SB Kink & Relocation

Spring Break is almost over and it's back to school for Spring Quarter on Monday, March 26th. I've received lots of news over the past few weeks some great and some not so good. As for school, last quarter I earned over a 3.0 GPA again. I'm much better at college than I was at high school that's for sure. I've had the past week off for break and then it's back to school Monday for my final full quarter here at Ohio University. I have to take 12 credits over the summer for a few weeks but that's nothing.
I've been working out a lot over break and while working out I started talking with this guy. I've never met him and he mentioned someone being kinky. Before you knew it we were talking about kink, Fetlife, me and more.... what a strange conversation it was and what a small world it is.

The other night I was being true to my name - Autoeroticboy. I came up with a solo 3-some rigging to fuck myself and suck off another dildo at the same time to eventually masturbate as well. It was hot and worked out really well. Here are a few pictures of the rigging that involved flipping over my chair.

A few nights before that I decided to wear some diapers and be a feminine youngster as I went to bed. So here are a few pictures of that along with my new Ohio University PJ shorts. Thought I'd show some school spirit.

On to some of the news:

Monday I had to go back to the doctor to get my test results in regards to some things that I can be at a higher risk of having Klinefelter's. I came back 100% healthy in general and for my test results on Anemia and Thyroid disorder.
I also had my sperm tested or should I say my lack of sperm tested.... They didn't find any sperm At All! So that means I can't have kids or there is a 0.000001% chance that I could have a kid. I'm not shocked by that, it's actually what I expected. With that said, it's strange having that privilege taken away from you. I've come to terms with it and to be honest I've always said I don't want kids. If I ever change my mind I've always been supportive of adopting children. But, it's official that I can't produce my own.

On some really good news........ I got a job offer!
Not only did I get a job offer, I got a job offer 6 months before I graduate. That's a fucking accomplishment. I've been interviewing with the company since October. I've thought things over and I'm going to accept the position as it's a great opportunity for me. I'll be starting the position in September and relocating...... to where you ask?

- ARIZONA!
I'll be living and working in the Phoenix area. I've never been to Arizona, I don't know much about Phoenix other than some of the research I've done. I know 1 person there from childhood but haven't seen him since 5th grade, although we've spoken a bit lately. I'm not sure how the kink community is there, I don't know the neighborhoods.... nothing!
But I've got some time to learn. I don't have plans to live in Phoenix my whole life but I do expect to be there 2-3 years.

If anyone reads this blog and lives in Arizona and or knows Arizona, the Phoenix area at all, all help/assistance is appreciated. Over the next several months as I learn more and figure out when I'll be moving there etc. I will update it here.

XXY Klinefelters & Kink

It was February 7, 2012 - 3 weeks ago from today that I got a blood test to see if I was born with Klinefelter's Syndrom, XXY.

My entire life I've felt that my body was a bit different than most boys. I remember a specific instance playing basketball and a teammate ran by me on the court after I made a shot and he slapped my ass. Then he said, damn dude! You got a chick's ass. At that very moment it was kind of funny yet embarrassing because I knew that I did have a feminine butt. Then when I started getting more involved with kink at 18 and 19 and playing with different women they would always comment on how feminine my body was. Lots of people are in shock at how non-masculine my butt is. I've come to love my body, my butt etc. I've always liked my body but knew it was different. Last Thursday I shot with Jessica Temptress for the first time. As I was walking off the set in high heeled boots and a mini skirt showing off my ass she shouts, "You have the best ass I've ever seen on a guy!". My ass and body definitely comes in handy when I'm in woman mode, that's for sure!

So, I got tested on the 7th and they took 2 valves of blood. Although, the lady mentioned they only need 1. About a week later the doctor calls me and says, I got one of your blood valves back but there is no paperwork with it which is odd. He's like I'm not sure what this means except that you might not be XXY. He says, he'll get back to me. About 5 days later the doctor calls me again and says, never mind what I told you before, they didn't run that valve of blood. He then tells me he got the tested valve back with paperwork and that I WAS born with Klinefelter's - XXY.

So what does that all mean?

Some doctors argue if that technically means you were born intersexed but more doctors say it does mean that. I feel as if I am intersexed because I have more female physical traits than I do masculine. I am at risk for some female health risks that men aren't like osteoporosis and breast cancer and yet I have some male traits like a deeper voice, cock and balls, and I've lived my life as a male for 25 years now.

I actually responded differently that I thought I would when I got the results. I've thought I've been born XXY for about 4 years now but I wasn't 100% sure. Now that I know I am it's a bit strange to know that you weren't born 100% male or 100% female. The question that comes to mind at first is, what am I?
After coming back down to earth, and asking myself that question the answer is, I am me. I am happy with myself, always have been. I'm able to transcend gender boundaries when ever I want to. I'm able to fit into both gender roles when ever I want to. In a strange way I'm more well rounded. I tend to see things differently than many people and if I must say so myself, I'm one pretty good looking man and one fucking sexy girl! The best of both worlds as it stands.

I meet with some doctors March 7th to talk more about Klinefelter's and what I want to do from here. Some people choose to take testosterone to boost their energy, muscle growth, body hair, facial hair, and for some orgasmic purposes. Some, although many fewer choose to live as a woman and take estrogen, and get a sex change. Some choose neither option and don't take any medication and live the way they are. Right now, I'm the 3rd option. I know that I don't want to take testosterone but I've considered estrogen and a sex change. Right now, it's just remaining with who I am.
I'm not 100% about this but I've read a bit that there is a public fund for those born intersexed and wanting to get a sex change. I have to do more research....

I've gone to a group setting gender identity (Trans Group) here at Ohio University the past 2 weeks. It's been good. The first week I just listened to everyone else talk and here their stories. Last week I shared my new XXY news and we all discussed it. It is nice to just talk with others of all ages and backgrounds who can relate in some manner. I am the only one in the group who is XXY but there are MtF, FtM, Gender Queers and more in the group so it's been good to meet some others in the Athens, area.

I'll keep everyone updated on the XXY thing, especially after meeting with doctors March 7th. 1 out of every 500 males (approximate) are born with Klinefelter's. It's common yet still very un-common and unknown to most the public. This is what it has done to me physically:

1. Long arms and legs
2. Little to no body hair
3. Little to no facial hair
4. Soft (feminine) skin
5. No frontal balding
6. Small hands for height
7. Small feet for heights (For me I'm 6'3 tall & wear a size 9-10 in mens & 10-11 in women's)
8. Weight distribution of a woman (Hips, butt, thighs, stomach)
9. Wider hips
10. Small testicles
11. Low testosterone (I had it tested)

Other Things: (This is personal to me)
1. I took speech classes as a kid for about 5 years in pre-school through early Elementary. (This is a sign)
2. When I began to masturbate (age 7-ish) I began like a woman. Not using my cock but rubbing of pelvic bone area. I can still do this today.
3. At puberty testosterone kicked in a bit but I plateaued at about 15,16 and never matured into what a boy would be.

Health:
1. Very low chance I am fertile. (Probably can't have kids) I'm talking to doctors on this more
2. Higher chance for Osteoporosis (Like a woman)
3. Higher chance of Breast Cancer (Like a woman)
4. Earlier tooth decay

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In some other news:

The first 2 are custom videos I made for a client.
I shot with Jessica Temptress as I mentioned above. She's out of Columbus and was fun to work with. She brought a good array of things to the shoot and we got some great stuff. We shot a kidnapping scene starting with me in the trunk of a car. Then into the woods for some beating, trampling, and strap-on. Eventually I was fucked on the car as well and then left half naked and feminized in the woods.

Then in our next shoot I was a high paid, big-headed actor who was playing a female role in a movie. The director and I got into an argument over nudity and she takes advantage of me. Strap-on in several positions, barehand spankings, slapping and more. Plus, upside down cuming due to all the humiliation.

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I was in Chicago for an interview and then shot with a long time friend that goes all the way back to my early Miss Jaded days. So it was fun to shoot with her - Alexandra Sadista as well as Natalya Sadici It was actually my first time meeting Natalya even though we've known of each other for awhile. Unfortunately, we didn't shoot quite as much as we wanted due to time restraints however, we were productive and it was fun.

I was feminized in lingerie and then forcefully had red lipstick applied to my lips. I was put into bondage and orally trained by a 9 inch - thick dildo. I was made to kiss it, lick it, and suck it. Then I was forced to deep throat it ALL THE WAY DOWN - Upside down. It was difficult but as we all know, I enjoy being a good slut!

All these videos will be on AEB KINK - My Clips4sale Store soon.

Then on Monday I drove back home to Athens, Ohio. But, to make things more fun and of course to save time :) when I first stopped for gas in northern Indiana I took one of my thick & crinkly ABUniverse diapers into the bathroom stall with me. I put it on nice and tight and wet it as I ordered Arby's. I had another 6 hours of driving to do and wet it 2 more times by the time I arrived home. It was nice - "warm" trip.

In Chastity

Over the course of 10 weeks in Chicago I had put on 15 pounds. That's what eating out nearly every night and lots of drinking will do to you. Now that I'm back home I've been working out a lot and it feels great. Today I ran a little over 2 miles. Did a mile on the oliptical, did leg lifts and worked out my abs. I've been working out everyday since I've been home. However today's work out was a little different because.... I was wearing something on my cock.

The P.A. 5000 that I bought from LockedUpLove
Yes, it's chastity device and I love chastity play because it's so intense and fucks with your mind. I did make one mistake though. The size I got is a little big on me. I measured the way they told me to and I thought this size would be perfect especially since many chastity devices I've tried over the years have been too small on me. Even though it's a little large it still works for the time being because it works with a Prince Albert piercing and so it's locked on me through my hole.

I pierced my cock nearly 4 years ago with an 8 gauge and today I was able to stick a 4 gauge chastity ring through my hole with no problems. I could have put in a 6 or 8 gauge but I thought I would try the 4 gauge and it worked fine. The support at LockedUpLove has been fantastic. I contacted them about ordering another cage portion because I want to keep the one I have as it does work and it would be nice to have a back up cage. I ordered the 1 1/2 inch wide cage but I'm actually going to get the 1 inch cage from them as well. I would highly suggest ordering from LockedUpLove. They have other devices, great prices and free 2-3 day shipping on orders over $50.

At the moment I have the keys to the device I am in. However, I am sending the keys to my play partner in Chicago. She's going to hold them and it looks like she's coming to visit me in a couple weeks as well which is a great birthday present!!! She has already tossed out some fun-evil-exciting ideas about the whole chastity thing when I see her. So hopefully all works out and I will see her in a few weeks. I've been in the device since 10:30am east coast time. I also must say that I love this device for many other reasons.

1. You can't see it under clothes
2. There is NO ring around the balls so I don't have a chaffing problem
3. It's comfortable and I'm able to do active things like work out and play sports

The biggest negative with the size that I have on right now is that I can still get hard. However, that is on me for getting the larger device. Once I have a smaller cage I won't be able to get hard. With that said there is still no way that I can orgasm.... none at all.
Here are some pictures at different angles. The last one is with me in panties so that you can see that you can't even tell that I have a device on. If you have a P.A. piercing I highly suggest this device!

Earlier in the week I tried on some of my women's clothing that fits me when I'm a bit heavier. So I thought I would put on some of my shorts and see if it fit since I had put on some weight and they do fit. This picture has me wearing a Goodnites pull up underneath because I happened to be wearing one.
I also got some of my heels from my storage unit aka my sisters basement in Illinois. I re-organized my entire room and then took a picture of some of my heels organized in my closet.
It's funny if a random person walked into my closet they would probably think a female lived here. All my boy clothes are in my dresser drawers and my female things are in my closet. Lol.

Unfortunately I had to cancel NYC and the concert I was going to September 3rd because my friend lost his job and just can't afford to go and so I'm not going to a concert in NYC by myself. Oh, well. I'm a try and see Mos Def and Talib Qweli perform Blackstar in Cleveland later in September.
For Labor Day and my birthday I'm going to my Mom's house this weekend with Bobcat and his girlfriend. They are having a BBQ so it should be fun.

10 Days Of Catching Up

Apologies for the delay in my posts. I'm finally back home in Athens, Ohio awaiting my senior year of college to begin on September 6 which is also my 25th birthday. The past 10 days have been hectic and exciting but due to everything going on I never had a chance to post.

About 2 weeks ago I finally convinced my best friend Jamal to get his cock pierced. He got a Prince Albert done in a 10 gage. We went to Insight Studios on Milwaukee and saw Bob Jones who is definitely one of  the more recognized piercers. He actually fixed my taint piecing that I used to have when it slipped inside me and that hurt like hell. I sat int he room with Jamal and watched that needed pierce him and I loved every bit of it - hahaha! He did take it well on the outside but he was sweating a lot and said he was a nervous wreck inside. I also finally got a ring opener from him. When you have a P.A. you actually need a medical tool to open up the ring to remove it. I took out my ring for the first time ever and I've had it for 4 years. Don't worry I put the ring back in.
Here is what the ring opener looks like.

I also worked a bit the last week that I was in town. I had a session with one of my regulars. We were in a hotel downtown and I used the window to my advantage. We were on the 5th floor and there were many buildings to the side and directly across from us. I told him to find someone looking through their window or on their porch while he was tied in front of the window looking like a slutty CD and getting beat. Later in the week I also had a double with Maya Sinstress.
Here is a picture of the slave in front of the window and another picture of my makeup right before session.

That last week I was saying my goodbyes to a bunch of people. I also helped out a friend who was teaching one of their friends some dominant techniques and skills. She asked me to demo bottom and give my input so I did. This was an old friend I was helping out and it was mostly the use of implements that we were teaching the girl. After that we were teaching her some light bondage and interrogating tactics. Although, the demo turned into a bit of a cuckold scene. The girl we were teaching went upstairs for some water and a little break. In the meantime for long time friend to advantage of the situation. I was was tied to the chair she turned the chair to face her on the couch. That's where she sucked off the guy she has been hanging out with. All the while she was sucking him off she kept teasing me and then she got on all 4's as I sat their and watched her get fucked from behind. She would glance at me and laugh in pleasure. I've known her for awhile and we used to be play partners when I was 18 for about 2 years. At the same time I've never seen her have sex with someone so it was definitely erotic and pleasing for everyone.

For the weekend I spent my last few days with my "vanilla" friends. Jamal had the entire weekend off and Friday night we went out to the bars around Rush and Division. What a crazy night! We didn't even get home until 7am after some early morning Mexican food. Jamal and I are very-very close and we always have fun. Here are some pictures of us drunk and dancing on each other at the club just because it's always funny.

Saturday I was with Jamal and a bunch of my other friends. Sunday I went out to my sisters in the suburbs and hung out with family all day. Early Monday morning I was off to my mothers house in Ohio  and Tuesday I arrived in Athens, Ohio. Yesterday I cleaned my entire apartment from head to toe. This is the cleanest it has looked ever! Last night I met up with Bobcat and his new roommates. One is from Germany and the other is from Kazakstan - that would be the country Borat is from - lol. We had a few drinks, nothing crazy. Then I came home as I was looking forward to sleeping in my own bed for the first time in 2 1/2 months. I also had some diaper fun. I wore a girls goodnights and then put on my last good diaper over it. That means I have to order more diapers soon.

I also finally ordered a new chastity device so that I can play with. Actually the reason I got the ring opening for my P.A. is so that I can switched that out and put on my new chastity device that is made for a P.A. ring. It's called the PA-5000. I bought it from LockedUpLove because they have free 2-3 business day shipping on orders over $50. I also got 10% off for using the coupon code - LOCKMEUP
which I heard is always an active coupon. I excited to play around with this device and it doesn't have a cock ring around the balls which makes me happy. It should be here in a few days and I will post pictures and my thoughts.

ABDL for 30 hours

I wear diapers sometimes but this is the first time I've actually shared my interest with someone else who also really enjoys diapers and AB play. I've been in kink for a long time but I kind of feel like a shy newbie.... I love it! The other night I was out with whom I’ve been playing with and she said lets get some diapers and a baby bottle. When we got home she bathed me. Washed my hair and took care of me. Then I was diapered and given my bottle.
 Doing Adult Baby things is new to me. Something I wanted to explore but something I'm still learning to let loose in. I was holding my sippie cup bottle wrong and was told to hold it with 2 hands. As I laid in bed and watched "3 Ninjas" with her I felt like a baby.
 The next morning I wet my diaper and I could tell that she was excited about that. She grabbed the sheet, laid it on the floor and told me to lay on my back. My diaper was taken off, I was wiped clean, baby powdered and re-diapered. I made a small notion like I was going to stand up and she quickly said... No. You stay there and you can play on your computer.

So then I remained on a sheet on the floor just freshly diapered and naked except for a diaper on. She sits on the couch taking care of business on her computer. I am on my computer but it feels much more like a child's toy than anything else.

I love it! I love that she loves it! 

Much later in the day after being out and about for a bit I wet again. She had a smirk on her face as if she was excited about it. As if she had been waiting for me to wet all day. Again I was told to get on my back so that I could be changed. Baby power and fresh new diapers were on their way. She wanted me to sip out of my bottle while she changed me because she thought it would make me feel more comfortable. She was right, as it did help me out. I then remained on the floor and was given a bowl of apples to eat along with my bottle.

Later on I got a belly rub and fell to sleep for a nap while sucking on my thumb. I wore diapers for about 30 hours straight. That's definitely the longest I've ever done that. I believe I had my diaper changed 3 times in that span.

I love exploring new territory and I love exploring something I've always wanted to but never had the opportunity to do so. It was kind of freeing to do something like this with someone who also enjoyed it just as much on the other end.

Below are some various diaper pictures of me from awhile back to rather recent.

The first picture that is cropped is from my story above.

My Kinky Bucket List

Kinky Bucket List: My list is always growing but I can always add to it at any time on here as well. But, before getting started I must say that the Abena Abri-Form X-plus with a plastic cover Diaper is amazing! I'm wearing one right now and it's comfort level is fantastic, it fits to a T and later I'll find out how absorbent it is. Although, I've read that it is very absorbent.

Also my travel dates have slightly changed for the coming weeks. I won't be in DC/Baltimore in March. I'll be in Pittsburgh March 18-21. I will still be in Cinci April 8-10 and then I'm working on setting up a trip to DC/Baltimore for late April - mid May.

BUCKET LIST: (Not in any particular order)
1. Fully trained 2 legged pony (ideally a female pony)
2. Service a TS
3. Service a fellow sissy
4. Be a bukkake slut
5. Transformed into a rubber doll
6. Full toilet
7. Take a severe caning - bloody and heavy brusing
8. Extreme public humiliation scene
9. Live under a strict 24/7 rule for a minimum 3 months.
10. Be a gimp - Heavy/over the top bondage & confinement for a period of time
11. Live as a complete sissy 24/7 for a minimum week
12. Be anally milked to completion
12. Wear a chastity device for a minimum 2 months. (longest I've gone to date is 13 days)
13. Put in a position to serve & or be exposed by REAL non-kinky vanilla women
14. Be anally fucked with a strap-on by a vanilla woman
15. To be confined in a space for a long period of time. Minimum 36 hours
16. Forced to consume my own cum in a public setting. (Ex: Cum on sandwich)
17. Be a cuckold to a couple

Self Play: Aneros - Piss - Consumption - Orgasm

This actually took a few hours.... So  


Put dick inside baby bottle and taped it to myself. Put a thick diaper on cause I knew it would leak a bit. Used the Aneros prostate massager and I've been getting myself to cum a bit more from it. Anal milking and it's crazy, the feeling that is. So I came a bit in the bottle first and the nice thing about this is your still really horny cause it's not like an orgasm but you produce cum none the less. After doing that for a bit I pissed into the bottle. That's the first part.  


Then I took the tape off and had a piss filled bottle with some cum in it. Took my white gag that not only is for attaching a dildo but also has a hole in the mouth gag to insert tubes into. I hooked up the enema bag and put my piss and cum into the enema bag. I then laid down in my bathtub and my gag has a locking mechanism on the back of it. Instead I attached a leash where it locks and tied the other end of the leash to the faucet in the tub so that I couldn't move my head if I wanted to. I kept the plastic pants on because it's sort of bizarre and turns me on. I took the hose of the enema and put it through my gag and into my mouth. I taped it to the gag so that I could not pull off if I wanted to.  


May I say that my piss wasn't watered down either. I had to piss all day but I was horny all day and started planning shit to do during the day so I held my piss till I got home to do this.  


I decided that I couldn't stop the contents in the enema bag to stop flowing until I had cum. Note: I'm not a big piss drinker at all, but I enjoy putting myself in extreme predicaments. So I let the piss and cum start flowing and it immediately fills my gagged mouth and some starts to drip down my chin and down my chest. The taste and order was strong. I knew it wouldn't take long for me to cum as I was rock hard so I let the piss and cum flow into my mouth a bit longer and then started to masturbate. Before I knew it I had exploded. But, because I had tied myself into such a tough predicament the piss just kept flowing and I had humiliated myself and loved it.  


It was an intense orgasm and a fun self play scenario.

Webcam

Last night was my 1st time doing webcam and it was a lot of fun. I do a lot of kinky crazy things to myself anyways and it's fun to give the power to someone else and know that they are getting off to me.
I created an account with www.livejasmin.com and it took about 10 days for everything to get approved with my ID pictures and so forth. If you want to chat and or watch some live shows of me there you can find me under AUTOEROTICBOY

Last night I was only planning on being on for about an hour but it turned into almost 2 hours as time just flew by. It took me a minute to get used to how things work and then it was fun. I started off with my favorite anal toy already in me to be a ready to stick some bigger toys up there. One guy wanted to see some dildo sucking and worship and then I fucked myself and I know he enjoyed that as did I. Some guys just loved looking at my tattoos and talking about worshiping my body.

Anything I'd do in private I'll do on cam so I'm sure this will be a new fun adventure for all involved. I actually have a scat scene tonight at 8 with this guy I met on there last night. I didn't have to "go" last night so I told him we could do tonight and what do you know, I really have to go. In fact I've had to go for hours so I can't wait for 8pm to get here, only an hour to go. He was also interested in using diapers and I just happen to have some so he will get a good show tonight.

I'm probably going to be setting up a schedule on the site but if your interested in doing some private play with me feel free to send me an email to
Autoeroticboy@yahoo.com
and we will set something up

Again here is my info to watching me on webcam...
Autoeroticboy
wwwlivejasmin.com