It's Go Time - You're My Cuck Tonight

"It's Go time!!!!
Hurry up, grab the red bag, the bondage cuffs and make sure to wear cute panties.
Bring my strap-on and hurry up, it's Go time!!!"

That's the call I got on Sunday night after Miss aka my Daddy aka my owner was out at a BBQ and it was finally time. I was going to be her cuckold. For me it was a moment of excitement and nervousness. I started grabbing all of the necessary items as She requested and I got another phone call from Her saying to hurry up.

I arrived at the house where she was with him. I made sure I looked good that night, even though I knew what was about to happen there is still a sense of pride in me. I walked to the door, he had his shirt off already and was grabbing on her. A few knots in my stomach but overall it was a rather comfortable setting. We gathered in the kitchen and had a few drinks together to talk and get to know each other a little bit and to be honest, probably relax us all a bit. This was a first time for all of us.

When I saw them caress each other even standing I got knots in my stomach but I knew my place. We had to make a quick run to the store and Miss suggested that we all go. I was the driver, Miss slid in the back sear and for some reason I naturally thought he would get in the seat next to me up front but he got in the back seat with her. Of course, that made sense but for some reason it didn't cross my mind in the moment. We all chatted a bit, I was asked to turn up the music a bit and they made out. It was a very weird feeling for me. I was like nooooo but again I knew my place and I understood what was going on. I just drove and listened while at the same time could feel Miss's touch on my arm here and there.

We get back to the house, go into the living room and they start making out. I'm instructed to strip down to my panties and just watch. A few minutes later we step outside I'm told to sit/lay on the outside furtniture. Miss lays on top of me and he gets on top of her for more foreplay for a few minutes. He grabbed a quick smoke and we made our way to his bedroom.

I'm immediately told to get on my knees in the corner and it starts. He undresses her more, he gets undress and he even starts to ask me questions in a teasing way.

"You like it on your knees sissy?" - Yes.
"Oh, She feels so good, do you like watching me please your Miss?" Yes, please, please Her!

Foreplay continued and suddenly all I wanted was for him to please Her. Seriously, deep inside of me I wanted to see my Owner be pleased by another man. Me-on my knees, Her sissy just watching and yearning to see Her truly pleased. I was getting such a high, such a pleasure from all of this.
I could see the pleasure Miss was receiving from Her control, Her dominance, my submission and our bond. It was ecstasy!!!!!

The next time I'm sure will be sooner than later and it's something I'm looking forward to. It's something I'm not fearing because it was something we enjoyed together. That level of trust in each other, the attention to detail Miss gave me throughout by slight rubs on my arm, telling me to get closer, ordering me to show him how a sissy really sucks Her dick (strap-on), to having me get closer for a better view. There was a point where I got on all fours with my head down on the floor as I had gone into such a great sub space. I was Her slave to be done with as She pleased.

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Right now I write this 12 days after that night. Daddy is in California for the weekend working and I'm yearning for Daddy. Daddy is a name She has taken on, I'm her girl and She is my Daddy. And truth be it Daddy has a high level of masculine tendencies and I have a high level of feminine tendencies. We compliment each other very well in my facets and our BDSM side of our relationship is a part of our everyday, we are lifestyle. But more and more I'm becoming more comfortable with being Daddy's slave as well as Her girl. I can't explain the feeling it gives me inside and I can't explain how I need to please Daddy. It just is a part of me and it's a part of us.

On top of all this today is the 27th straight day in chastity. The previous longest I had ever gone is 13 days. Daddy told me I don't get out until day 66. Day 66!!!!! And I'm not allowed ANY anal of any kind until day 66.

As much as that # ran through my head for days I love that I'm challenged and I love that I'm able to please Daddy in the process. More to come on this and the life of Mistress Tangent (Daddy) and Autoeroticboy (girl) soon.

Below are pictures of the bruises I had on both of my thighs during the cuckold scene from a punishment and the chastity I was in during the scene and what I'm still in as I write this, 27 days in. The photo is from my last orgasm, I cam while in my CB from the hitachi.... 1st time EVER!
BTW.... I have not had an orgasm from a jacking off motion and or sex of any kind since February 1st. That's right, over 2 months ago.

That is devotion to my Owner.

Call Me Slave

Yes, that's correct, call me slave.

I've been serving Mistress Tangent for 18 months now and I just recently made it public, at least in the kink world that I am Her slave. I've never been in my life and there was even a point where I told Miss that I could never be a slave because I was more of a sub/bottom/kinkster/fetishist etc. but not a slave. We laugh about that these days. At that time I really didn't think I could ever be a slave but we have evolved together and our foundation was built on trust from the get go.

Our views on BDSM have always been aligned rather well. We are both extremely well rounded when it comes to kink and we find ourselves indulging in scenarios that our new to the both of us frequently.

I've been around for some time now in the BDSM world. I'm 27 now and proudly, willingly and freely give myself to Her. I give all of myself to Her. On the flip side of the coin She holds me close, as Hers, as Her slave and proudly. That means the world to me. Our relationship is ever growing and evolving. It would be fair to say it's a complex relationship but that's also part of what makes it so great.

We are both strong minded people but we compliment each other very well in different ways.
We push one another. I take care of her; needs, wants, desires all included. She challenges me to be a better person and she also challenges my 'limits', to push past them. I love, absolutely love to push past 'limits' for Her. I get such great pleasure out of seeing Her get 'high' on that. I also push Her to be a better person and push Her as a Dominant to go to new heights and ultimately we encourage one another.

We're still figuring us out. Every D/s relationship is different.
Dominant and slave is a part of who we are to one-another. But what makes that part of us together so great is the bond we share.

 After caning from punishment - Miss Grabbing whats Her's

 Some late night rope bondage practice. Chest harness & twine face bondage

 Adjusting CB while in diaper in car right before sushi. (Not sure why my hair looks several colors)

 Random-fun pic.

 Another view after the punishment caning

 Bound position Miss had me in for the punishment so I couldn't squirm. Will be great for fucking too.

 After I had wisdom tooth pulled. Miss took care of me for few days, fun pic I sent Her as She bought baby food.

Shock collar literally bought for dog training. But it has it's dual purpose and this is us testing it out on my balls.

Her Christmas Gift - My Body

My dominant - Mistress Tangent is a sadist and I can be a masochist, with the key word there being 'can'. Most people when they meet me think I am a masochist due to all my film work taking pain and due to my tattoos, but the truth of the matter is that pain in a BDSM context isn't that high on my list. I can endure and the more I do it I can start to build a bit of a tolerance and the pain high is amazing.

More than that, connecting with the person that is putting you through that pain makes it all the better.

It can be rare to connect with someone on that level. Beyond the physical gifts of Christmas I wanted to give my dominant a gift of my body for her pleasure. On top of all of this, this would be the first time she has single tailed me....

As we left for the dungeon and got into the garage she put on my knees, put on my stainless steel collar and then threw on the handcuffs. I stood up and was told to get into the trunk.... It was about a 7 mile commute and I could tell that we were at the dungeon because of the gravel. So then it was odd for her to get out of the car and leave me in there for about 10 minutes or so. I definitely then started to guess how long she was going to leave me in the trunk.

Then, I hear her foot steps as she popped the truck. She attached the metal lead around my collar and lead me into the dungeon. I was ordered to change and then to put on these new clothes. That being white panties, white little girls training bra and a 4 inch school school-girl mini skirt. I got on my knees and waited....................

She guided me to a electronic suspension rig. Cuffed me up and started with 1 flogger, then another and another. All got more violent with more intensity. Some while into it I was moved over to the cross and the she started with a dragon tail on my back and butt.

Then, up to the single tail and she just went at me.......

I did tell her several months earlier that I always wanted bloody white panties..... She listens.

She got into a good vibe and awhile into it I screamed out her name. She asked "What" with an attitude. I was literally about to ask her for a break but for some reason my lips said something else out loud - "Merry Christmas". I could feel the tingles of pleasure run through her body and as a strong moment of connection - a mutual high that the both of us shared together. That followed with her just whipping my ass profusely and I just taking it for her.

( Unfortunately, we were on a time restraint with this being the day before Christmas Eve). She then noticed that we had to run very soon and I was informed that I was going to be beat HARD for 2 minutes to wrap things up.
By this point I was rather extended and I yelled, moaned, and begged with every slash. In the end, she left me with bloody white panties, bloody white bra and with a pain high but more importantly satisfaction because I knew that she got a great pleasure from this present of my body.

I know there will be a round 2 in the near future. As much as I fear it I can't wait for it like a kid on Christmas Eve.

Merry Christmas

Mistress Tangent

I want to share a website / blog with all of you to check out.

Mistress Tangent is a really good friend of mine. She's a Femdom from Phoenix but travels all over and she recently (as of a couple months ago) started a website and also has a diary/blog similar to mine on her website.

For all of you kinksters out there that love to worship a beautiful and truly kinky dominant woman I highly suggest you taking a look at her site - MistressTangent

I've been in the BDSM world for 10 years now and there are a lot of beautiful women but some of them aren't as kinky as they put off. Mistress Tangent is a kinky as she puts off if not kinkier and so I have to show love and support here on my blog.

Phoenix - I'm Coming Back

June 2013 I left Phoenix for New York City for a job offer. December 1st, 2013 I'll be back living in Phoenix still working with the same company but in Phoenix.

I'm very much looking forward to moving back to Arizona and the timing is great because it's starting to get cold in NYC. The first time I moved to Phoenix I literally didn't know anyone. Now I know a lot of people, have some friends there, know the city, theres a lot of opportunity for me there and my play partner is there.

Anyone that knows me or knows me from my blog probably gets the sense that I get around. Just in the past 4 years I've lived in Chicago, Ohio, Phoenix, and NYC. On top of that I travel a pretty good amount and made a trip across the country in U-Haul. Moving, traveling etc. can have it's perks but I'm looking to settle down and stay put for awhile and so I'm excited to be heading back to Phoenix.

NYC 27 With New Hair

I've been in New York City for 3 months now and time really does go by fast.

The new "career" job is going very well and they recently opened a new office in Scottsdale, Arizona where I moved from which opens the door to me for many things. Not to mention, I left someone in Arizona that means more to me everyday so I'm looking forward to missing some of the New York winters and spending that time in warmer Arizona.

September 6th was my 27th birthday. Talk about time flying by. It's hard to believe I'm already 27. To think that I got publicly involved with kink at 18, by 19 was a pretty big staple in the Chicago kink scene and to look at where it took me and where I am today. It's kind of full cycle. I've definitely slowed down my public exposure and modeling but at the same time I'm having some of the best kink experiences of my life. At 27 this feels like everything I ever wanted out of kink with so much left to explore and who knows where this world of BDSM will lead me to next.
I recently heard some good things about CYN Studios dungeon here in NYC and so I plan to check out some of their parties.

Oh, but my birthday. My dominant and I had a wonderful birthday dinner. Her birthday is very close to mine and so we went out to this great restaurant that I had booked reservations for 2 weeks out in advance. L'Artusi. It was simply amazing and may have been the best food I've ever ate in my life. She had also bought me some new sissy clothes.

- Pink adult baby dress (Lockable)
- White PVC, pink satin on inside with anal zipper that is meant to wear diapers underneath and locks.
- Lockable ankle heel cuffs. This way she can lock me in any heels she wants me to be wearing.

Other big news..... I CUT MY HAIR. I've been growing my hair for about 4 years now. Up until I cut it, it was the longest it had ever been. With it coming down to about 4 inches past my shoulders. On Friday the 13th - I chopped it off. I needed a change and I'm loving it.

Before picture is from early July 2013 and after is from mid October 2013.
My dominant loves it as well and as she says, I left enough on top for her to pull.

As of September 1st I moved into a new apartment in Brooklyn, New York. I'm already loving the place as it's a new-remodel, 1/2 block from the train with grocery stores, bars, restaurants all very close, not to mention a park and a great community vibe. I've got a huge backyard and an amazing view of Manhattan on the awesome rooftop. I do need to get some new furniture though. The move across the country took a toll on some of my furniture.

Plan on buying.......

New bed, bed frame, wardrobe closet and some other nick-nacs.

I'm about to head out because tonight the Chicago Bears play the Pittsburgh Steelers and as everyone knows. I'm a Steelers fan from Chicago.

Moving to NYC & Kink Of May

The month of May has been a crazy month. Full of lows, highs, a ton of traveling, partying, interviews, a fetish convention, personal kink play and now packing for a big move from Phoenix to New York City.

So the big news is that I landed a new job in NYC. I'm going to be driving across the country in a U-Haul truck with my friend Bobcat. Luckily, it's good timing because he's leaving the country for a few years in mid June and he graduated college about 3 weeks ago. Here is our cross country trip city dates.

June 1 - L.A.
June 2 - Phoenix
June 3 - Austin, TX
June 5 - Little Rock, Arkansas
June 6 - Nashville, TN
June 7 - Athens, Ohio
June 9 - My moms house in Ohio
June 10 - Brooklyn, NY

In the past 2 weeks I had been in L.A. for 4 days, Vegas for 3 days and N.Y. for 1 day. I love traveling but it can be exhausting. None-the-less, it has been an exciting month.

DOMCON LA 2013:

I went to the Friday night and Saturday night Fetish party. Both nights were fun but I did expect the event to be a bit larger than it was. I had gotten to the hotel Wednesday evening and that gave me and Bobcat a chance to have some fun in L.A. We explored Koreatown and a few other neighborhoods. Then Thursday night I bumped into some Domme friends; Natalia Sadici & Mistrix MsE who then introduced me to Michelle Lacy (who I found out spends some time in NYC).

Friday: Bobcat met a submissive who he had some kink fun with. I hung out with another Chicago friend and met a woman who intrigued me. She is a Dominant woman and as the weekend went things evolved. Friday night for me wasn't too eventful. Although I did buy a new latex black dress and a latex waist cincher that I wore to the Fetish Party. Unfortunately we didn't get many pictures, the I did get I'm drunk and it's about 2:30am.

Saturday night I wore my other latex dress that I got from Westward Bound. The white and mint green dress and I do have a few pictures but they are seriously bad. Don't worry I'll be wearing that dress again and make sure to get better pictures before it's the end of the night. I did wear my hair extensions both nights and I love them!
Saturday night led to some kissing and then me and my new Domme friend going back to the hotel room where she fucked me really-really hard with the biggest dildo-cock I've ever taken. She whipped out her big black dildo about 8 inches long and 2 - 2 1/2 inches thick. It was a really hot scene with biting and it was extremely passionate. I think it was the most passionate fucking I've ever taken. It was as if I was fucking a girl and having passionate sex, except I was the one being fucked.... Just the way I like it.

When she pulled off my latex dress these were the boobs she got to look at.

This Domme I'm referring to is strictly lifestyle these days but I'm really happy we met and we're still talking a couple weeks later. We'll see where things lead....

I returned to Phoenix for 2 days of rest and then left for Vegas. I partied with some of my Chicago friends and Bobcat. All vanilla stuff and the best night I've ever had at a strip club on Thursday night. I found me a truly kinky stripper who fingered my ass, bit me all over my stomach to wear I still have bruises 10 days later and did other "nice things" to me. A couple hundred dollars later it was 7am and I was literally the last person to leave the club an hour after the strip club closed. Ha! Not to mention, she was beautiful!

My play partner back in Phoenix and I have been having some great scenes lately. Tonight she's coming over and I know she's planning some public humiliation. Saying that I'm nervous for this is an under statement! With that said, I'm really going to miss playing with her regularly. I've known her since September 2012 but in the past few months we've really been hitting our stride of trust and play.

For instance, 2 days ago we planned to play at night but then she called me and said that she's gonna come over and tie me up while she runs errands for a few hours and then when she gets back to my place we'll play. I got this awesome sensory deprivation hood from Domcon that we've used a little bit but this time I was in it for 3 hours. She tormented my thighs for about an hour before leaving me bound with a prostate massager in my ass. This became really difficult over time as I had no concept of time, couldn't hear, see, or move yet I was extremely aroused from the prostate massager and situation I was in.

When she returned I was tortured more with predicament bondage, choking, huge dildo deep throating, CBT, and punishing yet I must admit hot strap-on. Here are some pictures of the hood from Domcon and then some pictures I literally just found on my phone that she took of me bound before heading out for a few hours for errands.