Happy New Year - Orgasm's to Cum?

Happy New Year!

New Year, same ol chastity for me. I've been locked in chastity since July 17, 2014 and this morning marks 101 days without an orgasm. Originally I was supposed to be released on Christmas Eve but I know that I have to go through the ringer prior to being released. With Her traveling in December and then the Holidays we just didn't have time. Then we spent New Years Eve in Chicago together with my hometown friends and enjoyed a lovely welcoming of the New Year by taking my first ass fucking in nearly 100 days.

Of course we were a little intoxicated being that it was NYE and we didn't have any lube with us. But, we weren't going to let that stop us. A little spit from me and Her and a little bit of my blood from the rough oral I was giving Her cock prior and in She went. She fucked me so hard, so good in our little bedroom (closet) to make sure we had some private space. She fucked me right up until I was about to cum and stopped.

She will be back home in Phoenix with me in a few days and Wednesday I'll be getting my first real marking from Her. I'm very excited about this. She is piercing both of my nipples!!!
I will wear them proudly and look forward to more permanent markings from Her in the future as we grow.

After the piercings I get more of Daddy's dick and rule #1 for me to reach orgasm with the Hitachi in the future is to achieve an anal orgasm while She fucks me. Then, will come further steps (hopefully I get to achieve/pass these steps sooner than later) and then I will be able to cum for the first time in over 3 1/2
months.

I will say, when I have not cum in such long periods of time. I am a lot more pron to do dirty things, I also start to think about and fantasize about such things.

With that said, I've come to truly want to be in chastity. I feel it serves a better purpose locked up than not locked up. I feel more comfortable with it locked up. I feel more feminine with it locked up. Truth is I don't use it, don't need it, in that capacity. Orgasms I of course desire, but that is it.

My CB-6000 (new one) since I broke the last one. Has held up very well, but I believe that's because my body has begun to adjust after spending over 9 months of 2014 in chastity. With that said, I do look forward to upgrading to another chastity belt in time.

Female HRT... Again - This is Different

I've spoken about how I've taken female hormones (HRT) briefly when I was 23, (28 now). I took 3 cycles of HRT (3 shots every 2 weeks) so 6 weeks total and then stopped. Something else I've spoken about in the past is how I was born XXY - Klinefelters. On top of that, if you've ever met me you've probably noticed at least in some way how feminine my body is.

If a male transitions to a woman he has to take testosterone blockers, get laser for facial hair removal, often get laser for body hair removal. I don't have to do any of these things. A M2F wishes to gain curves, lose muscle mass and produce more fat, softer skin. I already have curves, soft skin, and muscle mass like a woman. My process is much simpler.

With all that said W/we've decided to speak with doctors about me going on HRT again. But not with the idea of transitioning. But, to take HRT for another 6-10 weeks depending on how quickly my body takes. I've already got some breast tissue and I'm not doing this to live my life as a woman full time.

The Goals:

1) Feminize my body a bit more
2) Increase pain tolerance

I know that this may seem extreme but W/we would like to feminize my body a bit more without taking it all the way. She (Owner) would also like this. She is attracted by my feminine side and to mutually do this together on my body will be a process but also binding between us.

As for the increase in pain tolerance. It's proven than women have a higher pain tolerance than men. One thing I noticed on my first go-around of HRT (even though I only took them for 6 weeks) was that my pain tolerance increased for about a year or so after.
She (owner) is a true sadist and I love being able to please Her by taking pain for Her. Yes, I do take a good deal of pain in many ways currently and I push to take more but this is an option that I would like to explore more, again - with Her.

The first time I took HRT I did it alone. I noticed an increase in pain tolerance from filming some pain scenes. With that said, that was once a month at best. I'm curious and I know She is as well to test this theory of an increased pain tolerance on a more frequent basis over time.

October 2, 2014 I have a doctors appointment with a doctor who works a lot with the transgender community and is also familiar with Klinefelters.

I will keep you updated on this. I'm very excited to do this with Her by my side.

Daddy Back Home

I don't think people realize just how difficult it is to 1 be a slave and 2 be a cuckold. Both are actually relatively new to me. I mean I've been a submissive and a fetishist for years but I've never been a slave. And to me the term is over used. A slave to an owner is commitment and devotion and is something that is earned over a period of time.

With that rambling, I'm going to say that I've been drinking heavily today/tonight as I write this blog.

I'm 27. Keep that in mind... I'm not an older man who stumbled into bdsm. I'm a guy who has been a fetish model, a person that is recognized in the community, someone who in my own right is a younger, good looking person.... and yet I chose to be a slave. I'm kinky to the core. I'm 46 days in straight chastity and in part is a large reason why I'm writing this post that is admittedly scatter-brained from alcohol.

Anyone that knows me personally, or has worked with me in photos or videos knows about me and my body. I've always celebrated my body but just like most others, I am insecure about my own body. I'm a 27 year old male who was born with Klinefelters, something that makes my body truly feminine; naturally limited body hair, no facial hair, put on weight in my hips and thighs like a woman, small hands and feet, non-developed testicles plus more. I'm someone who has always desired femininity in everything including myself to the point where I took Estrogen for 6 weeks at the age of 23 as I seriously considered transitioning. I'm someone who desires sex but not the way most men do. I'm admittedly the bottom.

Finding someone, particularly a natural born woman who not only accepts but appreciates and can love me for all that I am is more difficult that one could imagine. Perhaps I am a natural born sissy. And that's essentially where I find myself today. A slave to a woman that means the world to me, more than I'm going to put into writing on my blog. She really loves for me to be her girl, she's my daddy and I'm her girl. Yet, I hold on to a piece of fear.

I'm not what she wants in a man. To be honest I'm not much of a man. Of course I can pass in any situation as need be but my desire to be a man is very little. Beyond being her slave this is very scary. As much as she wants and desires me to be her girl, how much can I fulfill is a fear.

Then comes being a cuckold. It's a love hate thing for myself. I love for her to be pleased I do. But, I'm learning my place in that dynamic. And I'm learning that I'm still important and desired by her in that dynamic.

I'm a leave this for tonight. Gotta go to bed but had to write some of whats on my mind. I'm excited to have Daddy back home tomorrow night.

I'm Seeking a D/s Relationship

I want/need to be in a D/s relationship.... I'm seeking to serve a Dominant Woman.

I turned 26 in September and many who read my blog would say to me that I live the dream life of a male submissive. I'm sure that is true on some levels. By the age of 26 I've accomplished quite a lot in the world of BDSM both lifestyle and professional. Ironically, on the professional side it's never been my full time job. I've been a fetish model since I was 20 but I was also in college. When I was in Chicago I was running a dungeon with my girlfriend at the time, traveling for fetish events and again all while in college. Now that my life is a bit more simple and I have a full time "career" job (I am still doing some fetish modeling) but I really want to be in a D/s relationship.

I've been in 2 serious D/s relationships in my time.

1st.) I was almost 19 and began serving a Pro Domme in Chicago by cleaning her dungeon twice a week. That progressed into many more duties and dynamics over time as I served her for a little over 1 1/2 years. (We are friends to this day).

2nd.) I began serving another Pro Domme in Chicago who was also very active in the lifestyle community in Chicago. Many months later we entered into a personal relationship where we were dating for 2 1/2 plus years.

Since then, I've been single. I really focused on school, transferred colleges to a different state. Graduated in 2 years when I was told it would take me 3 years. In September I moved to Arizona where I'll probably be here 1 1/2 - 3 years. Now that everything is lining up in my life it's time that I find someone that I can serve.

Yes, over the course of this blog and most of you who read it know me from my fetish videos and pictures etc. I'm as kinky as they come and with that I need D/s on a more personal level as well. I don't have strict guidelines of what I'm seeking but I do have an outline.

1. Compatibility
2. An attractiveness to one another
3. Be a well rounded Dominant (I'm extremely kinky, open minded & I'm looking to push my limits for a Dominant.)
4. Creativity

I've done a lot in kink. With that said there is so much I want to do. I feel like I've barely tapped into my life in kink. Kink to me is a lot more than play I really enjoy the psychological aspects of kink. Like a woman most things are mental for me.

The more your involved in the lifestyle the more your interests evolve. This is not a list of demands just a list of types of BDSM interests that play a role in my life now and interests that have evolved over time to where I have a large interest to explore now.

(Humiliation, total degradation, feminization, sissy, cuckold, chastity, orgasm control, anal stretching, strict slave protocols, 2 legged pony, toilet training, domestic slave, slave branding/tattoo, castration, bukkake, extreme rubber, trained to take a brutal caning, sensory deprivation, gimp, public humiliation, diaper humiliation, sleep restrictions, confinement, bondage and lots more). I can take pain and understand pain as part of BDSM but the aspects of BDSM that I truly love are mental control, slave protocols, complete and total humiliation and degradation as well as feminization.

If someone is interested in talking with me about possible servitude you can email me on Fetlife - Autoeroticboy or at my email Morgankeni4@gmail.com

Raped & Abandoned

I definitely know how to keep myself busy. Before getting into the kinky goodness here's an update on me in general. I have sub-leased my apartment here in Athens and have to be out of my apartment by May 15th. I'm going to be staying with a friend in town for about three weeks up until graduation. Then, I'll be on my way to Chicago. I'm still peaking around looking for a place to stay over the summer, June 10th through August. I'll most likely end up renting a room in Chicago for a few months.

On to kink.

I am updating my clips4sale. Changing the name from AEB Kink to AEB Femdom.
Reason being because the site is focused around Female Domination. Of course many of the videos are largely in part with me however I am always taking the submissive role as that fits me. Here is a peak of 2 of the most recent uploaded clips.

AEB Femdom

There are going to be a few other small additional changes as well.

The most updated clips feature a 3 part series called, "Forced in the Trunk". It features Jessica Temptress kidnaping a misbehaving male (me) who has been disrespecting his girlfriend. He wakes up feminized with his hands bound behind him and a large ball gag stuffed in his mouth. Helplessly bound in the trunk he realizes theres make-up on his face, a wig on his head, a slutty women's outfit on his body and very high heels on his feet.

The Mistress pulls up to a stand alone house way out in the woods in the middle of the night, pops the trunk and the feminized male tries to make a break for it. Only to be tackled from behind, down a small hill in the woods. He learns why he is in this situation and is soon tied to a tree taking the single tail whip and hard, cold bare hand spankings. His begging for mercy doesn't get him very far as he's then trampled on by Her high heels.

Strung up to another tree with its ass high and wide in the air the Mistress puts on rubber gloves and shoves Her fingers up his ass. He screams and moans and then comes out the strap-on. Slowly, he starts to realize that his girlfriend he has mis-treated and the Mistress were damn serious about his new position as a sissy slave. Ass fucking in cold and wet woods then proceeds to the slave being on its back on the hood of the car. But there is no stopping this Mistress as She inserts her big cock into his ass again. His high heels were up in the air and his moans of anguish were loud but couldn't be heard by anyone.

Pushed off the hood of the car and onto the cold cement ground the Mistress demands that he now give head to the very cock that was just up his ass. Sad-faced and distraught but left with no choice his lipsticked lips suck every last inch of Her cock. She forces him to deep throat it and gag as he drools and looks like a real slut. Still panty-less She orders him to masturbate. Not to mention he is also told to lick the mud off of Her boots from the woods. Worshipping Her boots and stroking his cock he cums onto the pavement. 

Just as that happens She hops into the car and drives off in a hurry. The slave is left running after the car dressed like a slut with no panties and cum all over, only to be abandoned in the woods.

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Below is a short homemade video of myself doing a solo 3some. With some creativity I flipped over my desk chair and rigged a dildo to it. Then I rigged another dildo about 3 feet directly across to it that would be face height when I'm on all fours. I maneuvered my self in between the chair legs and that created a bit of bondage on me. I put a condom on the dildo, lubbed it up and then sat my juicy ass on the dildo. I was just far enough away that in order for me to give oral to the other dildo I had to lead forward, thus lifting my ass off the dildo. This way, I put myself in a rocking motion where when I deep throated the oral dildo my ass came to the tip on the ass dildo. As I slid my ass onto the dildo my mouth would come to the tip of the oral dildo. It was fun!

Here is a few minute FREE clip of my webcam placed where the anal dildo was fucking me.

I've created a Google Plus account with my Morgankeni4@gmail account. I'm going to try and start using that a bit so feel free to add me if you also use Google Plus.

I also just created a AEB Femdom Twitter account. I updated my info but haven't added a picture yet because Twitter was acting funny earlier. As soon as I have a direct link to it I'll make sure to update that. With that said, you can go add that account to yours to follow.

As for this very blog. I altered just a few tiny things. Added a new "Google Plus" Plus 1 on the right side panel. Now you can also enter your email at the top where it says"Email Address" and easily follow the blog this way.


My newest feature added says how many hits my blog has gotten. 

With this post, the blog is approaching 28,000 hits!!!!!

It's been active 18 months at the end of April 2012 and so I must say thank you in all seriousness for the involvement from fellow kinksters and the kink community as a whole.

Here is a picture of me that I took during a webcam session I had the other day with a submissive in Affhanistan serving our Military.