The morning of day 65 I went to work. It was just like any other morning except that I knew what day 65 was... It was my last day in chastity prior to being released but it was also a day of "hell" as in She was going to do anything She felt like doing to me.
Ironically enough, I couldn't wait for the work day to end and for me to get home. I was told to grab a bite to eat and then it was to begin.
About 7pm I was told I have 20 minutes to do all my makeup. 20 minutes!!! In my head I was thinking I'm only going to be half done with 20 minutes. But, I kicked it in gear and got my makeup done while She packed a bunch of goodies into the kink bag. I didn't even think to look at what She was packing although I really didn't want to know either. I knew that we were leaving the house but I wasn't sure where we were going. She was clad in one of Her new corsets and sexy, black Domme attire so I figured we were either going to the dungeon or someone's house.
We arrive at the dungeon and I'm escorted into a red room and told to put on black stockings, garter belt, crotchless black panties, black bra and my new black heels (which She by the way made me try on at the store a few days prior). I got all dressed up and then just waited and waited which seemed like an eternity because I knew that bad things were about to happen to me and I was waiting in anxiety and anxiousness. Then She walks in, puts a collar around my neck, attaches a leash and tugs at it while She walks me out of the room. No words, just a look, a glare and I followed.
Through one room and into another and there's a hooded person with a camera. Yes, all of this was captured on video. I didn't know who that person was though. I walked into a corner and was put on my knees facing out looking into the room. I look at Her and then that's when I noticed out the corner of my eye there were 2 more men to the left of the room. I knew what was to come next... but first She had me announce to them the situation.
"How long have you been in chastity?"
Me: 65 days
"Tell Me, what do you have to do for Me to earn release from chastity on day 66?"
Me: Anything You want Daddy.
And so it began. The 2 men walk over to me. She says, "The dicks aren't going to pull themselves out". So I nervously start to un-button their pants. Dicks flop out, condoms are put on and I start sucking one of them. But I didn't think to pay attention to the other dick but She pointed that out quickly so I'd be sucking on one and stroking the other. One dick was rather big while the other wasn't. I got both of them hard rather quickly and I then I was left alone to suck their cocks for maybe a minute or so but soon after my head was being forced down both of their cocks as She grabbed me by my hair and started shoving my face down their cocks.
I was drooling, gagging, tears running down my face, snot bubbling out my nose but I was still sucking and jerking and then one of the men yell out, "I'm going to cum" and he shoots his load all over my face. Soon as he is done cuming I'm directed back onto the large cock and bobbing my head on his cock. I was running out of breath as She was slamming my throat down on his cock to their point where I was deep throating him over and over. It had to be another 1-2 minutes until he cumed all over my face as well.
I was a hot mess, literally. Couldn't open one of my eyes due to all the cum in it, cum in my hair that was stuck to my face, cum up my nose and on my lips. Lipstick smeared on my face, tears had run down my face and my eye makeup was smeared all over as well. I was literally left there on the floor with my real consciousness of what was going on. I was just used and abused by 2 men for my owner as they were escorted out. Then I'm picked up by my hair and essentially dragged out as I teeter on my heels to the red room that I started in.
She says, "Don't touch your face but change clothes, the night just started".
Fast forward as we get home...
She straps on Her dick and shoves it down my throat. Get it straight, I suck Her cock all the time and it was only right that I sucked Her dick as well. But this wasn't no 'gentle' cock sucking. She wanted to ravage my throat the way the 2 men did, if not harder. Immediately, I deep throat her 8 inch thick cock and time and time again she shoves it back down, balls deep on her cock with each time being a harder thrust. Within seconds, blood is coming out of my mouth and my blood is covering her cock. She throat fucked me so hard I cut open my throat on Her cock. We both noticed it, but that didn't matter....
"Lick your blood off my cock", She said. And then I would have my throat fucked again. She orders me off Her cock after I clean up all my blood off of it and orders me into the bathroom. I'm on my knees and in She comes with the open mouth, dental gag. She forces my mouth wide open and has my head back. She pisses her warm piss into a glass right in front of me and I know what is next.
(( I have difficulty drinking piss because I have a very bad gag reflux so as many love such a gesture, She knows that this is a form of torture and humiliation for me))
With no hesitation she starts pouring Her piss from the glass down my wide open throat. It fills up my entire mouth and then starts to overflow out of my mouth as the reminder trickles down my throat and I soon begin to gag. As I gag I choke on Her piss and swallow more. I'm struggling and weak and as soon as there is more room in my mouth to take more She pours the rest into my mouth. I choke, gag, moan, struggle and even start to puke a bit, but I know even that would be forced back down my throat.
I'm left on the floor just a complete mess, used, abused, tired, sore, degraded but She wasn't done with me. I'm ordered to sit on the floor with my legs outwards and She tells me that I've earned release from the Chastity cage that I've been in for 65 days. Out come the keys and piece by piece She removes my cage. My cock is throbbing and I'm excited but I'm also beat, mentally, emotionally, and physically. She turns on the Hitachi and laughs as She talked about how quickly She expects me to cum. She puts the Hitachi on my cock and it took maybe 10 seconds max, I ask for permission to cum but She says no, not yet.
What!!!!! (I'm thinking in my head, She keeps the Hitachi on my cock the entire time, I can't hold it any longer and I start cuming everywhere and then She punches my cock really hard. I twist to turn away as I moan in ecstasy and pain and She punches my cock again and again and again. What a ruined orgasm that was and then all the cum of my big load was dripped and rubbed into my mouth.
And that's when She cuts the camera but not because She was down with me but because what was done next is not allowed on film.
Her and I have a bucket list of things we want to do together. Full toilet has been on their awhile but once again, my gag reflux is really bad. Still bound from before I'm told to get on my knees with them spread. I think it my head ok, maybe She's not doing full toilet.... in turned out just not yet. She get's after my nipples with very strong clamps. (I have sensitive nipples) The combination of the entire night and then Her abusing my nipples all the while I have a new open mouth gag that has a round, smaller hole and it couldn't be pushed out of my mouth by me even if I tried. I literally just began to cry and cry and cry as She abused my nipples. It was a hopeless cry, a tired cry, an then She stopped only to instruct me to lay on my back.
Keep in mind that I still have the open mouth gag on and as I lay on the floor She stands over me and laughs as She says, "Oh, you know what's next". She squats Her naked body over me and her ass directly above my mouth, and the open gag and shit's into my mouth.
She didn't shit a lot but She knows me and my gag reflux and it was enough. Now the real humiliation and degradation began. I tried to swallow but started to gag and I found it near impossible to swallow with the gag so She removed it and told me to swallow. I tried but kept failing to the point where I had it half down and then threw up. She put my face in the shit and my puke now on the ground. The torment and then the time challenge and threat was announced.
I was told that I have 10 seconds to eat and swallow the shit. If I don't swallow it then I'm going to be chained to the toilet in the shit and puke and not allowed to shower. I knew She wasn't joking either and I couldn't let that happen tonight. So I some how slurped my own puke and Her shit off the ground in a couple of bites and it came down to the wire. As She counted "2, 1". I yelled with all the I had left in me, "It's down, it's down, look in my mouth!"
And then it was over.... I didn't move for 5-10 minutes. I was spent in every way.
I mean the idea of having me orgasm and then torture me more was brilliant on Her end.
(BTW, this is my 100th post to my blog. I must say it's the perfect post for #100)
Pictures to come. We are in Chicago right now for a few more days.
The video will also be released on her website: Mistress Tangent
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Monday, June 2, 2014
Friday, May 2, 2014
Forced Sissy Blowjob to Completion
A night of Humiliation, Degradation, Shame, Embarrassment...
(To Clarify as some have asked. Daddy is a She, She is my owner. The 2 of us have adopted the roles of She is the Daddy and I am Her girl. So throughout my posts you may see me refer to Her as She and as Daddy)
While at work I got a phone call that once I got home I was going to be all dolled up for Daddy (Wednesday night).
She had gone out and gotten me a brand new wig (sometimes I put in hair extensions), got me some new breast forms among other things. She also brought back some of my things that I still had in my NYC apartment when she was in NYC last week. Some of those things included my pink sissy dress, so I decided to wear that. I thought the night was going to be just me and her, like it usually is but after I was all ready; makeup, hair, lingerie, high heels, locking wrist cuffs, locking heel cuffs, my collar and locked in my dress I was told that our guest would be here soon.
I was told to pull a chair into the bedroom and put it in the corner and face it towards the bed, then to sit down. I was tied with my hands behind the back of the chair and my feet in high heels bound together and then my legs bound back to the chair. The doorbell rang and out She went to answer the door. I was in the room for about 15-20 minutes by myself.
In She walked with a submissive behind Her on a collar and leash. She strapped on "Pink Princess" about a 5 inch pink dildo into her harness.
All the while just sitting there knowing what She was going to make me do that night my heart was racing. I had a bit of anxiety and lots of nervousness but I didn't want that to show. As I calmed myself down a bit I began to get aroused in my cage. BTW today marks day 48 in chastity.
The submissive was bent over a bench about 10 feet in front me and Daddy asked me how long it's been since She's fucked me. I said, "Over 50 days" Then She began telling the submissive that he better take her cock good otherwise the sissy (me) wasn't going to give him a blow job at the end.
That's when my stomach sank a bit and more nerves crept in. It's been drilled into my head that this day would come and that I HAVE TO DO A GOOD JOB otherwise I don't get to cum on day 66.
Then She stuck her cock into the submissive bound to the bench. She began slow as he doesn't take large cocks and I began to get jealous. Wanting Her to be fucking me. I know that She loves to fuck me and that this was torment. I was rocking a bit in my chair wishing it was me, but with a bigger dick, or Her feeldoe. She then put on a smaller dick that She could fuck him harder with. She would glance at me with these looks oh "don't you wish this was you?"
Smaller dick on, She started to fuck him hard, he was moaning and I was begging silently. About 10 minutes later She stopped walked over to me and untied me. Told me to walk next to the submissive who was on his belling/all 4's on the bench and for me to lay down and put my head between his legs where his cock and balls hung over my face.
Let me tell you, the fear that was in me in that moment. But I was there to impress Daddy. Then She got close and put Her dick in his ass and I was told to suck on his balls while she pounded him in the ass. He was clean shaven so that was nice. I opened up my mouth and sucked on his balls. His cock started to drip cum on my forehead and into my hair and eye. I kind of felt like moaning but I didn't, I stayed to course.
Daddy stopped, backed up and told the submissive to sit up and me get on my knees. She handcuffed his hands behind his back and stood over me from the side and ordered me to start sucking. I could hear Her in the background saying things like, "Is she doing a good job?" Let her know if she needs to change anything" "Teach her, because she has to learn how to suck cock for me" etc. I focused on Her voice and tried to suck his cock the way I suck Daddy's cock regularly.
There I was on my knees, head bobbing up and down and this man's cock. He had a rather big dick, maybe 8 inches and thick. He was already dripping when I put my lips on it. It helped me to keep my eyes closed most of the time. If I started to gag a bit I'd pull my head off of his cock and keep stroking with my hand. I felt like I was doing a good job and every time Daddy asked the submissive if I was doing a good job he would reply with, "Yes, she's a good sissy". But at the same time I wasn't really sure if I was doing a good job. I lost track of time and started to think should he have cum already? I hope Daddy doesn't punish me for doing a bad job.
But then, I hear the submissive saying I'm going to cum and with his cock in the back of my throat he spurts a big load in my mouth. Maybe 2-3 shots and I swallow immediately just as I started to gag a little bit and was getting a bit grossed out at the same time. When I shut my eyes it helps me not be grossed out by the act of what I'm doing. I pulled his cock out of my mouth and kept stroking it as he shot another load onto my face and in my eyes. Only a few drops fell on the bench and Daddy told me to lick it up, so I did.
I was left on my knees and he was escorted out of the bedroom and soon after left.
Daddy came back in the room and didn't say much at first. Maybe 10 minutes later I was on the bathroom floor and She asked me what I thought of him. I said, he seemed nice enough but I don't know what I'm supposed to think about him because I didn't talk with him any.
She replies, "Good, you're going to be seeing more of him". I literally just couldn't say anything, I didn't like the idea of that and still don't. The only aspect of that idea that I enjoy is that I'm doing it for Her. In the next hour or so I began to get a little sad. I had just done something I had never done and it was something very extreme. It's allowing myself to be that vulnerable, that controlled, that owned and it wasn't easy at all for me to do.
After a little while She brought me back to "normal" I guess you could say. One thing most people don't know is that Daddy has what we refer to as a "darkside". Meaning, She knows how to and sometimes will break me. She's done it before and as we went to bed that night I knew I was a little broken. I love parts of Her darkside, as does She. But it's something we are both learning to operate within. Me and Her are great together because our interests are both all over the map and we both push each other. In the midst of pushing each other we find each others boundaries and not all play is cupcakes and candy. Lots of our play is hardcore, envelope pushing that in reality arouses the both of us to extremes.
Day 65, aka May 19th has been labeled "Day of Hell". I already know I'm going to be put through the ringer to earn Day 66, my release date from chastity and no anal. Truth is, I have no idea what She has in store. Truth is I'm scared shitless, truth is I'm aroused by all of that and I know She is as well. Something tells me She's going to break me and make me keep going and push through for Her.
And I will push through for Her.
Here are 4 pics.
1) Me on all fours over Daddy in my new black crotchless panties and in chastity of course.
2) Me dolled up from Wednesday sucking Daddy's cock.
3) Picture of the bows She tied on the back of my dress (Wednesday night)
4) Photo of me right before all the action (Wednesday night)
You can read my Owner's blog at Mistress Tangent
(To Clarify as some have asked. Daddy is a She, She is my owner. The 2 of us have adopted the roles of She is the Daddy and I am Her girl. So throughout my posts you may see me refer to Her as She and as Daddy)
While at work I got a phone call that once I got home I was going to be all dolled up for Daddy (Wednesday night).
She had gone out and gotten me a brand new wig (sometimes I put in hair extensions), got me some new breast forms among other things. She also brought back some of my things that I still had in my NYC apartment when she was in NYC last week. Some of those things included my pink sissy dress, so I decided to wear that. I thought the night was going to be just me and her, like it usually is but after I was all ready; makeup, hair, lingerie, high heels, locking wrist cuffs, locking heel cuffs, my collar and locked in my dress I was told that our guest would be here soon.
I was told to pull a chair into the bedroom and put it in the corner and face it towards the bed, then to sit down. I was tied with my hands behind the back of the chair and my feet in high heels bound together and then my legs bound back to the chair. The doorbell rang and out She went to answer the door. I was in the room for about 15-20 minutes by myself.
In She walked with a submissive behind Her on a collar and leash. She strapped on "Pink Princess" about a 5 inch pink dildo into her harness.
All the while just sitting there knowing what She was going to make me do that night my heart was racing. I had a bit of anxiety and lots of nervousness but I didn't want that to show. As I calmed myself down a bit I began to get aroused in my cage. BTW today marks day 48 in chastity.
The submissive was bent over a bench about 10 feet in front me and Daddy asked me how long it's been since She's fucked me. I said, "Over 50 days" Then She began telling the submissive that he better take her cock good otherwise the sissy (me) wasn't going to give him a blow job at the end.
That's when my stomach sank a bit and more nerves crept in. It's been drilled into my head that this day would come and that I HAVE TO DO A GOOD JOB otherwise I don't get to cum on day 66.
Then She stuck her cock into the submissive bound to the bench. She began slow as he doesn't take large cocks and I began to get jealous. Wanting Her to be fucking me. I know that She loves to fuck me and that this was torment. I was rocking a bit in my chair wishing it was me, but with a bigger dick, or Her feeldoe. She then put on a smaller dick that She could fuck him harder with. She would glance at me with these looks oh "don't you wish this was you?"
Smaller dick on, She started to fuck him hard, he was moaning and I was begging silently. About 10 minutes later She stopped walked over to me and untied me. Told me to walk next to the submissive who was on his belling/all 4's on the bench and for me to lay down and put my head between his legs where his cock and balls hung over my face.
Let me tell you, the fear that was in me in that moment. But I was there to impress Daddy. Then She got close and put Her dick in his ass and I was told to suck on his balls while she pounded him in the ass. He was clean shaven so that was nice. I opened up my mouth and sucked on his balls. His cock started to drip cum on my forehead and into my hair and eye. I kind of felt like moaning but I didn't, I stayed to course.
Daddy stopped, backed up and told the submissive to sit up and me get on my knees. She handcuffed his hands behind his back and stood over me from the side and ordered me to start sucking. I could hear Her in the background saying things like, "Is she doing a good job?" Let her know if she needs to change anything" "Teach her, because she has to learn how to suck cock for me" etc. I focused on Her voice and tried to suck his cock the way I suck Daddy's cock regularly.
There I was on my knees, head bobbing up and down and this man's cock. He had a rather big dick, maybe 8 inches and thick. He was already dripping when I put my lips on it. It helped me to keep my eyes closed most of the time. If I started to gag a bit I'd pull my head off of his cock and keep stroking with my hand. I felt like I was doing a good job and every time Daddy asked the submissive if I was doing a good job he would reply with, "Yes, she's a good sissy". But at the same time I wasn't really sure if I was doing a good job. I lost track of time and started to think should he have cum already? I hope Daddy doesn't punish me for doing a bad job.
But then, I hear the submissive saying I'm going to cum and with his cock in the back of my throat he spurts a big load in my mouth. Maybe 2-3 shots and I swallow immediately just as I started to gag a little bit and was getting a bit grossed out at the same time. When I shut my eyes it helps me not be grossed out by the act of what I'm doing. I pulled his cock out of my mouth and kept stroking it as he shot another load onto my face and in my eyes. Only a few drops fell on the bench and Daddy told me to lick it up, so I did.
I was left on my knees and he was escorted out of the bedroom and soon after left.
Daddy came back in the room and didn't say much at first. Maybe 10 minutes later I was on the bathroom floor and She asked me what I thought of him. I said, he seemed nice enough but I don't know what I'm supposed to think about him because I didn't talk with him any.
She replies, "Good, you're going to be seeing more of him". I literally just couldn't say anything, I didn't like the idea of that and still don't. The only aspect of that idea that I enjoy is that I'm doing it for Her. In the next hour or so I began to get a little sad. I had just done something I had never done and it was something very extreme. It's allowing myself to be that vulnerable, that controlled, that owned and it wasn't easy at all for me to do.
After a little while She brought me back to "normal" I guess you could say. One thing most people don't know is that Daddy has what we refer to as a "darkside". Meaning, She knows how to and sometimes will break me. She's done it before and as we went to bed that night I knew I was a little broken. I love parts of Her darkside, as does She. But it's something we are both learning to operate within. Me and Her are great together because our interests are both all over the map and we both push each other. In the midst of pushing each other we find each others boundaries and not all play is cupcakes and candy. Lots of our play is hardcore, envelope pushing that in reality arouses the both of us to extremes.
Day 65, aka May 19th has been labeled "Day of Hell". I already know I'm going to be put through the ringer to earn Day 66, my release date from chastity and no anal. Truth is, I have no idea what She has in store. Truth is I'm scared shitless, truth is I'm aroused by all of that and I know She is as well. Something tells me She's going to break me and make me keep going and push through for Her.
And I will push through for Her.
Here are 4 pics.
1) Me on all fours over Daddy in my new black crotchless panties and in chastity of course.
2) Me dolled up from Wednesday sucking Daddy's cock.
3) Picture of the bows She tied on the back of my dress (Wednesday night)
4) Photo of me right before all the action (Wednesday night)
You can read my Owner's blog at Mistress Tangent
Saturday, April 12, 2014
It's Go Time - You're My Cuck Tonight
"It's Go time!!!!
Hurry up, grab the red bag, the bondage cuffs and make sure to wear cute panties.
Bring my strap-on and hurry up, it's Go time!!!"
That's the call I got on Sunday night after Miss aka my Daddy aka my owner was out at a BBQ and it was finally time. I was going to be her cuckold. For me it was a moment of excitement and nervousness. I started grabbing all of the necessary items as She requested and I got another phone call from Her saying to hurry up.
I arrived at the house where she was with him. I made sure I looked good that night, even though I knew what was about to happen there is still a sense of pride in me. I walked to the door, he had his shirt off already and was grabbing on her. A few knots in my stomach but overall it was a rather comfortable setting. We gathered in the kitchen and had a few drinks together to talk and get to know each other a little bit and to be honest, probably relax us all a bit. This was a first time for all of us.
When I saw them caress each other even standing I got knots in my stomach but I knew my place. We had to make a quick run to the store and Miss suggested that we all go. I was the driver, Miss slid in the back sear and for some reason I naturally thought he would get in the seat next to me up front but he got in the back seat with her. Of course, that made sense but for some reason it didn't cross my mind in the moment. We all chatted a bit, I was asked to turn up the music a bit and they made out. It was a very weird feeling for me. I was like nooooo but again I knew my place and I understood what was going on. I just drove and listened while at the same time could feel Miss's touch on my arm here and there.
We get back to the house, go into the living room and they start making out. I'm instructed to strip down to my panties and just watch. A few minutes later we step outside I'm told to sit/lay on the outside furtniture. Miss lays on top of me and he gets on top of her for more foreplay for a few minutes. He grabbed a quick smoke and we made our way to his bedroom.
I'm immediately told to get on my knees in the corner and it starts. He undresses her more, he gets undress and he even starts to ask me questions in a teasing way.
"You like it on your knees sissy?" - Yes.
"Oh, She feels so good, do you like watching me please your Miss?" Yes, please, please Her!
Foreplay continued and suddenly all I wanted was for him to please Her. Seriously, deep inside of me I wanted to see my Owner be pleased by another man. Me-on my knees, Her sissy just watching and yearning to see Her truly pleased. I was getting such a high, such a pleasure from all of this.
I could see the pleasure Miss was receiving from Her control, Her dominance, my submission and our bond. It was ecstasy!!!!!
The next time I'm sure will be sooner than later and it's something I'm looking forward to. It's something I'm not fearing because it was something we enjoyed together. That level of trust in each other, the attention to detail Miss gave me throughout by slight rubs on my arm, telling me to get closer, ordering me to show him how a sissy really sucks Her dick (strap-on), to having me get closer for a better view. There was a point where I got on all fours with my head down on the floor as I had gone into such a great sub space. I was Her slave to be done with as She pleased.
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Right now I write this 12 days after that night. Daddy is in California for the weekend working and I'm yearning for Daddy. Daddy is a name She has taken on, I'm her girl and She is my Daddy. And truth be it Daddy has a high level of masculine tendencies and I have a high level of feminine tendencies. We compliment each other very well in my facets and our BDSM side of our relationship is a part of our everyday, we are lifestyle. But more and more I'm becoming more comfortable with being Daddy's slave as well as Her girl. I can't explain the feeling it gives me inside and I can't explain how I need to please Daddy. It just is a part of me and it's a part of us.
On top of all this today is the 27th straight day in chastity. The previous longest I had ever gone is 13 days. Daddy told me I don't get out until day 66. Day 66!!!!! And I'm not allowed ANY anal of any kind until day 66.
As much as that # ran through my head for days I love that I'm challenged and I love that I'm able to please Daddy in the process. More to come on this and the life of Mistress Tangent (Daddy) and Autoeroticboy (girl) soon.
Below are pictures of the bruises I had on both of my thighs during the cuckold scene from a punishment and the chastity I was in during the scene and what I'm still in as I write this, 27 days in. The photo is from my last orgasm, I cam while in my CB from the hitachi.... 1st time EVER!
BTW.... I have not had an orgasm from a jacking off motion and or sex of any kind since February 1st. That's right, over 2 months ago.
That is devotion to my Owner.
Hurry up, grab the red bag, the bondage cuffs and make sure to wear cute panties.
Bring my strap-on and hurry up, it's Go time!!!"
That's the call I got on Sunday night after Miss aka my Daddy aka my owner was out at a BBQ and it was finally time. I was going to be her cuckold. For me it was a moment of excitement and nervousness. I started grabbing all of the necessary items as She requested and I got another phone call from Her saying to hurry up.
I arrived at the house where she was with him. I made sure I looked good that night, even though I knew what was about to happen there is still a sense of pride in me. I walked to the door, he had his shirt off already and was grabbing on her. A few knots in my stomach but overall it was a rather comfortable setting. We gathered in the kitchen and had a few drinks together to talk and get to know each other a little bit and to be honest, probably relax us all a bit. This was a first time for all of us.
When I saw them caress each other even standing I got knots in my stomach but I knew my place. We had to make a quick run to the store and Miss suggested that we all go. I was the driver, Miss slid in the back sear and for some reason I naturally thought he would get in the seat next to me up front but he got in the back seat with her. Of course, that made sense but for some reason it didn't cross my mind in the moment. We all chatted a bit, I was asked to turn up the music a bit and they made out. It was a very weird feeling for me. I was like nooooo but again I knew my place and I understood what was going on. I just drove and listened while at the same time could feel Miss's touch on my arm here and there.
We get back to the house, go into the living room and they start making out. I'm instructed to strip down to my panties and just watch. A few minutes later we step outside I'm told to sit/lay on the outside furtniture. Miss lays on top of me and he gets on top of her for more foreplay for a few minutes. He grabbed a quick smoke and we made our way to his bedroom.
I'm immediately told to get on my knees in the corner and it starts. He undresses her more, he gets undress and he even starts to ask me questions in a teasing way.
"You like it on your knees sissy?" - Yes.
"Oh, She feels so good, do you like watching me please your Miss?" Yes, please, please Her!
Foreplay continued and suddenly all I wanted was for him to please Her. Seriously, deep inside of me I wanted to see my Owner be pleased by another man. Me-on my knees, Her sissy just watching and yearning to see Her truly pleased. I was getting such a high, such a pleasure from all of this.
I could see the pleasure Miss was receiving from Her control, Her dominance, my submission and our bond. It was ecstasy!!!!!
The next time I'm sure will be sooner than later and it's something I'm looking forward to. It's something I'm not fearing because it was something we enjoyed together. That level of trust in each other, the attention to detail Miss gave me throughout by slight rubs on my arm, telling me to get closer, ordering me to show him how a sissy really sucks Her dick (strap-on), to having me get closer for a better view. There was a point where I got on all fours with my head down on the floor as I had gone into such a great sub space. I was Her slave to be done with as She pleased.
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Right now I write this 12 days after that night. Daddy is in California for the weekend working and I'm yearning for Daddy. Daddy is a name She has taken on, I'm her girl and She is my Daddy. And truth be it Daddy has a high level of masculine tendencies and I have a high level of feminine tendencies. We compliment each other very well in my facets and our BDSM side of our relationship is a part of our everyday, we are lifestyle. But more and more I'm becoming more comfortable with being Daddy's slave as well as Her girl. I can't explain the feeling it gives me inside and I can't explain how I need to please Daddy. It just is a part of me and it's a part of us.
On top of all this today is the 27th straight day in chastity. The previous longest I had ever gone is 13 days. Daddy told me I don't get out until day 66. Day 66!!!!! And I'm not allowed ANY anal of any kind until day 66.
As much as that # ran through my head for days I love that I'm challenged and I love that I'm able to please Daddy in the process. More to come on this and the life of Mistress Tangent (Daddy) and Autoeroticboy (girl) soon.
Below are pictures of the bruises I had on both of my thighs during the cuckold scene from a punishment and the chastity I was in during the scene and what I'm still in as I write this, 27 days in. The photo is from my last orgasm, I cam while in my CB from the hitachi.... 1st time EVER!
BTW.... I have not had an orgasm from a jacking off motion and or sex of any kind since February 1st. That's right, over 2 months ago.
That is devotion to my Owner.
Friday, January 11, 2013
I'm Seeking a D/s Relationship
I want/need to be in a D/s relationship.... I'm seeking to serve a Dominant Woman.
I turned 26 in September and many who read my blog would say to me that I live the dream life of a male submissive. I'm sure that is true on some levels. By the age of 26 I've accomplished quite a lot in the world of BDSM both lifestyle and professional. Ironically, on the professional side it's never been my full time job. I've been a fetish model since I was 20 but I was also in college. When I was in Chicago I was running a dungeon with my girlfriend at the time, traveling for fetish events and again all while in college. Now that my life is a bit more simple and I have a full time "career" job (I am still doing some fetish modeling) but I really want to be in a D/s relationship.
I've been in 2 serious D/s relationships in my time.
1st.) I was almost 19 and began serving a Pro Domme in Chicago by cleaning her dungeon twice a week. That progressed into many more duties and dynamics over time as I served her for a little over 1 1/2 years. (We are friends to this day).
2nd.) I began serving another Pro Domme in Chicago who was also very active in the lifestyle community in Chicago. Many months later we entered into a personal relationship where we were dating for 2 1/2 plus years.
Since then, I've been single. I really focused on school, transferred colleges to a different state. Graduated in 2 years when I was told it would take me 3 years. In September I moved to Arizona where I'll probably be here 1 1/2 - 3 years. Now that everything is lining up in my life it's time that I find someone that I can serve.
Yes, over the course of this blog and most of you who read it know me from my fetish videos and pictures etc. I'm as kinky as they come and with that I need D/s on a more personal level as well. I don't have strict guidelines of what I'm seeking but I do have an outline.
1. Compatibility
2. An attractiveness to one another
3. Be a well rounded Dominant (I'm extremely kinky, open minded & I'm looking to push my limits for a Dominant.)
4. Creativity
I've done a lot in kink. With that said there is so much I want to do. I feel like I've barely tapped into my life in kink. Kink to me is a lot more than play I really enjoy the psychological aspects of kink. Like a woman most things are mental for me.
The more your involved in the lifestyle the more your interests evolve. This is not a list of demands just a list of types of BDSM interests that play a role in my life now and interests that have evolved over time to where I have a large interest to explore now.
(Humiliation, total degradation, feminization, sissy, cuckold, chastity, orgasm control, anal stretching, strict slave protocols, 2 legged pony, toilet training, domestic slave, slave branding/tattoo, castration, bukkake, extreme rubber, trained to take a brutal caning, sensory deprivation, gimp, public humiliation, diaper humiliation, sleep restrictions, confinement, bondage and lots more). I can take pain and understand pain as part of BDSM but the aspects of BDSM that I truly love are mental control, slave protocols, complete and total humiliation and degradation as well as feminization.
If someone is interested in talking with me about possible servitude you can email me on Fetlife - Autoeroticboy or at my email Morgankeni4@gmail.com
I turned 26 in September and many who read my blog would say to me that I live the dream life of a male submissive. I'm sure that is true on some levels. By the age of 26 I've accomplished quite a lot in the world of BDSM both lifestyle and professional. Ironically, on the professional side it's never been my full time job. I've been a fetish model since I was 20 but I was also in college. When I was in Chicago I was running a dungeon with my girlfriend at the time, traveling for fetish events and again all while in college. Now that my life is a bit more simple and I have a full time "career" job (I am still doing some fetish modeling) but I really want to be in a D/s relationship.
I've been in 2 serious D/s relationships in my time.
1st.) I was almost 19 and began serving a Pro Domme in Chicago by cleaning her dungeon twice a week. That progressed into many more duties and dynamics over time as I served her for a little over 1 1/2 years. (We are friends to this day).
2nd.) I began serving another Pro Domme in Chicago who was also very active in the lifestyle community in Chicago. Many months later we entered into a personal relationship where we were dating for 2 1/2 plus years.
Since then, I've been single. I really focused on school, transferred colleges to a different state. Graduated in 2 years when I was told it would take me 3 years. In September I moved to Arizona where I'll probably be here 1 1/2 - 3 years. Now that everything is lining up in my life it's time that I find someone that I can serve.
Yes, over the course of this blog and most of you who read it know me from my fetish videos and pictures etc. I'm as kinky as they come and with that I need D/s on a more personal level as well. I don't have strict guidelines of what I'm seeking but I do have an outline.
1. Compatibility
2. An attractiveness to one another
3. Be a well rounded Dominant (I'm extremely kinky, open minded & I'm looking to push my limits for a Dominant.)
4. Creativity
I've done a lot in kink. With that said there is so much I want to do. I feel like I've barely tapped into my life in kink. Kink to me is a lot more than play I really enjoy the psychological aspects of kink. Like a woman most things are mental for me.
The more your involved in the lifestyle the more your interests evolve. This is not a list of demands just a list of types of BDSM interests that play a role in my life now and interests that have evolved over time to where I have a large interest to explore now.
(Humiliation, total degradation, feminization, sissy, cuckold, chastity, orgasm control, anal stretching, strict slave protocols, 2 legged pony, toilet training, domestic slave, slave branding/tattoo, castration, bukkake, extreme rubber, trained to take a brutal caning, sensory deprivation, gimp, public humiliation, diaper humiliation, sleep restrictions, confinement, bondage and lots more). I can take pain and understand pain as part of BDSM but the aspects of BDSM that I truly love are mental control, slave protocols, complete and total humiliation and degradation as well as feminization.
If someone is interested in talking with me about possible servitude you can email me on Fetlife - Autoeroticboy or at my email Morgankeni4@gmail.com
Sunday, April 29, 2012
KINK & Groupon vs. WOIP
The Anti porn group, War On Illegal Pornography (WOIP) recently targeted Groupon for presenting a coupon for the KINK.com Armory building tour. The Armory building in San Francisco has a lot of history to it. It has a castle-like appearance and was home to the United States National Guard. It also housed many sporting events during the 1920's. The building then sat empty for nearly 30 years starting in the 70's until it was taken over by KINK. For the most part KINK has left the building in its original state. San Francisco is the capitol for supporting GLBT rights and is a very friendly kinky community.
The coupon offereed by Groupon lets tourists view much of the building and get a history lesson. The tour also takes the tourists on some of KINK's sets and it may also allow them to catch a bit of a live filming. Below is the few minute article by the San Francisco Huffington Post. It also features a Youtube video following some people through the tour. Below that is a Youtube video by Dawn from "Porn Harms".
Groupon & Kink.com vs. WOIP
I am actually shocked that Groupon would offer this coupon in the first place. As someone with a media business background Groupon definitely took a risk by offering this coupon. Groupon probably does have more liberal customers as most of their business targets people in cities so I don't see their audience having a problem with this coupon. Where they could run into problems is on the Business end with advertisers. When Jersey Shore first aired on TV just a few years ago advertisers we're dropping their ad's immediately because of the use of language and aggressive sexual behavior.
WOIP wanted a statement from Groupon and they did get one, it just wasn't the statement they were hoping for. Groupon supported KINK 100% and even stated that exploring your sexuality is healthy.
Although I am surprised that Groupon (1) teamed up with KINK in the first place and (2) supported KINK after WOIP attacked Groupon and threatened a boycott I am also pleasantly surprised by Groupon.
I do agree with Dawn that KINK does have an agenda with doing the tour. KINK's goal is to drive in more revenue just like any other business that would team up with Groupon. KINK is hoping that by providing tours of the Armory they will reach a new audience of clients and get an increase in site memberships. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that and it's actually a slick idea by KINK to offer the tours.
Even though I am involved in the adult industry I will say that advertising with a non adult site like Groupon is walking the line of ethical decisions. Yes, their are adult magazines at 711 and escorts advertising on Craigslist. With that said, I do feel that KINK advertising with Groupon is a tight rope act. I am curious to see what the future holds with similar situations moving forward and if Groupon will regret their decision with WOIP breathing down their neck.
Saturday, April 7, 2012
Accomplished
I've been waiting to blog as I've been waiting on hearing back from a company I was trying to get an internship with. I finally heard back last night and got the position! That means I'm going to be in Chicago all summer. 2 weeks ago I was offered a job in Phoenix, Arizona which I will most likely accept and end up there for a few years. If I accept I'll be moving in late August/early September. With that said I'm still applying to some other jobs so we'll see what happens.
This means I'm definitely leaving Ohio either way. I've still got lots of moving parts to the puzzle but things are starting to come together more and more.
June 9th - I walk in graduation (Although I don't get my degree till August).
June 12th - I start my internship at my #1 choice in Chicago
August - Officially will have graduated.
September - I will be starting a job.
That means I have to find a place to live in Chicago for at least the summer. I'm going to try and get an apartment with my best friend. So we have to get a move on that. I'm visiting my mother for Easter on Sunday and then I'm going to start packing all my things up. I'm trying to sublet my lease here in Athens Ohio for either June-August or July and August. At worst I'll buy out of my lease paying 75% of what I still owe upfront so that I can move out.
Here in the town of Athens, Ohio - the Film Festival is coming up quick, April 13-19.
The short documentary on me called, "Male Femdom" will be shown April 19th at 4:45pm, you can check them out online here - Athens Film Festival
Recently updated my clips4sale - AEB KINK with "Punished Slave" Part 1, 2, & 3 featuring Maya Sinstress. Involves OTK, humiliation, rope bondage, a steel anal hook, spanking, 2 big dildos and HEAVY strap-on fucking, ginger figging, cuming and forced cum consumption.
This means I'm definitely leaving Ohio either way. I've still got lots of moving parts to the puzzle but things are starting to come together more and more.
June 9th - I walk in graduation (Although I don't get my degree till August).
June 12th - I start my internship at my #1 choice in Chicago
August - Officially will have graduated.
September - I will be starting a job.
That means I have to find a place to live in Chicago for at least the summer. I'm going to try and get an apartment with my best friend. So we have to get a move on that. I'm visiting my mother for Easter on Sunday and then I'm going to start packing all my things up. I'm trying to sublet my lease here in Athens Ohio for either June-August or July and August. At worst I'll buy out of my lease paying 75% of what I still owe upfront so that I can move out.
Here in the town of Athens, Ohio - the Film Festival is coming up quick, April 13-19.
The short documentary on me called, "Male Femdom" will be shown April 19th at 4:45pm, you can check them out online here - Athens Film Festival
Recently updated my clips4sale - AEB KINK with "Punished Slave" Part 1, 2, & 3 featuring Maya Sinstress. Involves OTK, humiliation, rope bondage, a steel anal hook, spanking, 2 big dildos and HEAVY strap-on fucking, ginger figging, cuming and forced cum consumption.
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Saturday, March 24, 2012
SB Kink & Relocation
Spring Break is almost over and it's back to school for Spring Quarter on Monday, March 26th. I've received lots of news over the past few weeks some great and some not so good. As for school, last quarter I earned over a 3.0 GPA again. I'm much better at college than I was at high school that's for sure. I've had the past week off for break and then it's back to school Monday for my final full quarter here at Ohio University. I have to take 12 credits over the summer for a few weeks but that's nothing.
I've been working out a lot over break and while working out I started talking with this guy. I've never met him and he mentioned someone being kinky. Before you knew it we were talking about kink, Fetlife, me and more.... what a strange conversation it was and what a small world it is.
The other night I was being true to my name - Autoeroticboy. I came up with a solo 3-some rigging to fuck myself and suck off another dildo at the same time to eventually masturbate as well. It was hot and worked out really well. Here are a few pictures of the rigging that involved flipping over my chair.
A few nights before that I decided to wear some diapers and be a feminine youngster as I went to bed. So here are a few pictures of that along with my new Ohio University PJ shorts. Thought I'd show some school spirit.
On to some of the news:
Monday I had to go back to the doctor to get my test results in regards to some things that I can be at a higher risk of having Klinefelter's. I came back 100% healthy in general and for my test results on Anemia and Thyroid disorder.
I also had my sperm tested or should I say my lack of sperm tested.... They didn't find any sperm At All! So that means I can't have kids or there is a 0.000001% chance that I could have a kid. I'm not shocked by that, it's actually what I expected. With that said, it's strange having that privilege taken away from you. I've come to terms with it and to be honest I've always said I don't want kids. If I ever change my mind I've always been supportive of adopting children. But, it's official that I can't produce my own.
On some really good news........ I got a job offer!
Not only did I get a job offer, I got a job offer 6 months before I graduate. That's a fucking accomplishment. I've been interviewing with the company since October. I've thought things over and I'm going to accept the position as it's a great opportunity for me. I'll be starting the position in September and relocating...... to where you ask?
- ARIZONA!
I'll be living and working in the Phoenix area. I've never been to Arizona, I don't know much about Phoenix other than some of the research I've done. I know 1 person there from childhood but haven't seen him since 5th grade, although we've spoken a bit lately. I'm not sure how the kink community is there, I don't know the neighborhoods.... nothing!
But I've got some time to learn. I don't have plans to live in Phoenix my whole life but I do expect to be there 2-3 years.
If anyone reads this blog and lives in Arizona and or knows Arizona, the Phoenix area at all, all help/assistance is appreciated. Over the next several months as I learn more and figure out when I'll be moving there etc. I will update it here.
I've been working out a lot over break and while working out I started talking with this guy. I've never met him and he mentioned someone being kinky. Before you knew it we were talking about kink, Fetlife, me and more.... what a strange conversation it was and what a small world it is.
The other night I was being true to my name - Autoeroticboy. I came up with a solo 3-some rigging to fuck myself and suck off another dildo at the same time to eventually masturbate as well. It was hot and worked out really well. Here are a few pictures of the rigging that involved flipping over my chair.
A few nights before that I decided to wear some diapers and be a feminine youngster as I went to bed. So here are a few pictures of that along with my new Ohio University PJ shorts. Thought I'd show some school spirit.
On to some of the news:
Monday I had to go back to the doctor to get my test results in regards to some things that I can be at a higher risk of having Klinefelter's. I came back 100% healthy in general and for my test results on Anemia and Thyroid disorder.
I also had my sperm tested or should I say my lack of sperm tested.... They didn't find any sperm At All! So that means I can't have kids or there is a 0.000001% chance that I could have a kid. I'm not shocked by that, it's actually what I expected. With that said, it's strange having that privilege taken away from you. I've come to terms with it and to be honest I've always said I don't want kids. If I ever change my mind I've always been supportive of adopting children. But, it's official that I can't produce my own.
On some really good news........ I got a job offer!
Not only did I get a job offer, I got a job offer 6 months before I graduate. That's a fucking accomplishment. I've been interviewing with the company since October. I've thought things over and I'm going to accept the position as it's a great opportunity for me. I'll be starting the position in September and relocating...... to where you ask?
- ARIZONA!
I'll be living and working in the Phoenix area. I've never been to Arizona, I don't know much about Phoenix other than some of the research I've done. I know 1 person there from childhood but haven't seen him since 5th grade, although we've spoken a bit lately. I'm not sure how the kink community is there, I don't know the neighborhoods.... nothing!
But I've got some time to learn. I don't have plans to live in Phoenix my whole life but I do expect to be there 2-3 years.
If anyone reads this blog and lives in Arizona and or knows Arizona, the Phoenix area at all, all help/assistance is appreciated. Over the next several months as I learn more and figure out when I'll be moving there etc. I will update it here.
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Chastity Freedom = Chicken Sex
WARNING: THIS POST INCLUDES SOME THINGS THAT MAY POSSIBLY OFFEND SOME PEOPLE. READ & OBSERVE WITH CAUTION
Last night I was allowed to orgasm for the first time in 15 days and 8 hours. I had been in chastity all that time and my previous posts detail this. As you may know my play partner lives in Chicago and so when we don't see each other in person we talk and sometimes play on webcam. All the pictures in this post were taken by her, on her end of the webcam - she did a good job! Also let me say that some of the best joy I got out of last night was that she also enjoyed it. She kept saying that she was bizarrely becoming eroticized and that has to be the best part of it. To be able to mutually enjoy our dirty doings together - just on opposite sides of the spectrum.
Now to the juicy details....
For starters she was dressed incredibly sexy and she has the art of the tease down pretty well. She instructs me to unlock myself and that was the first time I got to really see my cock in over 2 weeks. It was FREE! She had me purchase a full chicken and I had made some Piss Pudding as well however this time it didn't thicken up and so it was too liquidy to use so the PPP didn't see any action. I opened up the chicken and she wanted me to skin the chicken. That took about 5 or so minutes because she wanted me to get a large portion of the skin in one whole piece. Once it was finally skinned the skin was put to the side just for a moment. Then she had me pull out some markers and "do up" the chicken.
First I was told to draw on some nipples and then some pussy hair followed by a sign that said "Insert Penis" with an arrow towards the neck hole. The neck whole was tighter and more like a pussy. Every girl likes foreplay so she had me caress her nipples. I then moved "her" and myself to the bed. I was told to take the skin and wrap it around my cock like a chicken skin condom or perhaps you like the idea of a "Silence Of The Lambs" reference better.
Then she said the words, "Put it in" and so I did. Back and forth, turning "her" out. Pounding "her" good to the delights of my top. It actually felt pretty good. Maybe that was because I had been in chastity for 15 days and maybe it was because it was slimy and semi tight like a pussy. "She" gripped my cock pretty well but I was turning her out as she started to fall apart a bit. Even thought it felt good it wasn't quite tight enough for me to orgasm. I was told to pull my cock out and wrap the skin around my cock better. Then to jack off right onto "her"aka the chicken. This didn't take long at all. Maybe and I mean maybe 30 seconds. I came all over and I always know when I have a really good orgasm because one of my eyes twitch. You better believe my eye was twitching, specifically my right eye.
Today I was sifting through the pictures she sent me and I was laughing and saying - Ugh - that's gross to myself. It's always good when you can laugh at yourself. Overall I loved it and I love that she loved it!
I've been out of chastity since last night and I will be out until Sunday sometime. Then I will be locked up again, and probably for a longer period of time. Hopefully my top makes it to Ohio in October and we get to play in person. I have today, tomorrow and Saturday to cum all I want. I haven't cum a 2nd time yet but I've been in school all day so I'm definitely going to take advantage of this opportunity.
Also my smaller cage came in so I will be wearing that device this go around. It will keep me smaller and probably prevent me from getting hard - which is the point. I leave for D.C. Friday night and will be there Saturday for work. Going to the Steelers bar in Bethesda, Maryland Sunday for the Steelers game and then I'll be back home.
Here are a bunch of pictures.
Last night I was allowed to orgasm for the first time in 15 days and 8 hours. I had been in chastity all that time and my previous posts detail this. As you may know my play partner lives in Chicago and so when we don't see each other in person we talk and sometimes play on webcam. All the pictures in this post were taken by her, on her end of the webcam - she did a good job! Also let me say that some of the best joy I got out of last night was that she also enjoyed it. She kept saying that she was bizarrely becoming eroticized and that has to be the best part of it. To be able to mutually enjoy our dirty doings together - just on opposite sides of the spectrum.
Now to the juicy details....
For starters she was dressed incredibly sexy and she has the art of the tease down pretty well. She instructs me to unlock myself and that was the first time I got to really see my cock in over 2 weeks. It was FREE! She had me purchase a full chicken and I had made some Piss Pudding as well however this time it didn't thicken up and so it was too liquidy to use so the PPP didn't see any action. I opened up the chicken and she wanted me to skin the chicken. That took about 5 or so minutes because she wanted me to get a large portion of the skin in one whole piece. Once it was finally skinned the skin was put to the side just for a moment. Then she had me pull out some markers and "do up" the chicken.
First I was told to draw on some nipples and then some pussy hair followed by a sign that said "Insert Penis" with an arrow towards the neck hole. The neck whole was tighter and more like a pussy. Every girl likes foreplay so she had me caress her nipples. I then moved "her" and myself to the bed. I was told to take the skin and wrap it around my cock like a chicken skin condom or perhaps you like the idea of a "Silence Of The Lambs" reference better.
Then she said the words, "Put it in" and so I did. Back and forth, turning "her" out. Pounding "her" good to the delights of my top. It actually felt pretty good. Maybe that was because I had been in chastity for 15 days and maybe it was because it was slimy and semi tight like a pussy. "She" gripped my cock pretty well but I was turning her out as she started to fall apart a bit. Even thought it felt good it wasn't quite tight enough for me to orgasm. I was told to pull my cock out and wrap the skin around my cock better. Then to jack off right onto "her"aka the chicken. This didn't take long at all. Maybe and I mean maybe 30 seconds. I came all over and I always know when I have a really good orgasm because one of my eyes twitch. You better believe my eye was twitching, specifically my right eye.
Today I was sifting through the pictures she sent me and I was laughing and saying - Ugh - that's gross to myself. It's always good when you can laugh at yourself. Overall I loved it and I love that she loved it!
I've been out of chastity since last night and I will be out until Sunday sometime. Then I will be locked up again, and probably for a longer period of time. Hopefully my top makes it to Ohio in October and we get to play in person. I have today, tomorrow and Saturday to cum all I want. I haven't cum a 2nd time yet but I've been in school all day so I'm definitely going to take advantage of this opportunity.
Also my smaller cage came in so I will be wearing that device this go around. It will keep me smaller and probably prevent me from getting hard - which is the point. I leave for D.C. Friday night and will be there Saturday for work. Going to the Steelers bar in Bethesda, Maryland Sunday for the Steelers game and then I'll be back home.
Here are a bunch of pictures.
SKINNING
DRAWING
REMOVING DEVICE
CHICKEN MODELING
FOREPLAY
SKIN CONDUM
PUTTING IT IN
FUCKING
CUMING
PA-5000 CAGE SIZE DIFFERENCE
Monday, September 5, 2011
Self Humiliation Forced Upon By Chastity
Yesterday I got home from visiting my mother for the weekend. Bobcat and his girlfriend were with me and we went out for my birthday as well. We went to a Japanese steak house and we all had a good time. I got home about 6pm yesterday and it didn't take me long to take out my lack of sexual release in some personal bondage and humiliation. I'm in day 6 of chastity and it seems like every other day is tough. Tomorrow at 10:30am marks 1 week in chastity. Oddly enough it's also my 25th birthday and my first day of class.
Yesterday I humiliated, degraded, semi tortured and also dressed up a bit for about 4 - 4 1/2 hours. I started doing one thing but then I got interrupted by a roommate who needed me for something. So I had to change and undo myself to go help him. Then I resumed and did something a little different and did something I had never done before - chastity will make you do that.
The first thing I did was some cock and ball bondage. I put a green sleeve over my cock to make sure I didn't pinch the skin too much since it's already in a device. Then I took some string that was rather long and tied it up. It was sort of mummified and then I ran the remaining string between my legs, between my butt and up to my hair. There I pulled back my head and tied the string to my hair in a pony tail. It was very tight and if I were to stand straight up it made me look towards the ceiling while also pulling very hard on my cock and balls. If I wanted to see anything on the ground area I had to bend over like I was giving up my ass to be fucked.
I then put on a pamper diaper, a bra and my sissy maids dress which I haven't worn in quite some time after having the seems fixed. This wasn't easy to do with the way I was tied. Then I put on my purple heels and this required me to lay on my back and suffocate myself in spurts just to put on my heels. I returned to my computer to take care of a few errands and I had a few more things planned but was then interrupted. Here are a few pictures.
When I got back from helping my roommate I decided that I was going to torture myself with some toilet play. I think it's always easier to do certain things to yourself than having someone else do them to you so it's a good way to practice. I've done forced piss consumption on myself in the past but I also wanted to add in some scat play. I've never consumed scat and I didn't this time either however I did incorporate it into my scene.
I put on a pampers diaper again, took a squat and then shit some into the diaper. I took off the diaper and put it to the side for the moment. I had to go pee so I pissed into the enema bag and then took the anal end of the enema and slide it through my ball gag that has a mouth opening. It was tough to fit it in the gag but it worked. I also wore a head harness and made it so that I had to have my head straight or upwards so that I couldn't spit much out. I grabbed a lock so I could lock on the gag and some string.
I then sat in my bathtub and tied up one of my hands to limit my mobility. I also had my head tied as I explained above. An enema bag was ready and it has a stopper on it so I would control that with my free - left hand. I then inserted the gag with the enema hose through the gag into my mouth. Pulled it super tight and locked it on my head. I then put one pamper on my head and you'll see why in a minute. It also worked as a blindfold. I took some of the scat with my rubber handed gloves and put the scat just under my nose so I would be smelling my own scat. I put the other pamper on my head, was blindfolded and it held the scat still. I took a deep breath and undid the stopper to the enema bag full of piss. About 1 second past until heavy pressure of my own urine shot into my mouth.
Some over flooded my mouth and down onto my body while the rest went down my throat. This wasn't watered down urine either. I stopped the stopper as I struggled and I thought I had enough. But there was some urine left. So I poured it all over my body and cock and eventually spit urine saliva all over my chastized cock.
I was utterly humiliated, disgusted, semi turned on and shocked.
Here are a few pictures however most of it is a video that will be released on my clips4sale store when I get it up in the near future.
Yesterday I humiliated, degraded, semi tortured and also dressed up a bit for about 4 - 4 1/2 hours. I started doing one thing but then I got interrupted by a roommate who needed me for something. So I had to change and undo myself to go help him. Then I resumed and did something a little different and did something I had never done before - chastity will make you do that.
The first thing I did was some cock and ball bondage. I put a green sleeve over my cock to make sure I didn't pinch the skin too much since it's already in a device. Then I took some string that was rather long and tied it up. It was sort of mummified and then I ran the remaining string between my legs, between my butt and up to my hair. There I pulled back my head and tied the string to my hair in a pony tail. It was very tight and if I were to stand straight up it made me look towards the ceiling while also pulling very hard on my cock and balls. If I wanted to see anything on the ground area I had to bend over like I was giving up my ass to be fucked.
I then put on a pamper diaper, a bra and my sissy maids dress which I haven't worn in quite some time after having the seems fixed. This wasn't easy to do with the way I was tied. Then I put on my purple heels and this required me to lay on my back and suffocate myself in spurts just to put on my heels. I returned to my computer to take care of a few errands and I had a few more things planned but was then interrupted. Here are a few pictures.
When I got back from helping my roommate I decided that I was going to torture myself with some toilet play. I think it's always easier to do certain things to yourself than having someone else do them to you so it's a good way to practice. I've done forced piss consumption on myself in the past but I also wanted to add in some scat play. I've never consumed scat and I didn't this time either however I did incorporate it into my scene.
I put on a pampers diaper again, took a squat and then shit some into the diaper. I took off the diaper and put it to the side for the moment. I had to go pee so I pissed into the enema bag and then took the anal end of the enema and slide it through my ball gag that has a mouth opening. It was tough to fit it in the gag but it worked. I also wore a head harness and made it so that I had to have my head straight or upwards so that I couldn't spit much out. I grabbed a lock so I could lock on the gag and some string.
I then sat in my bathtub and tied up one of my hands to limit my mobility. I also had my head tied as I explained above. An enema bag was ready and it has a stopper on it so I would control that with my free - left hand. I then inserted the gag with the enema hose through the gag into my mouth. Pulled it super tight and locked it on my head. I then put one pamper on my head and you'll see why in a minute. It also worked as a blindfold. I took some of the scat with my rubber handed gloves and put the scat just under my nose so I would be smelling my own scat. I put the other pamper on my head, was blindfolded and it held the scat still. I took a deep breath and undid the stopper to the enema bag full of piss. About 1 second past until heavy pressure of my own urine shot into my mouth.
Some over flooded my mouth and down onto my body while the rest went down my throat. This wasn't watered down urine either. I stopped the stopper as I struggled and I thought I had enough. But there was some urine left. So I poured it all over my body and cock and eventually spit urine saliva all over my chastized cock.
I was utterly humiliated, disgusted, semi turned on and shocked.
Here are a few pictures however most of it is a video that will be released on my clips4sale store when I get it up in the near future.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Self Play: Aneros - Piss - Consumption - Orgasm
Put dick inside baby bottle and taped it to myself. Put a thick diaper on cause I knew it would leak a bit. Used the Aneros prostate massager and I've been getting myself to cum a bit more from it. Anal milking and it's crazy, the feeling that is. So I came a bit in the bottle first and the nice thing about this is your still really horny cause it's not like an orgasm but you produce cum none the less. After doing that for a bit I pissed into the bottle. That's the first part.
Then I took the tape off and had a piss filled bottle with some cum in it. Took my white gag that not only is for attaching a dildo but also has a hole in the mouth gag to insert tubes into. I hooked up the enema bag and put my piss and cum into the enema bag. I then laid down in my bathtub and my gag has a locking mechanism on the back of it. Instead I attached a leash where it locks and tied the other end of the leash to the faucet in the tub so that I couldn't move my head if I wanted to. I kept the plastic pants on because it's sort of bizarre and turns me on. I took the hose of the enema and put it through my gag and into my mouth. I taped it to the gag so that I could not pull off if I wanted to.
May I say that my piss wasn't watered down either. I had to piss all day but I was horny all day and started planning shit to do during the day so I held my piss till I got home to do this.
I decided that I couldn't stop the contents in the enema bag to stop flowing until I had cum. Note: I'm not a big piss drinker at all, but I enjoy putting myself in extreme predicaments. So I let the piss and cum start flowing and it immediately fills my gagged mouth and some starts to drip down my chin and down my chest. The taste and order was strong. I knew it wouldn't take long for me to cum as I was rock hard so I let the piss and cum flow into my mouth a bit longer and then started to masturbate. Before I knew it I had exploded. But, because I had tied myself into such a tough predicament the piss just kept flowing and I had humiliated myself and loved it.
It was an intense orgasm and a fun self play scenario.
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