi tight like a pussy. "She" gripped my cock pretty well but I was turning her out as she started to fall apart a bit. Even thought it felt good it wasn't quite tight enough for me to orgasm. I was told to pull my cock out and wrap the skin around my cock better. Then to jack off right onto "her"aka the chicken. This didn't take long at all. Maybe and I mean maybe 30 seconds. I came all over and I always know when I have a really good orgasm because one of my eyes twitch. You better believe my eye was twitching, specifically my right eye.
Today I was sifting through the pictures she sent me and I was laughing and saying - Ugh - that's gross to myself. It's always good when you can laugh at yourself. Overall I loved it and I love that she loved it!
I've been out of chastity since last night and I will be out until Sunday sometime. Then I will be locked up again, and probably for a longer period of time. Hopefully my top makes it to Ohio in October and we get to play in person. I have today, tomorrow and Saturday to cum all I want. I haven't cum a 2nd time yet but I've been in school all day so I'm definitely going to take advantage of this opportunity.
Also my smaller cage came in so I will be wearing that device this go around. It will keep me smaller and probably prevent me from getting hard - which is the point. I leave for D.C. Friday night and will be there Saturday for work. Going to the Steelers bar in Bethesda, Maryland Sunday for the Steelers game and then I'll be back home.
Here are a bunch of pictures.
Last night I was allowed to orgasm for the first time in 15 days and 8 hours. I had been in chastity all that time and my previous posts detail this. As you may know my play partner lives in Chicago and so when we don't see each other in person we talk and sometimes play on webcam. All the pictures in this post were taken by her, on her end of the webcam - she did a good job! Also let me say that some of the best joy I got out of last night was that she also enjoyed it. She kept saying that she was bizarrely becoming eroticized and that has to be the best part of it. To be able to mutually enjoy our dirty doings together - just on opposite sides of the spectrum.
Now to the juicy details....
For starters she was dressed incredibly sexy and she has the art of the tease down pretty well. She instructs me to unlock myself and that was the first time I got to really see my cock in over 2 weeks. It was FREE! She had me purchase a full chicken and I had made some Piss Pudding as well however this time it didn't thicken up and so it was too liquidy to use so the PPP didn't see any action. I opened up the chicken and she wanted me to skin the chicken. That took about 5 or so minutes because she wanted me to get a large portion of the skin in one whole piece. Once it was finally skinned the skin was put to the side just for a moment. Then she had me pull out some markers and "do up" the chicken.
First I was told to draw on some nipples and then some pussy hair followed by a sign that said "Insert Penis" with an arrow towards the neck hole. The neck whole was tighter and more like a pussy. Every girl likes foreplay so she had me caress her nipples. I then moved "her" and myself to the bed. I was told to take the skin and wrap it around my cock like a chicken skin condom or perhaps you like the idea of a "Silence Of The Lambs" reference better.
Then she said the words, "Put it in" and so I did. Back and forth, turning "her" out. Pounding "her" good to the delights of my top. It actually felt pretty good. Maybe that was because I had been in chastity for 15 days and maybe it was because it was slimy and semi tight like a pussy. "She" gripped my cock pretty well but I was turning her out as she started to fall apart a bit. Even thought it felt good it wasn't quite tight enough for me to orgasm. I was told to pull my cock out and wrap the skin around my cock better. Then to jack off right onto "her"aka the chicken. This didn't take long at all. Maybe and I mean maybe 30 seconds. I came all over and I always know when I have a really good orgasm because one of my eyes twitch. You better believe my eye was twitching, specifically my right eye.
Today I was sifting through the pictures she sent me and I was laughing and saying - Ugh - that's gross to myself. It's always good when you can laugh at yourself. Overall I loved it and I love that she loved it!
I've been out of chastity since last night and I will be out until Sunday sometime. Then I will be locked up again, and probably for a longer period of time. Hopefully my top makes it to Ohio in October and we get to play in person. I have today, tomorrow and Saturday to cum all I want. I haven't cum a 2nd time yet but I've been in school all day so I'm definitely going to take advantage of this opportunity.
Also my smaller cage came in so I will be wearing that device this go around. It will keep me smaller and probably prevent me from getting hard - which is the point. I leave for D.C. Friday night and will be there Saturday for work. Going to the Steelers bar in Bethesda, Maryland Sunday for the Steelers game and then I'll be back home.
Here are a bunch of pictures.
SKINNING
DRAWING
REMOVING DEVICE
CHICKEN MODELING
FOREPLAY
SKIN CONDUM
PUTTING IT IN
FUCKING
CUMING
PA-5000 CAGE SIZE DIFFERENCE
Saturday, September 10, 2011
Piss Pudding Pie & Chastity
Wednesday night was a kink filled self play night full of cock torture and bizarre humiliation. Tuesday was my 25th Birthday but all I did was go to class all day on a little sleep and then I came home and took a long nap. However, I did have a little free time to make some P.P.P. (I bet you can't guess what that is) Piss Pudding Pie. I had a little inspiration from my good friend VonLivid because I know she has some bodily waste cooking recipes. So, I made one myself. After I cooked it on the stove I let it cool and settle in my fridge until Wednesday evening.
I didn't want to just grab a spoon and a knife to eat it. I was worried that if it tasted bad I wouldn't eat it and that just defeated the purpose of making it. I also tried making a piss frosting however that didn't turn out very good. None the less I held onto it and combined it into my play.
I put on my head harness. Then I put on my big (stained) pink dildo and wore it like a strap-on. I pulled my chastised cock back between my legs with a leash. Attached the hook of the leash to the chastity ring and connected it to a towel rack in my bathroom. Then I attached another leash to my head harness and tied it off to the other side of the room. That left me on my knees and 100% balancing ALL of my body weight on my head harness and my chastised cock. It wasn't easy at all. My legs were shaking before I really even got started.
I cut 1/4 of the pie and put it into one doggie dish. Then poured a good amount of the (not so good) piss frosting into another bowl. I then tied both of my hands behind my back. So I truly was only supported by my cock and head harness. I also tried to tape my nose shut so I wouldn't smell what I was eating however it began to fall off and the smell wasn't so bad.
I took a deep breath and then "forced" myself to eat the PPP out of the doggie dish. Every time I ate I was pulling more and more on my cock. It hurt but I continued to eat and eat. I was nervous that it would taste really bad but to be honest it wasn't that bad. It also had a graham cracker crust. I definitely smelled and tasted the urine however I was able to eat it. I ate a large portion of it and then thought lets taste the "frosting". I tried it and immediately started to gag. Not sure if my followers know this but I have a HORRIBLE and I mean HORRIBLE gag reflex. It just happens. I've thrown up on so many videos it's ridiculous. I mean just ask Lexi Sindel, Maya Sinstress, and so many others.
I didn't throw up but it took a lot for me to not throw up. I had to struggle out of the bondage to keep myself from puking every where. So the scene ended a bit abruptly but I still enjoyed it.
However, I accidently hurt my cock. I put way to much pressure on it and that night I woke up in the middle of the night with my cock throbbing where the piercing is. So I had to change the rings. I had a 4 gauge ring in and put in an 8. I didn't take off the device but did change the ring so the next day I told my top and of course that didn't make her happy. So I know there will be in some trouble for that. Today is Saturday morning and it's still hurting, there was a tad bit of blood as well.
Last night my top and I skyped for a long time and it was great. It was great just to see one another as it's been about a month now. We set up an online play date for Wednesday :). I go to D.C. next weekend so I have to take off the device to do kinky work. So Wednesday I get to cum and that will be 15 days of chastity for me. it will also give my cock a chance to heal a bit. After I'm done working in D.C. I am to put on the new small cage that I ordered. Same device, just a smaller cage that should keep me from getting any sort of an erection or at least a smaller one.
My top told me that I am to buy these items for our play date. A raw whole chicken. To make another P.P.P. and stuff the chicken with it. Then to also get a apple or cherry pie. I know she has many other things in mind as well. This is why our play styles line up so well though. We're both creative, filthy minded, and I'm excited to do anything that is needed on Wednesday in order to orgasm. :)
Enjoy the Pictures
I didn't want to just grab a spoon and a knife to eat it. I was worried that if it tasted bad I wouldn't eat it and that just defeated the purpose of making it. I also tried making a piss frosting however that didn't turn out very good. None the less I held onto it and combined it into my play.
I put on my head harness. Then I put on my big (stained) pink dildo and wore it like a strap-on. I pulled my chastised cock back between my legs with a leash. Attached the hook of the leash to the chastity ring and connected it to a towel rack in my bathroom. Then I attached another leash to my head harness and tied it off to the other side of the room. That left me on my knees and 100% balancing ALL of my body weight on my head harness and my chastised cock. It wasn't easy at all. My legs were shaking before I really even got started.
I cut 1/4 of the pie and put it into one doggie dish. Then poured a good amount of the (not so good) piss frosting into another bowl. I then tied both of my hands behind my back. So I truly was only supported by my cock and head harness. I also tried to tape my nose shut so I wouldn't smell what I was eating however it began to fall off and the smell wasn't so bad.
I took a deep breath and then "forced" myself to eat the PPP out of the doggie dish. Every time I ate I was pulling more and more on my cock. It hurt but I continued to eat and eat. I was nervous that it would taste really bad but to be honest it wasn't that bad. It also had a graham cracker crust. I definitely smelled and tasted the urine however I was able to eat it. I ate a large portion of it and then thought lets taste the "frosting". I tried it and immediately started to gag. Not sure if my followers know this but I have a HORRIBLE and I mean HORRIBLE gag reflex. It just happens. I've thrown up on so many videos it's ridiculous. I mean just ask Lexi Sindel, Maya Sinstress, and so many others.
I didn't throw up but it took a lot for me to not throw up. I had to struggle out of the bondage to keep myself from puking every where. So the scene ended a bit abruptly but I still enjoyed it.
However, I accidently hurt my cock. I put way to much pressure on it and that night I woke up in the middle of the night with my cock throbbing where the piercing is. So I had to change the rings. I had a 4 gauge ring in and put in an 8. I didn't take off the device but did change the ring so the next day I told my top and of course that didn't make her happy. So I know there will be in some trouble for that. Today is Saturday morning and it's still hurting, there was a tad bit of blood as well.
Last night my top and I skyped for a long time and it was great. It was great just to see one another as it's been about a month now. We set up an online play date for Wednesday :). I go to D.C. next weekend so I have to take off the device to do kinky work. So Wednesday I get to cum and that will be 15 days of chastity for me. it will also give my cock a chance to heal a bit. After I'm done working in D.C. I am to put on the new small cage that I ordered. Same device, just a smaller cage that should keep me from getting any sort of an erection or at least a smaller one.
My top told me that I am to buy these items for our play date. A raw whole chicken. To make another P.P.P. and stuff the chicken with it. Then to also get a apple or cherry pie. I know she has many other things in mind as well. This is why our play styles line up so well though. We're both creative, filthy minded, and I'm excited to do anything that is needed on Wednesday in order to orgasm. :)
Enjoy the Pictures
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