Showing posts with label lexi sindel. Show all posts
Showing posts with label lexi sindel. Show all posts

Wednesday, October 4, 2017

A Trans Woman Changing Adult Entertainment

Anyone that has read my blogs over the years know that what I write has nothing to do with plugging others. It's purely about my experiences in kink and sexuality. I prefix because I'm about to "plug" someone without the intentions of giving her more popularity 1) she's already popular and 2) she is in my mind breaking boundaries in the transgender porn world and I very much appreciate that.

For starters... Time passes us all by and I feel that I accomplished a lot as a male submissive in front of the camera but it was always a means to an end for me. None the less, I've always ran in the adult entertainment world in some aspect, and as I've transitioned I find myself thinking that I pretty much feel like an outsider because I'm not working in adult film as a trans woman the way I worked in Femdom as a male submissive. Not due to lack of opportunity but simply out of choice. But the people I run with very often are still involved so I'm experienced, yet I'm not "in their world". So I find it interesting but I'll admit I find the trans women porn world to be over the top repetitive.

So seeing what Natalie Mars has done pushing limits in kink is beyond refreshing.
The funny thing is New Years Eve, Lexi Sindel invited me and my partner to Vegas to welcome in the New Year with her. So I'm at her house and Lexi and other peeps are getting ready to go out, as am I and she tells me that someone will be coming over soon. So I open the door and it's Natalie Mars and I have absolutely no idea who she is. I'm like cool, another girl and we are all going to have a good time.

So long story short of the night it was a blast. Natalie and I got to know each other better and 2 days later we shot our first scene together w/ Lexi Sindel and Mistress Tangent. If you don't know about it yet it was an amazing day with a focus on over the top femininity and sissy play as two trans woman. I go back with Lexi shooting from the age of 23 and I'm 31 now. It's weird when your kink idols become your friends. But some how she always comes up with fucked up, weird, kinky shit which as a kinkster I appreciate. I also love how Lexi always pushes the limits, where I'm going with this is so many trans women feel uncomfortable with crossdressers or sissy play because they don't want to be labeled that. However as a kinkster I still find sissy, over the top femininity arousing. On a personal level I've purposely stopped shooting heavily for years. But going back to my original topic, that is exactly why I tip my hat to Natalie Mars. She is the first and only trans woman who pushes kink while being a trans porn star and to me that is powerful.

Think about it. There are a million trans girl sites. A million BDSM sites that involve men, women, and even some that involve trans women but the ones with trans women all 100% relate back to sex. It's almost like trans women aren't allowed to be kinky and ironically as someone who runs in both worlds, so many trans women are kinky.

So I'll write about it and Natalie Mars can break boundaries. Some examples......

She proposed a fucking machine to Grooby Girls and got it done. First time ever and to put it nicely, it's a very popular video.

What takes more courage is taking a taboo fetish, that's even taboo in kink. And that's ABDL (Adult Baby, Diaper Lovers) those terms can be one in the same or completely separate. Personally I've been a DL lover all my life but even as open and kinky as I am it took me a very long time to be open about it cause even to me it seemed "weird". Now, not so much but it takes such courage as a trans porn star like her who is so popular to not only open up about it, but expose it, show it and talk about it and that is powerful.

Additionally she has done a lot of Femdom, bondage, and more. In some ways I feel like I am her. I guarantee you she had no idea who I was until I met her. But that doesn't mean I didn't influence people, I know I did, I've been told so many stories and I appreciate that. For me, the most powerful thing about being in front of the camera was others willingly opening up to me about their stories, it's that-that I love. Because we all have a story. I feel that my blog has ALWAYS been about sharing an inside light on things that those note involved wouldn't know, but I feel is important to know. And to me, what Natalie Mars is doing is a HUGE step in adult entertainment for trans people. Instead of simply being what someone fetish-sizes she's saying I also have fetishes and I'm willing to share with the world. And I, SOOOOOOO Love that!

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Free Video Trailor & HS Pictures

I was supposed to be in Pittsburgh tonight (right now) but Madame Ingrid had to cancel unfortunately. I haven't been in Pittsburgh since last spring (2011). I've been at my mothers house since Tuesday afternoon and the only reason I've been here so many days was because I was planning on going to Pittsburgh. I know there is a party in Pittsburgh next weekend that Ingrid invited me to but it's way too boring at my moms to stay another week. Oh well, I'll visit Pittsburgh soon and have to have some fun with Ingrid.

Those who know me well know that I HATE FLYING! I've flown a lot but not so much since I've been a young adult. Since I've been 18 I've only flown on 2 occasions. I flew when I went to Acapulco in 2006 which was ended up 4 flights there and back and to be honest one of those flights is what has really turned me off. I puked on a flight when I was in 8th grade going to Philly but not only did I puke on the 2006 flight I thought I was going to die and so did most of the plane. The last time I flew was last December (2010) out of Baltimore after I was done filming with Lexi Sindel into Chicago. Well this time, I'm taking the bus from Columbus to Chicago because I HATE FLYING and it's not that far.

I dyed my hair back to brown today. I had to dye it twice though because the pink was still a bit to evident after the first dye. I also forgot to post a few pictures of some of the shoes that a client has bought me lately. I've been doing a lot of custom videos for him and if you want custom videos just email me at MORGANKENI4@GMAIL.COM
He has bought me 2 pairs of knee high pleather boots, some heels and some ankle boots. I only have pictures of the ankle boots and one pair of the knee highs at the moment since I'm not at home but here you go.



I almost forgot and you may have seen me post this on my twitter or fetlife but Lexi Sindel seems to have almost finished her newest website. With that she has released 6 trailers of video clips for FREE! I'm in 5 of the 6 and in the 1st and 5th one I'm in A LOT of the trailer. However, I suggest watching them all because they are all great and I am sprinkled in many of them. You can see clips for me from being whipped, fucked, eating pussy, tag teamed, worshipping, cuming, sucking my own cock and more with several of the ladies. I'm also in one of the header pictures.
Go here to watch the TRAILERS - Femdom Empire

Since I've been so bored here the past few days I went through some old pictures on my mothers computer and emailed some pictures to myself. I came across some old high school pictures and thought I would share them.
With my High School Girlfriend - I loved the hispanics (Well I still do)
 Homecoming 2004 with a friend
 Me with some of my hispanic girlfriends & then my X (on the left of me)
 Me and an old friend of mine (We we're best friends for a long time)

Well I'll be in Chicago on Monday and I'm looking forward to a great December. Enjoying Winter and the holidays with family and friends. Plus I get to see my play partner :)!

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Piss Pudding Pie & Chastity

Wednesday night was a kink filled self play night full of cock torture and bizarre humiliation. Tuesday was my 25th Birthday but all I did was go to class all day on a little sleep and then I came home and took a long nap. However, I did have a little free time to make some P.P.P. (I bet you can't guess what that is) Piss Pudding Pie. I had a little inspiration from my good friend VonLivid because I know she has some bodily waste cooking recipes. So, I made one myself. After I cooked it on the stove I let it cool and settle in my fridge until Wednesday evening.

I didn't want to just grab a spoon and a knife to eat it. I was worried that if it tasted bad I wouldn't eat it and that just defeated the purpose of making it. I also tried making a piss frosting however that didn't turn out very good. None the less I held onto it and combined it into my play.

I put on my head harness. Then I put on my big (stained) pink dildo and wore it like a strap-on. I pulled my chastised cock back between my legs with a leash. Attached the hook of the leash to the chastity ring and connected it to a towel rack in my bathroom. Then I attached another leash to my head harness and tied it off to the other side of the room. That left me on my knees and 100% balancing ALL of my body weight on my head harness and my chastised cock. It wasn't easy at all. My legs were shaking before I really even got started.

I cut 1/4 of the pie and put it into one doggie dish. Then poured a good amount of the (not so good) piss frosting into another bowl. I then tied both of my hands behind my back. So I truly was only supported by my cock and head harness. I also tried to tape my nose shut so I wouldn't smell what I was eating however it began to fall off and the smell wasn't so bad.

I took a deep breath and then "forced" myself to eat the PPP out of the doggie dish. Every time I ate I was pulling more and more on my cock. It hurt but I continued to eat and eat. I was nervous that it would taste really bad but to be honest it wasn't that bad. It also had a graham cracker crust. I definitely smelled and tasted the urine however I was able to eat it. I ate a large portion of it and then thought lets taste the "frosting". I tried it and immediately started to gag. Not sure if my followers know this but I have a HORRIBLE and I mean HORRIBLE gag reflex. It just happens. I've thrown up on so many videos it's ridiculous. I mean just ask Lexi Sindel, Maya Sinstress, and so many others.
I didn't throw up but it took a lot for me to not throw up. I had to struggle out of the bondage to keep myself from puking every where. So the scene ended a bit abruptly but I still enjoyed it.

However, I accidently hurt my cock. I put way to much pressure on it and that night I woke up in the middle of the night with my cock throbbing where the piercing is. So I had to change the rings. I had a 4 gauge ring in and put in an 8. I didn't take off the device but did change the ring so the next day I told my top and of course that didn't make her happy. So I know there will be in some trouble for that. Today is Saturday morning and it's still hurting, there was a tad bit of blood as well.

Last night my top and I skyped for a long time and it was great. It was great just to see one another as it's been about a month now. We set up an online play date for Wednesday :). I go to D.C. next weekend so I have to take off the device to do kinky work. So Wednesday I get to cum and that will be 15 days of chastity for me. it will also give my cock a chance to heal a bit. After I'm done working in D.C. I am to put on the new small cage that I ordered. Same device, just a smaller cage that should keep me from getting any sort of an erection or at least a smaller one.

My top told me that I am to buy these items for our play date. A raw whole chicken. To make another P.P.P. and stuff the chicken with it. Then to also get a apple or cherry pie. I know she has many other things in mind as well. This is why our play styles line up so well though. We're both creative, filthy minded, and I'm excited to do anything that is needed on Wednesday in order to orgasm. :)

Enjoy the Pictures

Sunday, March 27, 2011

5 days of torture

I'm still in Baltimore, one more night here then back home for school. I'm going to end up missing Monday's class as I'm going to visit my mother for a day but oh, well. Last quarter I missed the entire 1st week of school when I was stuck in Chicago an extra week.

I was planning on going back to school today but Lexi asked if I wanted some to do some more video work with her and Miss Mina Meow on Sunday so I decided to stay an extra day. So tomorrow I'm shooting with them and it will be my first time working with Mina, she's from L.A. I've never had so many marks on my body in my life, I look like a walking rainbow right now. Because of that I have a feeling they are going to want to expand my marks tomorrow, especially considering non of the marks are from them yet.

Wednesday night I did a trampling video with Jade Indica and I had never done trampling before. Personally, it's not my thing but it was on the to-do list and so I we went at it. I'm really hard to bruise and mark up in general so when I start showing marks you know you did some work on me. The day after from the trampling my left thigh and butt cheek were severely bruised and swollen.

Thursday morning I shot with Nikki Domino and Manchester for a new femdom site to be launched. We did some boot worshipping, oral strap-on "training" and some beatings on my already bruised ass and thighs. When doing the strap-on oral I had cut open my mouth and I didn't even realize it until blood came out on the dildo. I didn't know what I had cut, but I definitely did a little damage.

After that shoot Nikki and I went to go shoot another video with Lexi. I got fucked by Lexi Sindel, Nikki Domino, and Jade Indica all at the same time. For awhile I was getting fucked, giving head to another and giving the other a hand job. Lexi had bent me in some odd positions and it was just hard fucking all the way around. They all took their turns and it was hot as hell. It definitely hurt a bit, the odd positioning and hard fucking but I loved it. Then while I was getting a dildo shoved down my throat we re-cut open the cut in my mouth and I really started bleeding this time. I ended up cutting up the thing under your tongue that is attached to your tongue.

Friday: I had a BDSM session with a Dominant man. He always beats me a bit but he was determined to add to my already bruised body and leave some fresh marks. He whipped my stomach a good amount and I haven't had my stomach worked on too much really ever. I got some good whip marks on my stomach and by the time we were done playing my ass and thighs were even more bruised and definitely swollen.

Saturday: Had another session with a Dominant man and this guy was a true sadist. One of the harder players I've ever played with. He had me in a painful prediciment with handcuffs spreading my legs apart and on my tippy toes. Then my hands handcuffed behind my neck pulling my collar against my neck making it tough to breath and a wooden pole behind my head through the arms keeping my elbows up and spread. It hurt! T
Then came the leather belt and paddle and this weren't light hits, they were whacks! I actually hate paddles, it's my least favorite implement because I don't take it very well. The paddle drew blood on my ass and parts instantly created black bruises. It definitely hurts to sit down.

Now, tomorrow I'm shooting video with Lexi and Mina. I'm far past sore but at the same time I love it. You have to work for marks but there is nothing better than having long lasting marks!!!
I'll have to get a picture of what I look like when where done shooting tomorrow. I'll post it as soon as I take it.

Here's a picture after the whipping. This picture doesn't even do me justice in regards to messed up my body is. Lexi & Mini was shocked how bruised and cut I am. Anyways, here's 2 pictures.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Baltimore

I head to Baltimore/DC tomorrow. I normally rent cars from Enterprise but it turned out that all the cars are rented out until Thursday afternoon and that just doesn't work for me. All the cars are rented out because it's spring break so that put me in a tough situation. Fortunately my friend Bobcat knew a guy who was willing to let me borrow one of his cars. It's a 1997 but it runs and will get me where I need to be. Theres a plus and negative in this. The bad thing is I rather have a nicer car and it be more fuel efficient. The good thing is all I have to pay for is gas. Don't have to pay renting fees so I pocket more money.

Wednesday: Shooting with Lexi Sindel & Jade Indica
Thursday: Shooting with Reverse Imaging as well as Nikki Domino & Manchester
                 (This is an up and coming BDSM site)
Friday: Sessions
Saturday: Sessions

I might swing by Pittsburgh on my way back to see Madame Ingrid for a bit. When I get back from my trip I'll talk about my Pittsburgh weekend vacation. I also can cross 1 thing off of my kinky bucket list that I did with Madame Ingrid last weekend.

Got to finish packing and get to bed. Got a 6 hour drive tomorrow and have to get up early.

Friday, February 4, 2011

Travel: D.C. Feb 18-21

A bit of late notice but I'm going to be in D.C. from Feb 18-21

I'm driving there with a friend of mine but for the most part I'm going to be working, I'll mix a little fun in between work of course. I'm taking BDSM sessions as a kinky male. It went well last time I was in DC and I've had some requests to do it again and so I am.

Nikki Domino www.nikkidomino.com and I are trying to work out a photo shoot together as well. Either way me and her will have a fun weekend. I may even let her cut my hair. I've been debating cutting my hair for a few months now. A few months ago I said I would cut it in the Spring and it's almost Spring so we'll see. The longer it gets the more difficult it is to cut it. It's about 7-8 inches all over and that's taken me 1 1/2 years maybe even a little longer. My hair grows so slow, ugh!

There is a kink event going on in DC that weekend as well. I'm not even sure which one it is but Nikki and I said we might go for a night so we'll see. An old friend also hit me up today from Chicago. It was Andriana Santos www.AndrianaSantos.com she knew I was in Ohio currently and she is in Columbus for the weekend. I would love to meet up with her but I'm just not able to this weekend however she is also going to be in DC the same weekend as me attending the kink event there. So, were going to try and get together as well. Catch up, party, maybe play a bit we'll see how the weekend goes.

I'm going to be pretty much going constantly that entire weekend. Lots of work followed by lots of fun.

I haven't even talked with Lexi yet so I don't know if we'll be able to work anything out over that weekend or not. Either way I plan to be back in DC around March 20th for about a week on my Spring Break.

So that's about it for right now. I'll definitely have some pictures from the weekend and be sharing.
This Sunday is the Super Bowl so I'm going to be pumped up for that.
Let's go Steelers!!!

If you want to reach me for a session or video work feel free to send me an email to
Morgankeni4@gmail.com

Friday, January 14, 2011

7 week Road Trip part 1

After Ithaca, New York I was off to Philly. It was my first time there since I was a child, I wish I had more time than a 1/2 a day there. I'll definitely be back. Miss Lydia Rules was nice enough to meet up with me and I crashed at Coral Korrupts place. Coral was already in DC where I was heading the next day. Lydia is into Lolita fashion and she had a dress that she had ordered a bit large so we played a little dress up. Overall it fit pretty good so I have a better idea of what size to get when I start my Lolita collection. My friend, we'll call him "Bobcat" likes electrical play and he saw that Coral had a cattle prod and asked me if I would use it on him. I was like, are you sure and he was game. That was fun lol :) I shocked him on his ass a few times and boy did he jump but at the same time he enjoyed it. I haven't tried it yet, I try to avoid using it on me that is.

Then it was on to DC in the morning. Bobcat drove back home and Lydia and I were on our way to the "Slave Party" hosted by Lexi Sindel. There were 5 Dommes, Lexi Sindel, Coral Korrupt, Lydia Rules, Jenni Fishnets, and Nikki Domino. I had known them all except for Nikki at the time. A good amount of guys showed up but Lexi's 2 personal slaves that were there and I only helped out with the party. The party was for the other guys attending. Eventually they all went downstairs to play and the 3 of us were left by all the food and alcohol so of course I indulged. As the night got late I ended up playing just a little bit with Nikki and it's safe to say Nikki and I had a really good time that night. She's really cool and enjoyable to be around.

I ended up staying in DC with Lexi to film for 12 days. In that time I shot with Lexi, Victoria Sapphire from Columbus, Ohio and Nikki Domino. A ball kicking submissive was also there for a few shoots, and Cybil Troy and her slave from New York were in town for a few days as well.

I'm trying to recall all the scenes I did while there:
- w/ Lexi as Santa strap-on and heavy bondage
- w/ Lexi wrestling
- w/ Lexi boot worship
- w/ Lexi & Victoria double strap-on
- w/ Lexi and Victoria self cock sucking
- w/ Victoria heavy flogging
- w/ Victoria Whipping
- w/ Victoria Caning (first time I've ever cried during a scene & I cried a lot)
- w/ Victoria CBT, S&M scene and bondage
- w/ Victoria boot worship
- w/ Nikki Domino Strap-on
------------- I think that's all of them and then I just helped out when other people were in town.
Lexi had me serving her on a more regular basis while I was there. We had discussed working out a D/s relationship between us on a more regular basis. I have a few play partners but I've been keeping my eyes open to playing more regularly and more intense with someone. Lexi and I have discussed things a bit and neither of us want to jump into something because I take a D/s relationship seriously but things seem to be heading in a positive direction with us.

I'll wrap up the rest of my trip in my next journal.
But here's a picture of Lexi as Santa with her submissive.... Me.