Danger Bunny Morning

I woke up this morning like a kid in a candy store. So happy, excited, I feel like I'm going to the beach or on a vacation. So why the excitement. Cause @GoddessTangent gave me the first order in a long time. The funny thing is, it was nothing very meaningful. I kept calling her about the Steelers game yesterday and I know she doesn't like sports. Then I've been very healthy lately and I've lost 11 pounds in 2 1/2 weeks and haven't been drinking and I got a quick buzz and you wouldn't believe why I'm so excited.

She texted me" if I text/call her again with anything meaningless that she doesn't care about that she was going to block me". And trust me I wanted to call and text her again cause I'm so happy that we are talking again. But I knew the consequences so I stopped.

I was so turned on, I woke up this morning humping my bed. And then it came to me. It's not that I didn't know it, but humans, we are stubborn sometimes and don't like to admit things. But I am a stronger, better, more complete person when Tangent has control of my life. When she makes decisions of what I can and cant do. Not maybes, but decisions. And I think that's why I like chastity so much. It's so mental, it's control over me all the time even when she's not home and traveling. It's mind bending and twisting love. Just the way I like it. Even more so from the one person that I trust and have always loved the most in my life.

As a kid they said humans need certain things to live; shelter, food, water etc.
What I've learned as an adult about myself is I need captivity, I need someone who is as passionate about being in control of someones else as I am passionate about being controlled. And what I've learned from there is that you have to have such a deep bond and trust with someone and for me I love this person. It's GoddessTangent. But since I'm not in chastity at the moment and have no regulations on cuming at the moment I'm going to use my Hitachi right now and cum in my panties.

Happy New Year - Orgasm's to Cum?

Happy New Year!

New Year, same ol chastity for me. I've been locked in chastity since July 17, 2014 and this morning marks 101 days without an orgasm. Originally I was supposed to be released on Christmas Eve but I know that I have to go through the ringer prior to being released. With Her traveling in December and then the Holidays we just didn't have time. Then we spent New Years Eve in Chicago together with my hometown friends and enjoyed a lovely welcoming of the New Year by taking my first ass fucking in nearly 100 days.

Of course we were a little intoxicated being that it was NYE and we didn't have any lube with us. But, we weren't going to let that stop us. A little spit from me and Her and a little bit of my blood from the rough oral I was giving Her cock prior and in She went. She fucked me so hard, so good in our little bedroom (closet) to make sure we had some private space. She fucked me right up until I was about to cum and stopped.

She will be back home in Phoenix with me in a few days and Wednesday I'll be getting my first real marking from Her. I'm very excited about this. She is piercing both of my nipples!!!
I will wear them proudly and look forward to more permanent markings from Her in the future as we grow.

After the piercings I get more of Daddy's dick and rule #1 for me to reach orgasm with the Hitachi in the future is to achieve an anal orgasm while She fucks me. Then, will come further steps (hopefully I get to achieve/pass these steps sooner than later) and then I will be able to cum for the first time in over 3 1/2
months.

I will say, when I have not cum in such long periods of time. I am a lot more pron to do dirty things, I also start to think about and fantasize about such things.

With that said, I've come to truly want to be in chastity. I feel it serves a better purpose locked up than not locked up. I feel more comfortable with it locked up. I feel more feminine with it locked up. Truth is I don't use it, don't need it, in that capacity. Orgasms I of course desire, but that is it.

My CB-6000 (new one) since I broke the last one. Has held up very well, but I believe that's because my body has begun to adjust after spending over 9 months of 2014 in chastity. With that said, I do look forward to upgrading to another chastity belt in time.

Daddy Back Home

I don't think people realize just how difficult it is to 1 be a slave and 2 be a cuckold. Both are actually relatively new to me. I mean I've been a submissive and a fetishist for years but I've never been a slave. And to me the term is over used. A slave to an owner is commitment and devotion and is something that is earned over a period of time.

With that rambling, I'm going to say that I've been drinking heavily today/tonight as I write this blog.

I'm 27. Keep that in mind... I'm not an older man who stumbled into bdsm. I'm a guy who has been a fetish model, a person that is recognized in the community, someone who in my own right is a younger, good looking person.... and yet I chose to be a slave. I'm kinky to the core. I'm 46 days in straight chastity and in part is a large reason why I'm writing this post that is admittedly scatter-brained from alcohol.

Anyone that knows me personally, or has worked with me in photos or videos knows about me and my body. I've always celebrated my body but just like most others, I am insecure about my own body. I'm a 27 year old male who was born with Klinefelters, something that makes my body truly feminine; naturally limited body hair, no facial hair, put on weight in my hips and thighs like a woman, small hands and feet, non-developed testicles plus more. I'm someone who has always desired femininity in everything including myself to the point where I took Estrogen for 6 weeks at the age of 23 as I seriously considered transitioning. I'm someone who desires sex but not the way most men do. I'm admittedly the bottom.

Finding someone, particularly a natural born woman who not only accepts but appreciates and can love me for all that I am is more difficult that one could imagine. Perhaps I am a natural born sissy. And that's essentially where I find myself today. A slave to a woman that means the world to me, more than I'm going to put into writing on my blog. She really loves for me to be her girl, she's my daddy and I'm her girl. Yet, I hold on to a piece of fear.

I'm not what she wants in a man. To be honest I'm not much of a man. Of course I can pass in any situation as need be but my desire to be a man is very little. Beyond being her slave this is very scary. As much as she wants and desires me to be her girl, how much can I fulfill is a fear.

Then comes being a cuckold. It's a love hate thing for myself. I love for her to be pleased I do. But, I'm learning my place in that dynamic. And I'm learning that I'm still important and desired by her in that dynamic.

I'm a leave this for tonight. Gotta go to bed but had to write some of whats on my mind. I'm excited to have Daddy back home tomorrow night.

Coming & Going

I'll be leaving Ohio in 9 days, this time I hope it's forever. After I spent my senior year of high school in Ohio I moved out on my own at 18 and back to Chicago. I never thought I'd end up back in Ohio but obviously that didn't exactly go as planned. I've spent the past 2 1/2 years in Ohio and I have no plans on ever living here again. It feels great to have earned my Bachelors degree and now I'm ready to move on to the next phase of life.

Stop 1: Chicago. I would've liked to of been staying in Chicago this summer because it would make my life easier with an internship and truthfully most of my time spent will be in Chicago (Internship, kink, bars, friends etc). With that said, I'm staying at an apartment in Des Plaines because my best friend just got a new apartment and I'm staying with him. We are really tight and if I am going to be living in Arizona for the next few years I want us to have a good summer together before I go again. Everyone that knows me knows how close me and my friend Jamal are. I know it's important to him that I'm around and it's important to me that we can at worst have one last go at a fun summer.

I've been talking with a lot of models and dommes to shoot with this summer. It's looking like it will be a good summer for filming. I personally haven't filmed in about 3 months and have maybe only filmed 10 times over the past 9 months. Being that it was my senior year and I was taking more than a full load of credits, I had my hands full. I've got a lot of new women that I have plans with for filming purposes. I've also got some people that I've shot with in the past as well. I even got a sexy femme sissy that I have plans to shoot with.

I plan on shooting a lot of diverse material. Putting myself into a lot of crazy kinky, humiliating, degrading, mind blowing circumstances and best of all I'm looking forward to it. I'm always pushing/expanding my own limitations and finding new things that get me off. I'm also focusing on doing a lot of trade for content work meaning all of my shoots will become available at my video store for you to cum and enjoy - AEB Femdom

I'm also looking forward to just attending some kink events this summer. It's been awhile since I've done so. Last year I had a great time at the LRA 4th of July kink celebration so I hope to attend that again this year. I believe it's actually on the 3rd of July. The Chicago legend and my friend Mortis has been teaching kink classes in town again so I hope to catch one of his classes and hopefully I'll make it to Carnel for my first time among some other kinky ongoings.

I'm ready to kick off a hard-working and hard-playing extravagant kink filled summer in Chicago.

Additionally, I wanted to note that I've added a few features to my blog over the past few months. To the right you can see my Clips4sale store. Most recently added are the "Who do you think you are" videos. Which has some really hot strap-on/ass fucking scenes, forced orgasms, blackmail, and humiliation. To the right you can see my Amazon wish list for those that ask for it and wish to get me some gifts. Near the top and again to the right is a new "Share it" feature allowing you to easily share my blog with others on Facebook and Twitter. I've also added a feature that counts the hits this blog gets. It's up to almost 30,000 which is awesome!