Her Christmas Gift - My Body

My dominant - Mistress Tangent is a sadist and I can be a masochist, with the key word there being 'can'. Most people when they meet me think I am a masochist due to all my film work taking pain and due to my tattoos, but the truth of the matter is that pain in a BDSM context isn't that high on my list. I can endure and the more I do it I can start to build a bit of a tolerance and the pain high is amazing.

More than that, connecting with the person that is putting you through that pain makes it all the better.

It can be rare to connect with someone on that level. Beyond the physical gifts of Christmas I wanted to give my dominant a gift of my body for her pleasure. On top of all of this, this would be the first time she has single tailed me....

As we left for the dungeon and got into the garage she put on my knees, put on my stainless steel collar and then threw on the handcuffs. I stood up and was told to get into the trunk.... It was about a 7 mile commute and I could tell that we were at the dungeon because of the gravel. So then it was odd for her to get out of the car and leave me in there for about 10 minutes or so. I definitely then started to guess how long she was going to leave me in the trunk.

Then, I hear her foot steps as she popped the truck. She attached the metal lead around my collar and lead me into the dungeon. I was ordered to change and then to put on these new clothes. That being white panties, white little girls training bra and a 4 inch school school-girl mini skirt. I got on my knees and waited....................

She guided me to a electronic suspension rig. Cuffed me up and started with 1 flogger, then another and another. All got more violent with more intensity. Some while into it I was moved over to the cross and the she started with a dragon tail on my back and butt.

Then, up to the single tail and she just went at me.......

I did tell her several months earlier that I always wanted bloody white panties..... She listens.

She got into a good vibe and awhile into it I screamed out her name. She asked "What" with an attitude. I was literally about to ask her for a break but for some reason my lips said something else out loud - "Merry Christmas". I could feel the tingles of pleasure run through her body and as a strong moment of connection - a mutual high that the both of us shared together. That followed with her just whipping my ass profusely and I just taking it for her.

( Unfortunately, we were on a time restraint with this being the day before Christmas Eve). She then noticed that we had to run very soon and I was informed that I was going to be beat HARD for 2 minutes to wrap things up.
By this point I was rather extended and I yelled, moaned, and begged with every slash. In the end, she left me with bloody white panties, bloody white bra and with a pain high but more importantly satisfaction because I knew that she got a great pleasure from this present of my body.

I know there will be a round 2 in the near future. As much as I fear it I can't wait for it like a kid on Christmas Eve.

Merry Christmas

Holiday Kink & 2013

Merry Christmas!
At 26 years old this is the first year I've spent the Holidays alone. Being that I just moved to Arizona in early September I didn't want to fly home for the Holidays. I cooked some pork chops for myself on Thanksgiving and I'm still here for Christmas and New Years. There are about 5-6 others that moved to Arizona for the job offer and didn't go home for the Holidays so we all hung out yesterday and tonight are having Christmas dinner together. Should be fun tonight.

I have filmed a few times recently. I shot my first real trample shoot in November in Northern Arizona with Mistress Octavia aka Tangent. Personally, trampling isn't my thing but I thought I would try it out and I will admit that it's a lot tougher than it looks. I was feminized with my hair done (which is the longest it's ever been), make up, and then lingerie. Another woman joined Miss Octavia and I felt like my head was going to pop off my shoulders. It was pretty intense.

I then filmed again with Miss Octavia but this was for her clips4sale store. Did some foot fetish scenarios and then some feminization and bondage. About 2 weeks ago Miss Octavia and I also did a personal webcam scene for a lucky slave boy. I hadn't done anal in many months and I still managed to take my big pink dildo. "I'm an anal professional". The scene was pretty hot with some really hard pounding. When we began we did some strap-on deep throat as well and somehow I cut something in the back of my throat and all this blood just kept coming out of my throat. It was a bit nerve racking but it didn't hurt. It was strange.
If you can't tell, I've been working with Miss Octavia a lot lately. It's nice to have met another really kinky - kinkster in the area that also has experience in front of the camera and is intelligent. Believe it or not, that can be hard to come by.

My new "career" job is going well. Looking forward to 2013 where I plan to do some traveling. LA, Vegas, and some others. I don't like to stay anywhere too long without traveling. I've been in Arizona 4 months now and on top of that I'm not the biggest fan of Phoenix. I do have some friends visiting in the Spring though so that will be nice.

I need to upload videos to my Clips4sale as I'm sitting on some videos right now. The past 2 weeks I haven't been online much because my new cat - Nibbles ate my Macbook charger and I haven't bought a new charger yet. I've been putting my new place together. New couch, artwork, TV, bedroom etc. It's taken longer than I expected to just get everything together and for home to start feeling like home. Because of all this my Clips4sale and kink on some level has taken a bit of a backseat.
2013 will have things coming together for me.

I did get some new lingerie and hot little black dress though. Here's a pictures of the black dress and my new cat who now is about 8 1/2 months old.

Christmas Season

I got into Chicago November 28th and I've been staying with my best friend Jamal, like usual. My first night in town I went to see my play partner but I had just arrived in Chicago so we got some dinner and relaxed. We hung out one other time since I've been in town but unfortunately do to some "outside circumstances" I haven't seen much of her while I've been here. In fact I really haven't done anything kinky since I've been in Chicago and that's been a little over 3 weeks. On one hand I don't mind but on the other I would really like to play.

Maya Sinstress and I have been trying to get our schedules to line up to shoot video but haven't been able to yet. I know I'll be in DC and Pittsburgh in either late Jan-early Feb. DC is just straight work for me, video and sessions. Pittsburgh is a bit of work and maybe some play with Madame Ingrid. She wants me to get a lolita dress from Milanoo which have really good prices on many items. I've never really been a lolita but I'm very intrigued by that entire culture and it works great for sissies too. Hopefully the Steelers do well in the playoffs and I can go to Pittsburgh for a weekend to work, play, and watch the Steelers.

Even though I haven't had any kink in my life since I've been in Chicago I've been having a blast. I'm not sure if I will be returning to Chicago post graduation. If I land a job in Chicago then I will be back but if I land a job in another city then I will only be back once in awhile. So, it's been good to spend a good amount of time with my good friends. Unfortunately, when you spend a lot of time with my friends that means you're going to be doing a lot of drinking which adds up to putting on some weight. I need to start working out asap and tone up again!

New Years Eve is Jamals 25th Birthday so a bunch of us got together to do one of his presents but the timing was weird. Jamal, me and his girlfriend went to the Steelers bar in Lakeview last Monday night and did a good deal of drinking. Jamal got called into work at 1am for an emergency but he didn't want to drive to work being drunk. His girlfriend took him and I took his car and went over to another one of our friends house because we are installing his subwoofers. Only one of us know how to do that and that's not me, there were 4 of us and one was a girl. We were all drinking and installed the system from 1am to 7am in the morning.

Speaking of NYE, we're going to the Hyatt in Rosemont. There's about 12 or so of us total. NYE is always fun and we've heard good things about this event from some people we know. School starts Jan 3rd and I was going to head back to Ohio Jan 2nd but I decided to skip my first week of school. It's just the first week and 2 of my 5 teachers I had this past quarter so I'm not concerned. The reason I'm staying a few days more in Chicago is because I'm getting tattooed. I haven't been tattooed in 8 months and it's been over a year since my main artist has done work on me. I'm getting the picture below of me crossdressed. The piece is going to fit perfectly with where I want it and it will be just below my ballgag tattoo. The piece in total will be about 4-5 inches wide and about 10 inches tall, so it will be a good size piece. It will sit on my lower left ribs, stomach and hip area and so it will be painful. But, as we all know I like a bit of pain.

Maybe it's a bit narcissistic of me to get a picture of myself tattooed but this is my thinking. I've been trying to think of a tattoo to get to symbolize my crossdressing side. I've been thinking for a few years and I finally thought, why not get a portrait style pinup of myself.

When I do get back to Ohio I will be hard at work. I've been filling out resumes and cover letters while here in Chicago and will continue to do so in Ohio. I also have a BIG 2nd interview in late Jan-early Feb so I have to prepare for that. This past quarter I earned a 3.0 while taking the max amount of classes possible, so hopefully I can repeat that this quarter. I also have 2 planned custom videos I'm going to be shooting. So, it's safe to say I will have a full plate when returning to Ohio in 2 weeks.

Until then I'm going to continue to enjoy the Holidays with friends and family. I have a few people I still have to see before I leave and bit more fun to have. Merry Christmas to everyone and happy kinking!

7 week Road Trip part 1

After Ithaca, New York I was off to Philly. It was my first time there since I was a child, I wish I had more time than a 1/2 a day there. I'll definitely be back. Miss Lydia Rules was nice enough to meet up with me and I crashed at Coral Korrupts place. Coral was already in DC where I was heading the next day. Lydia is into Lolita fashion and she had a dress that she had ordered a bit large so we played a little dress up. Overall it fit pretty good so I have a better idea of what size to get when I start my Lolita collection. My friend, we'll call him "Bobcat" likes electrical play and he saw that Coral had a cattle prod and asked me if I would use it on him. I was like, are you sure and he was game. That was fun lol :) I shocked him on his ass a few times and boy did he jump but at the same time he enjoyed it. I haven't tried it yet, I try to avoid using it on me that is.

Then it was on to DC in the morning. Bobcat drove back home and Lydia and I were on our way to the "Slave Party" hosted by Lexi Sindel. There were 5 Dommes, Lexi Sindel, Coral Korrupt, Lydia Rules, Jenni Fishnets, and Nikki Domino. I had known them all except for Nikki at the time. A good amount of guys showed up but Lexi's 2 personal slaves that were there and I only helped out with the party. The party was for the other guys attending. Eventually they all went downstairs to play and the 3 of us were left by all the food and alcohol so of course I indulged. As the night got late I ended up playing just a little bit with Nikki and it's safe to say Nikki and I had a really good time that night. She's really cool and enjoyable to be around.

I ended up staying in DC with Lexi to film for 12 days. In that time I shot with Lexi, Victoria Sapphire from Columbus, Ohio and Nikki Domino. A ball kicking submissive was also there for a few shoots, and Cybil Troy and her slave from New York were in town for a few days as well.

I'm trying to recall all the scenes I did while there:
- w/ Lexi as Santa strap-on and heavy bondage
- w/ Lexi wrestling
- w/ Lexi boot worship
- w/ Lexi & Victoria double strap-on
- w/ Lexi and Victoria self cock sucking
- w/ Victoria heavy flogging
- w/ Victoria Whipping
- w/ Victoria Caning (first time I've ever cried during a scene & I cried a lot)
- w/ Victoria CBT, S&M scene and bondage
- w/ Victoria boot worship
- w/ Nikki Domino Strap-on
------------- I think that's all of them and then I just helped out when other people were in town.
Lexi had me serving her on a more regular basis while I was there. We had discussed working out a D/s relationship between us on a more regular basis. I have a few play partners but I've been keeping my eyes open to playing more regularly and more intense with someone. Lexi and I have discussed things a bit and neither of us want to jump into something because I take a D/s relationship seriously but things seem to be heading in a positive direction with us.

I'll wrap up the rest of my trip in my next journal.
But here's a picture of Lexi as Santa with her submissive.... Me.